dear someone,
i know there isn't really a right way to say this, but i can't stand not being friends with you.
sure, we used to fight. but we can apologize and get that over with.
i've apologized to so many times, i've lost count.
kelley lied to you, and you decided to believe her.
thats the only reason why i can barely stand you.
it hurts knowing you hate me.
i mean, it really hurts. and sarah? what did you do to her?
she used to be really sweet. now, she told me its good that im not friends with any of you guys because she can tell me the truth, and she trusts me.
she also told me its hard to be my friend knowing alot of people hate me.
i swear to god..im going to kill you, stab you, and choke you, if our friendship is torn apart because of you and that ***** you call your best friend.
now she is a jerk. she cusses, which is really awkward for me. i cuss, but she
doesn't even seem like the kind of person that would.
she called YOU a *****!
but if i ever told you that, you would find something to use against me.
its hard knowing that when you look at me, you're glaring.
its hard knowing you hate me, when you told me just a few months ago that you didn't.
its hard hearing your voice, because im always afraid your going to talk about me.
july 12, 2008 was the worst day of my life.
since then, my life has been hell, thanks to you.
but there is just something. deep inside me, that wont let you go.
i just have the slightest feeling, there is something i can do to get you back.
but i dont know what.
i know were never going to be friends again.
you've told me tons of times you don't hate me.
yet you and your friends treat me like you do.
you don't know what you do to people.
if you don't like someone, they don't like that person either.
sarah told me that.
i can't believe, after almost a year, i can't let this go.
this life that im living in, has two words to define itself.
my life?
well.
its social hell.
-me.
