New TTC Thread

[esbrick]

MrsCharming I got an LH surge this am too! I need to go to the RE this afternoon, if my boss is in a good mood, and get another internal ultrasound."Moon Riiiver" and stuff! If all works out well then I guess I will take the shot, which I have with me this time! Then I guess we go from there right?

soontobewed ~ So sorry honey. I hope that you will have a good break over the holidays.

chloelovesdisney ~ Fingers, toes and eyes crossed lady!

MommaSnowwhite ~ Just had an HSG. It wasn't terrible but I felt alotta pressure I gots to say. Felt like I was gonna poo! That was crazy. Not unbearable though.

Allison ~ So agree about the modesty part. That's gone out the window. My RE even said as much on Friday when I told him that I wasn't expecting this and then he and I laughed when he said OK NOW I'm going to do and external one over your belly! I had to laugh. I looked at him and was like Seriously?

So the weekend was lovely and we had a great time at the Kindermart for our Anniversary date night. Then yesterday Meg came over so the three of us laid in bed for a while and watched the ABC family channel which was fun. We got home from dinner though and DH (Mike) didn't feel well and puked! I think he got a bit of food poisining. He puked again this am. Sometime I wonder with all this getting ready to do our IUI and with me having issues last week and now he's having them is fate just trying to tell me something! (I can't believe I just typed that) He did tell me that stomach flu or not he'd get the job done! Thanks honey!

As I said I'm going this afternoon but I'm nervous to tell the boss. He's in a grumpy mood and I know that I'm going to be out again having this procedure done fingers crossed. I wonder if I could call my dr and tell him that the LH was up this am would he let me do the shot at home. Probably not. . . Oh girls please cross the fingers that the boss is not cranky about this!

DD&D how many days till your trip?

 

[chloelovesdisney]

Good luck Mrs. Charming!

Esbrick, it is really a pain getting to all the appointments when working. I've lucked out so far and it hasn't interfered too much with my job. Good luck with the boss, I'm sure it will work out.

The tww is nothing but torture. It is almost impossible to keep my mind off of it. I'm on vacation this week and I think I would have been better off at work keeping busy. Of course I know the chances are low, and on the other hand have such high hopes. I'm not even close to being able to test.

 

[D&DDisney]

Holy crap!! I have a LH surge, finally!! I didn't take the FertilAid today, and tonight for the heck of it I used an leftover CBE monitor stick from an old pack that I can't use. Well, whaddya know, LH surge! YAYYY! I didn't think I'd have one this month, sweeeet!

Just had to share my excitement. You'd swear I got a BFP... lol!

Yay!!! To me the pos. on the OPT was just as exciting as a BFP! Now go and get that little sucker. That egg isn't going to get away this time.

MrsCharming I got an LH surge this am too! I need to go to the RE this afternoon, if my boss is in a good mood, and get another internal ultrasound."Moon Riiiver" and stuff! If all works out well then I guess I will take the shot, which I have with me this time! Then I guess we go from there right?

So the weekend was lovely and we had a great time at the Kindermart for our Anniversary date night. Then yesterday Meg came over so the three of us laid in bed for a while and watched the ABC family channel which was fun. We got home from dinner though and DH (Mike) didn't feel well and puked! I think he got a bit of food poisining. He puked again this am. Sometime I wonder with all this getting ready to do our IUI and with me having issues last week and now he's having them is fate just trying to tell me something! (I can't believe I just typed that) He did tell me that stomach flu or not he'd get the job done! Thanks honey!

As I said I'm going this afternoon but I'm nervous to tell the boss. He's in a grumpy mood and I know that I'm going to be out again having this procedure done fingers crossed. I wonder if I could call my dr and tell him that the LH was up this am would he let me do the shot at home. Probably not. . . Oh girls please cross the fingers that the boss is not cranky about this!

DD&D how many days till your trip?

on the surge!!!! I'll be crossing fingers for you too. Go get that little sucker!!! Don't let it get away.
I really hope your boss was understanding and in a good mood.

Good luck Mrs. Charming!

Esbrick, it is really a pain getting to all the appointments when working. I've lucked out so far and it hasn't interfered too much with my job. Good luck with the boss, I'm sure it will work out.

The tww is nothing but torture. It is almost impossible to keep my mind off of it. I'm on vacation this week and I think I would have been better off at work keeping busy. Of course I know the chances are low, and on the other hand have such high hopes. I'm not even close to being able to test.

I really hope the 2ww goes fast for you. Hang in there.

to everyone. I want good news when I return.
I'll be making extra wishes for us all. See you next week.

"All I want for Christmas is a BFP. A BFP. A BFP"

 

[esbrick]

OK so all worked out ok with my boss yesterday and he was very understanding. My sonogram showed that my I am ovulating on the right side and that the follicle grew, 15, but they want it to be 16. I peed again and there was no change to my LH, it was dark yesterday but no darker today, so they told me to wait one more day before IUI. So. . . here I am. . . waiting. . . this sux. . .

I had a nice talk with the nurses yesterday. They filled me in on stuff since each time I go in there is a next step. I mean I know what IUI is but wasn't sure on procedure so they explained it to me. I'm supposed to go in tomorrow at 8:30 AM. Also called about the "machine" this am and was told to just run a q-tip over it as somthing may be blocking the reader. Sheesh. . .

D&DD ~ Hope you have a wonderful trip! Happy Birthday!!!

Hope everyone is doing well!

E

 

[Mrs. Charming]

Yay!!! To me the pos. on the OPT was just as exciting as a BFP! Now go and get that little sucker. That egg isn't going to get away this time.




"All I want for Christmas is a BFP. A BFP. A BFP"

Hahaha.. that's so true. That's seriously ALL I want for Christmas! (And I should know by know that I'm going to be disappointed. Ahh well.

I'm really hoping that I'll ovulate. I got the LH surge, but it wasn't particularly dark. I stopped taking the Fertilaid and whaddya know, a day later, LH surge. Not sure if that's a coincidence. I'm hopeful that if the sperm and egg do their thing, it'll have a better chance of sticking since the surgery... but... I'm just not sure I'll ovulate or if I'm just going to end up with a cyst. I had a little discomfort in my ovary last night, but I guess I'm going to start temping soon to see if I actually O'ed. Wish me lots and lots of luck... I need it!

It's sad, I'm terrified to eat or drink anything that will interfere with ovulation.. I don't want anything I do to stop it! I've been sick for a few days and I can't bring myself to take anything in case it dries up my CM. I gotta get myself some more Mucinex!

 

[Mrs. Charming]

OK so all worked out ok with my boss yesterday and he was very understanding. My sonogram showed that my I am ovulating on the right side and that the follicle grew, 15, but they want it to be 16. I peed again and there was no change to my LH, it was dark yesterday but no darker today, so they told me to wait one more day before IUI. So. . . here I am. . . waiting. . . this sux. . .

I had a nice talk with the nurses yesterday. They filled me in on stuff since each time I go in there is a next step. I mean I know what IUI is but wasn't sure on procedure so they explained it to me. I'm supposed to go in tomorrow at 8:30 AM. Also called about the "machine" this am and was told to just run a q-tip over it as somthing may be blocking the reader. Sheesh. . .

D&DD ~ Hope you have a wonderful trip! Happy Birthday!!!

Hope everyone is doing well!

E

I hope tomorrow goes better for you! Don't you just wish our bodies would cooperate? Drives me batty. I really hope your IUI is successful.

Haha yeah, I know what you mean about calling about your "machine". They give you the most obvious of answers, and you just want to pull your hair out because you waited on hold so long! It's like DUHH!!

Speaking of machines, I got another "peak" reading this morning, but the stick looked identical to last week's "high" readings... I wonder if it's just trying to give me false hope or something!

 

[si-am]

Hey you all. I think it's so funny that we are now giving pixie dust for positive OPKs instead of pregnancy tests. Oh well-- one step at a time, right?

I have given myself a month off those things. No RE, no OPKs, no stressing about TTC. My husband asked me last night, "So what cycle day are you on?" And I didn't even KNOW the answer! I was shocked! I usually can recite it without thinking!

I am actually really questioning whether I want to ever go back to the RE or not. I get SO stressed about it, taking time off work, doing all the ultrasounds and bloodwork... I actually break out in hives on days when I have appointments. I keep wondering if it's stressing me out so much that I can't get pregnant anyway.

Lots of things to think about, for me. But I hope you are all enjoying the holidays, and continued good luck!

 

[Mrs. Charming]

Hey you all. I think it's so funny that we are now giving pixie dust for positive OPKs instead of pregnancy tests. Oh well-- one step at a time, right?

I have given myself a month off those things. No RE, no OPKs, no stressing about TTC. My husband asked me last night, "So what cycle day are you on?" And I didn't even KNOW the answer! I was shocked! I usually can recite it without thinking!

I am actually really questioning whether I want to ever go back to the RE or not. I get SO stressed about it, taking time off work, doing all the ultrasounds and bloodwork... I actually break out in hives on days when I have appointments. I keep wondering if it's stressing me out so much that I can't get pregnant anyway.

Lots of things to think about, for me. But I hope you are all enjoying the holidays, and continued good luck!

Good for you!! I wish I could have a full month where TTC was out of my head!

Why don't you take a break from the RE for awhile, and if you decide to go back, go back , and if not...well, no more hives! Going to the RE was stressful for me and we were just in the "diagnostic" phase in the months I was going to her. I'm really sure it didn't help!

LOL I had to laugh about the cheering on of positive OPKs! Can't put the cart before the horse, right?

Happy Holidays!!

 

[irisbud]

I hope tomorrow goes better for you! Don't you just wish our bodies would cooperate? Drives me batty. I really hope your IUI is successful.

Haha yeah, I know what you mean about calling about your "machine". They give you the most obvious of answers, and you just want to pull your hair out because you waited on hold so long! It's like DUHH!!

Speaking of machines, I got another "peak" reading this morning, but the stick looked identical to last week's "high" readings... I wonder if it's just trying to give me false hope or something!

well, at least it was a peak reading! That is something! My sticks for those always look the same, no matter what. Most of the time, the 2nd day it asks (CD 7) I get a "high" reading then it stays high until it quits asking on day 26. I think I ovulate on day 28, so this month I just pushed everything back two weeks. What do you know, high starting on the first day it asked, which is CD 20 for me. We'll see how this works...it just stays high and that does me no good, especially at $50 for a box of test sticks

 

[Mrs. Charming]

well, at least it was a peak reading! That is something! My sticks for those always look the same, no matter what. Most of the time, the 2nd day it asks (CD 7) I get a "high" reading then it stays high until it quits asking on day 26. I think I ovulate on day 28, so this month I just pushed everything back two weeks. What do you know, high starting on the first day it asked, which is CD 20 for me. We'll see how this works...it just stays high and that does me no good, especially at $50 for a box of test sticks

True, a peak reading is a peak reading.. I just don't know if the eggie is gonna pop out. I might do that myself, just hold back on testing a few days or even a week. Those sticks are so expensive, and I go through about 20 a cycle Then I get these "leftovers" I can't use because you need to use the same lot. I just started buying them on ebay, it's a little cheaper. I just always hesitate because "oh, well what if this is the last cycle?" HA, right. Then I've waited too long and have to buy the dang things at CVS for full price (because a coupon is never out when I need it!).

Why can't they make this EASY, like the name says!

 

[irisbud]

True, a peak reading is a peak reading.. I just don't know if the eggie is gonna pop out. I might do that myself, just hold back on testing a few days or even a week. Those sticks are so expensive, and I go through about 20 a cycle Then I get these "leftovers" I can't use because you need to use the same lot. I just started buying them on ebay, it's a little cheaper. I just always hesitate because "oh, well what if this is the last cycle?" HA, right. Then I've waited too long and have to buy the dang things at CVS for full price (because a coupon is never out when I need it!).

Why can't they make this EASY, like the name says!

I totally feel your pain on that! I go through 20 a cycle too (that's why I am trying starting on it two weeks later this time since I never o in the time allotted; I usually end up seeing when I o on a regular kit while I am waiting for the CBEFM to reset ). The price of the dumb sticks is absolutley rediculous. and they should sell them (for less $$$) in lots of twenty so you don't end up with random leftover sets of ten if you need twenty, as it won't let you use more than that anyway!

 

[WDWorBUST]

I don't know that I have actually joined this group in the past but I just need to vent and know few people who truly get it. I have been TTC baby #2 since September 2008. I got pregnant in February but miscarried. Been trying since, but did take 2 cycles off leading up to our Disney trip because DD hit the 48" mark and I wanted to ride them all with her her first time. This past cycle used clomid and just got AF Sunday night. I'm just so mad!! And then sad!! Why is it so easy for other people? It took over a year to get pregnant with DD, but we did on our first round of clomid (yes I realize because of that I probably had ridiculously high hopes this time around). We were on vacation, I was relaxed, I didn't even temp for the 10 days I was gone. I so wanted this to be THE month. I have just had a year filled with so much heartache. First the miscarriage, then we lost our amazing dog to a horrible freak accident just a few weeks ago - I needed this. I was talking to DH about it - and I don't think men can truly get it no matter how wonderful they are - and he was trying to be supportive and said that it's almost a new year and I responded bitterly that yeah, well last year was a new year too and I got pregnant in it and lost a baby in it. I don't think it helps that I should have a 6 week old baby right now and instead I'm not even pregnant. I just don't know how much longer I can do this. And it's not something you tend to talk about. I've been a mess today....so much that one of the gentlemen in the office I work in asked me what was wrong (which I blew off) so then he sent me an email telling me he would pray for me. (Granted he is a great guy and knows me pretty well) Then someone else came in and caught me crying. It's just been one of those days. Oh....and I should be starting clomid again today, but the doctor hasn't approved it yet, the nurse is supposed to call me anytime on whether or not she'll be calling it in for me or not. How do you guys keep going? I mean it has been like 14 cycles now. I'm not getting any younger. So when do you call it quits and accept that things are the way they are?? Thanks for letting me vent

 

[MommaSnowwhite]

Well I had my HSG today. It wasn't bad at all. I was such a wreck - I couldn't eat lunch! It was quick and the doctor that performed it was really gentle and very kind.

They told me that the dye was able to show both of my tubes. So I guess that is good - right?

So now I have to wait until friday when I meet with the RE to figure out what we are going to do about out infertility.

 

[Mrs. Charming]

I don't know that I have actually joined this group in the past but I just need to vent and know few people who truly get it. I have been TTC baby #2 since September 2008. I got pregnant in February but miscarried. Been trying since, but did take 2 cycles off leading up to our Disney trip because DD hit the 48" mark and I wanted to ride them all with her her first time. This past cycle used clomid and just got AF Sunday night. I'm just so mad!! And then sad!! Why is it so easy for other people? It took over a year to get pregnant with DD, but we did on our first round of clomid (yes I realize because of that I probably had ridiculously high hopes this time around). We were on vacation, I was relaxed, I didn't even temp for the 10 days I was gone. I so wanted this to be THE month. I have just had a year filled with so much heartache. First the miscarriage, then we lost our amazing dog to a horrible freak accident just a few weeks ago - I needed this. I was talking to DH about it - and I don't think men can truly get it no matter how wonderful they are - and he was trying to be supportive and said that it's almost a new year and I responded bitterly that yeah, well last year was a new year too and I got pregnant in it and lost a baby in it. I don't think it helps that I should have a 6 week old baby right now and instead I'm not even pregnant. I just don't know how much longer I can do this. And it's not something you tend to talk about. I've been a mess today....so much that one of the gentlemen in the office I work in asked me what was wrong (which I blew off) so then he sent me an email telling me he would pray for me. (Granted he is a great guy and knows me pretty well) Then someone else came in and caught me crying. It's just been one of those days. Oh....and I should be starting clomid again today, but the doctor hasn't approved it yet, the nurse is supposed to call me anytime on whether or not she'll be calling it in for me or not. How do you guys keep going? I mean it has been like 14 cycles now. I'm not getting any younger. So when do you call it quits and accept that things are the way they are?? Thanks for letting me vent

Venting is how I got my start here! These ladies are very welcoming, I feel like we've become fast friends. I'm sorry you've gone through so much, infertility and miscarriages are probably two of the hardest things a woman can endure. Sometimes it's OK to cry. I don't think holding in the negative feelings does any good as far as TTC goes.

Let us know if you get the clomid, I hope it works for you! It didn't work for me, but I'm not giving up yet. I'm in a bit of a holding pattern myself, clomid monitoring is REALLY expensive!

I wish I knew when to call it quits, I think you're the only one who knows when to say when. I know I can't just yet, but I'm not sure how much more I can take.

Hang in there. Keep us posted!

 

[Mrs. Charming]

Well I had my HSG today. It wasn't bad at all. I was such a wreck - I couldn't eat lunch! It was quick and the doctor that performed it was really gentle and very kind.

They told me that the dye was able to show both of my tubes. So I guess that is good - right?

So now I have to wait until friday when I meet with the RE to figure out what we are going to do about out infertility.

I'm glad your HSG went well for you, I was a wreck before mine too. It was much much easier than I thought it would be. Did they say if you had "spillage" at the ends of your tubes? It sounds like you didn't have any blockages from how they said it.

Waiting is the worst part. I hope you get a good plan of action!

 

[skuttle]

MommaSnowWhite...I"m so glad the HSG wasn't too bad! Sounds like everything is clear. My tubes were clear, but there was "something" in my uterus my Dr wanted to get a closer look at, so I had a hysteroscopy to figure that out. I have pictures of the inside of my tubes and uterus...Weird! DH refuses to look at them, but I think it's amazing that I can have pictures of the inside of my insides!

WDWorBust...Not sure how familiar you are with my story, but I've been TTC #2 since the summer of 06. I've had two chemical pregnancies, but that's about it. My 3 clomid/IUIs have been unsuccessful. I think having secondary infertility does throw a wrench into things, at least it does for me. I'm struggling with taking the time, effort, and money to go through more and more procedures when I already have a child. I feel like I'm taking things away from my DS (time, money, etc.) DH often feels that he and DS are not "good enough" for me. He doesn't understand why I can't just be happy with our life as it is now. I struggle often with being happy with what I have and my desire for another child. My DS is 6 years old. I think his age is the biggest factor as far as when I'll "give up." I originally said I wanted kids 3 years apart, then I bumped that up to 5. Now I'm thinking no more than 10. *sigh* It's tough, it really is. I think if I didn't already have DS, I'd do whatever it takes and spend as much time and money as necessary. But with DS, I just can't do that. My next step is IUI with injectibles. I'm taking a long needed break from TTC before jumping into that...I'm thinking maybe next summer we'll start with that.

si-am... I can't imagine the stress you go through with the RE appointments is a good thing. I think I've decided to wait until late spring/early summer to call the RE again. I never called him back after our first consult. Do y'all think I should call and let them know I'm taking a TTC break before moving on to injections?

Iris and Charming...I bought some super cheap OPKs and HPTs on line that work well. I don't use a monitor, just the sticks, so I'm not sure how the monitor works. Could you use some super cheap OPKs and then use the monitor to confirm peak fertility when the cheapies start getting darker?? That's what I did, except instead of a monitor I used the digital smilie face OPKs when the cheapies got dark. Of course, take my advice with a grain of salt since I've been a failure at TTC for over 3 years.

Just wanted to share that lately, I've been opening up to more and more people about our TTC struggles. Surprisingly, it has helped me a lot to get it all out there. I kept so much in for so long. I never realized how much that was hurting me. Talking about it all has helped so much!

 

[chloelovesdisney]

Hi everyone.

Mommasnowwhite, I'm happy to hear that your HSG went well and you got good news that your tubes are all clear.

WDWorBust, lots of hugs. I have had a similar miserable year. I had a miscarriage, our dog passed away unexpectedly from a fast growing brain tumor, and my friend passed away suddenly from a ruptured brain aneurysm the week of her 42nd birthday - all within 8 weeks. 2009 has been a terrible time for us and I can't wait for December 31st so it can finally, finally be over. I am hopeful that 2010 will be better. I am not nearly ready to give up hope. I have no idea when the day will come when we will give up, but I think that day is about 5 years away, or when my doctor says it is beyond hope.

siam, The RE and all of the appointments are difficult for sure. It is a giant relief to take a break from it sometimes. Enjoy the holidays, the RE isn't going anywhere.

esbrick, lots of babydust for a successful iui!!!

D&D - have a great time away!!!

Mrs.Charming - sounds like good timing.

Hi Skuttle, hope you are well.

Babydust and happy holiday to everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[chloelovesdisney]

Hi Skuttle. I think we were posting at the same time. I'm happy that it's helping you to share your ttc journey with others.

I would give the RE's office a call and tell them you've decided to not move forward at this time with the injectables/iui. I don't think you have to, but might as well give them the update. Maybe the doctor will recommend coming in after a certain amount of time for a check up or bloodwork.

I would like to go on record that I really dislike progesterone suppositories.

 

[EeyoreEma]

Huh- I just found this thread!! I have 2 great kiddos, and am ttc #3. Both my children are clomid babies, and I've just had my 2nd m/c back in November. I'm currently still waiting for good ol' AF to show before I start clomid again. Best of luck to all of you!

 

[Mrs. Charming]

First off, I gotta say, GOODBYE 2009!! See ya sucker, we've had enough of your crap. I can't belp but wonder if there's some horrible numerological significance that made 2009 suck for so many people, myself included.

I gotta go pick up my MIL and grandma-IL for some Christmas shopping, so I just wanted to say a quick hello, Good Luck, keep your spirits up, and offer a kick in the pants for 2009.

Hugs for everyone