Hey everyone! Looks like folks are doing pretty well around here!
I haven't been around in a while. We moved recently, so we decided to take a month off of TTC. With all of the stress of the new house and the move, we're glad we did! But we're back on for this month!
But we had a bit of a heartbreaker. Earlier this year, we helped some friend of ours get started with TTC. (we'll call them M & M) They're also a lesbian couple, and they were looking for a good clinic and cryobank to use. So we gave them the names of the ones we use. They reported back to us the first month and thanked us for all of the info, and said that IUI #1 was unsuccessful. SO we wished them luck, and never heard anything more about the subject. Well, this past week we were babysitting for some other friends of ours and they inadvertently mentioned that M&M are pregnant. IUI #2 was successful for them! I'm so happy for them, and I know that they haven't called us with the good news because they're afraid it will upset us. And I have to admit that as much as I just plain want to be happy for them without any strings attached, I just cannot. It's so frustrating to see others getting their miracles and not me. GOD, that sounds so selfish. But I can't help it.
And then the kicker was that I went last night for a prescan (because this AF was 2 weeks late, and it's super super heavy, so RE wanted to do an ultrasound just to rule out any cysts, etc.) SO ANYWAY, the scan was fine, just an extra thick lining this cycle. But we start talking about ordering our specemin to be delivered from the cryobank, and they tell me that one of the donors we were using was not going to be available this month. It's the donor that M&M used, and there's a 2 month hold for any donor after a successful insemination.

So we'll have to pick a new one. I know this may sound trivial, but it was a pretty involved process for us to pick out our donor. And it's just extra salt in the wound. *SIGH*
I have to get it together. I have to get over this and get on with it. We're back on the TTC wagon, and I'm going to have to lose the negative thoughts and feelings. I'm sure they won't help. LOL
Anyway, I'm glad I have a place to come and type out how I'm feeling about this. I feel like I can't really talk to any of my friends about it, because we're all friends together. And I can't write in my blog because my friends will see that too.
Sorry for the ramble, and thanks for reading!
-Christal