Hello
blah- I told my Garrett my biggest secret last night.. one that I've been very scared to tell him, because I didn't know how he would react. It's about something (bad) that happened to me four years ago. No one but our local Officers, my mom, the other girl, and her mom knows about it. I've always been scared to tell anyone else, because I didn't want to be treated diff. But he told me something last night that he's kept from me.. and it was that I was his first kiss

Yes, he's fifteen, but this is how he explained it to me.. I asked him before and he'd always said yeah like 5 other girls.. well for some reason I had to ask him again.. (btw, we went to school prek-5th, and then this summer before 10th grade, is when we caught back up with each other!) but I asked him last night, if I was his 1st kiss, cause he just doesn't seem like the kinda person to kiss a lota girls, and he said no. i was like how many? he said not alot.. y? I said just because I honestly don't think you haven't.. and he came out all the sudden and was like "because I haven't! you was my first, i just don't like bringing it up.. i use to be big; i just got slimmer this past summer and ninth grade year. i was just self conscious about it, cause i got messed with." i felt horrible! and told him that no matter what he looked like I still love him, and all that. Then he told me that he never knew what the big deal about a kiss was, till he kissed me.

anyways. I told him about my secret, and it was something I told myself i'd never tell a boyfriend, but I just feel that connected with him, I felt the need to all the sudden. & after telling him, and after him saying 'oh my god, i can't believe someone would do that to you" he told me that he felt a whole lot closer to me now. And you know what.. if he were to walk out now, I wouldn't regret telling him..