Dear self,
You need to stop liking any cute looking guy who acts nice to you. You need to realize, despite how much they're on your radar, you are hardly even a blip on theirs. You can't expect them to care, you can't expect them to like you back. You need to stop making stories in your head, and feeling as if they're true. You need to accept things for what they really are with this. You talk to him at work, he wouldn't talk to you anywhere's else. And if he had someone else to talk to at work, you wouldn't even be noticed. You can't expect so much caring out of other people, people don't work that way. And it's kind of creepy.
It just needs to stop. You need to realize that people are nice and they aren't going to be your friend or anything else because they talk to you like that.
Hilary.