dear cold-ness,
GO AWAYYYY.
please. i'm cold. i like being warm.
warm.
warm.
warm.
PLEAAAAASE!!!!
haylea
dear you "even wheels" i have to hang out with,
i just thought that i would let you know that i'm not pmsing. i'm just a little moody. ok i really mean really moody. thanks for making me feel like i'm welcome. you are all going out with each other, and me...i'm still playing the "single game", i'm getting tired of being the one person that you don't notice in the hallway. that one person that you sit next to at lunch, but don't talk to. i'm just sick of it. more likely then not i wouldn't treat you guys like **** when and if i ever get/got a boyfriend. you should learn these things. i hate it whenever i've been friends with somebody for years, we couldn't go a day without talking to each other, we spent every second we had together laughing and joking around, and then...the very next day (after they get asked out) my so called "friend" treats me as nothing more then a stranger that they just met. And actually, maybe not even that nicely. you're just trying to keep up the boy/girlfriend act. you're trying your hardest to keep a dating partner but do you even notice that you're loosing a friend, a friend that you may never find another one of? no. no you do not. so maybe you just want to rethink your actions. maybe you want to think about who you're hurting...and not all you all the time. and even though i don't come out and say these things to your face. you should be able to notice it. expecially sense we've been really "tight" for years. i think that ONLY ONE of you understand my issue. but i may be wrong. and i'm not even really sure why i think that you, person1, could possibly understand. well...actually i do. you're good at reading people. so i just thought that i'd let that out.
haylea.
person1,
goodness. if you would've been at school today you probably would have made it 100000000000 times better. (ok...thats an exaggeration but still...) i mean, this morning when everybody else was just sitting around me. not talking to me. acting like i was invisible. et cetera, you probably could have at least made people notice me, and maybe if they didn't notice me, you could have made me notice you. and you are the greatest person at getting people's minds off something that they don't want to think about. and that might just be me because of my deep feelings for you. and you know...your the only "even numbered wheel" that (i think) cares more about your friends then your partner. and you should take that as a cery nice compliment. i know that you can always put a smile on my face, rain, shine...or if it happens to be like today snow. i love ya for that. not even my "best friend" can do that anymore. i guess i have to be glad that we're friends. if only for that.
haylea.