I can't thank you guys enough for all the supportive posts.
And, to give you an update, I think I got my 'message' from my Grandma that very same night.
I couldn't sleep, and no one else was up, so I went for a drive around 4 in the morning to clear my head. I was just driving aimlessly and wound up a couple of towns over, near my job. I was on a road I travel every single day. I made a left turn and saw the strangest thing (for this particular area, anyway). On the other side of the road was a deer. She didn't look toward/follow my headlights, she didn't run away. Instead, she looked RIGHT at me, turned around and slowly walked toward the trees lining the street. When she got to the trees, I noticed there was another deer just standing there, seeming to be waiting for her. They both then slowly walked behind the trees and I couldn't see them anymore. My mind was just processing what had happened when I looked at the clock - it was 5:11. My Grandma's birthday was 5/11. I just yelled 'GRANDMA' in the car at the top of my lungs and started crying, of course!
But, at that moment, I knew. My Grandma told me she was okay - that she was with my Grandpa again.
I still fall apart a couple of times a day, and I KNOW tomorrow will be difficult when I have to go back to work. But, deep down inside, I know she's okay and, no, she definitely wouldn't want me to be so, SO upset.
I still miss her and will for the rest of my life. But, I'll be okay, because I know she'll be okay.
Thank you guys SO much for listening and helping me...it really meant more to me than you could possibly know!
And, to give you an update, I think I got my 'message' from my Grandma that very same night.
I couldn't sleep, and no one else was up, so I went for a drive around 4 in the morning to clear my head. I was just driving aimlessly and wound up a couple of towns over, near my job. I was on a road I travel every single day. I made a left turn and saw the strangest thing (for this particular area, anyway). On the other side of the road was a deer. She didn't look toward/follow my headlights, she didn't run away. Instead, she looked RIGHT at me, turned around and slowly walked toward the trees lining the street. When she got to the trees, I noticed there was another deer just standing there, seeming to be waiting for her. They both then slowly walked behind the trees and I couldn't see them anymore. My mind was just processing what had happened when I looked at the clock - it was 5:11. My Grandma's birthday was 5/11. I just yelled 'GRANDMA' in the car at the top of my lungs and started crying, of course!
But, at that moment, I knew. My Grandma told me she was okay - that she was with my Grandpa again.I still fall apart a couple of times a day, and I KNOW tomorrow will be difficult when I have to go back to work. But, deep down inside, I know she's okay and, no, she definitely wouldn't want me to be so, SO upset.
I still miss her and will for the rest of my life. But, I'll be okay, because I know she'll be okay.
Thank you guys SO much for listening and helping me...it really meant more to me than you could possibly know!
