I lost my father Dec. 18th last year. His burial was only a few days before Christmas. I had lived with him for the previous 10 years so it was a huge change in my life.
I had to move out of the big house and into a tiny condo. I am currently remodeling it - but it was so awful when I first moved in. It took me a year just to get myself together enough to start putting my life back together.
Hugs - it will get better. I didn't mean for this to sound like you would be in acute mourning for a year. One of my issues was that I sustained a dog bite a couple of weeks after my dad's death that ripped half my lips off.