Jim comes home today after being in Hawaii with his GrandDad for almost 2 months. I am quite apprehensive about his coming home considering through almost every chat we have had since he has been gone that somehow he still brings up his strong hatred towards certain things (Republicans and Christians). I am trying my best to be open minded and respect his views to hopefully not encourage any outburst.
I am finally at a point that once I move out (when I get a full-time job), it will not be because he wants me to, but rather because I want to and know it is best for me in SOOOO MANY ways!! I still wish Jim the very best and hope that he can find someone that will make him happy. I am just scared that I will have to walk on egg shells once he gets home. He has never been violent towards me and I do not think he will. It is just the constant emotional put-downs and afraid of every little thing I might say will bring about a lecture.
Anyway, I know after reading Cathy's post regarding her family, this is VERY MINOR. But, please send some PD this way is you have any to spare. I am sitting here trying my best not to cry thiking about what it might be like. Maybe I am worried over nothing and it will be okay...........but............
I am finally at a point that once I move out (when I get a full-time job), it will not be because he wants me to, but rather because I want to and know it is best for me in SOOOO MANY ways!! I still wish Jim the very best and hope that he can find someone that will make him happy. I am just scared that I will have to walk on egg shells once he gets home. He has never been violent towards me and I do not think he will. It is just the constant emotional put-downs and afraid of every little thing I might say will bring about a lecture.
Anyway, I know after reading Cathy's post regarding her family, this is VERY MINOR. But, please send some PD this way is you have any to spare. I am sitting here trying my best not to cry thiking about what it might be like. Maybe I am worried over nothing and it will be okay...........but............