I'm normally not on on weekday nights, but I'm freaking out. I blew it. I totally blew it.
I made The Call tonight. AND HE ANSWERED. That was the first thing that threw me.
Seemed really happy to hear from me at first..."Oh, hey, how are you?" Sounded kind of excited. I said I'd seen him around and it's been a while and I thought I'd give him a call. I blurted out that I didn't think he'd answer; he kind of laughed and said, "Why not?" I didn't have an answer for that, so there's Throw Number Two. He asked me how I was and I said pretty good, how are you and he said okay, that he was just getting dinner for the kids and sitting down to his own.
Great. Normally he has the kids on WEDNESDAYS, so there's the third thing that threw me. So I immediately started apologizing, I don't want to interrupt his night with his kids...he says it's okay and asks me what I've been up to. By that point, I was extremely nervous and literally shaking so I say not much. He asked me if I had a new neighbour yet. I said, "In your place? Yep, they moved in a while ago, but I haven't met them yet." He says he has a new neighbour as well, but he hasn't met her yet, because of the winter. Then one of the kids asks him for something, so he has to turn away to help her. He comes back and asks me again, how am I. I said pretty good, can't complain, you? He said, "Well, that's good."
Dead silence. Finally I said, "Should I let you go...I didn't realize you had the kids..." and he said, "Yeah, I probably should." Before I let him go, I said, "Well, give me a call sometime, I'd love to talk..." He said, "Yeah...yeah, sure, okay." Then we said bye and that was it.
I'm such a freaking idiot. Could someone please shoot me? Dig a hole for me to crawl into?