lovinaz's "getting her act together" journal

[lovinaz]

Apparently I am just NOT WITH THE PROGRAM this week! I swear, I was doing better before I starting journaling again! Maybe it's because DH had to leave, maybe it's hormones (TOM has been totally sporadic the last few months), who knows. I am making bad choices and I have to live with the consequences. I need to not beat myself up about it and get back on track.

No workout yesterday or this morning. Haven't worked out since Monday! And I know I won't this evening, because DS13 has shooting class and DD10 has soccer practice, plus I have DD's parent/teacher conference. And I'll probably be too tired to work out tomorrow morning, so this week was a bust. I WILL get into a routine next week!

For Wednesday:
B: chocolate oatmeal
L: leftover chicken stir-fry w/brown rice
S: plum; string cheese
S: large handful trail mix (it's finally gone! ); 1+ serving Wheat Thins (I know there was something else bad, just can't remember )
D: lemon pepper chicken breast; zucchini; HC fudge bar

E: none!
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Tracy, thanks! Hanging up those lights hardly counts as exercising, but I like the way you think!

 

[toystoryduo]

No worries about the exercise. You've had a lot going on this week. You'll get back on track next week... I know you CAN do it, Amy!

I hope you have a nice weekend.

 

[lovinaz]

Weight this morning was a disappointing 143. I am pretty sure it is water weight, I was 141 Wed morning and suddenly 143 Thu morning and it just stuck. I need to take it for what it is, and not use it as an excuse to eat whatever I want this weekend! I know I haven't behaved that well with food and haven't worked out all week, but it wasn't 2 lbs worth of bad behavior!

Oh yes, the snack I had forgotten about from Wed was about 1.5 servings of these fruit and veggie gummy bites from Costco.

For Thursday:
B: chocolate oatmeal
L: pear salad (spinach, grilled chicken, slivered almonds, feta, pears, carrots, pear dressing)
S: 3 mini cucumbers; plum
S: 1 serving Wheat Thins (WHY did I buy these!?!); 1 serving fruit-n-veggie bites; snap peas-n-hummus
D: crockpot stroganoff w/wheat egg noodles; HC fudge bar

E: none!
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Tracy, thanks, I really need to get back on track next week. I know I won't do it over the weekend, so might as well be realistic!

 

[eyor44]

Amy
I think you are doing great with your food. You have lots of fruits and vegies, something I don't even pretend to get enough of. Don't worry about the exercise either. You'll get back to it.

 

[lovinaz]

OK, TODAY is the day I am getting back on track with food. Yep. It's gotta happen! DH came back yesterday and the kids went to their dad's for the weekend, so we went out to dinner. Needless to say I didn't behave... I woke up this morning feeling bloated and stuffed and I really hate that feeling. Part of it is hormones and water retention (ring is really tight), but part of it is lack of exercise and eating too much junk! I still have a chance to meet my goal of 135 or less by CHristmas, I just have to get my mind in the right place.

For Friday:
B: chocolate oatmeal
L: FlatOut wrap w/turkey and cheddar; 1/2 small bag of salt-n-vinegar chips; 1.5 PB cookies from Subway
S: ~2 servings Wheat Thins
D: chips-n-salsa; chicken machaca w/flour tortilla; maybe 1/3c spanish rice; 1 scoop pumpkin ice cream w/marshmallow topping

E: none (at least that's been consistent this week! )
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Lisa, thanks. I am usually pretty good with healthy food choices, I just tend to eat TOO MUCH! And yes, I fully intend to hit the gym at 4:30am on Monday morning, if not before then!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Amy, you will get back on track. For most of two years, Dan worked in San Diego, Monday-Friday and I still remember well how hard that was. At the time, my kids were involved in so much and having to run them all over really wreaked havoc since I had to do it all myself! So don't be too hard on yourself about last week, it sounds like it was a tough one. Hopefully the rest of the weeks your dh travels will get easier.

You deserved that dinner out and frankly, that was not that bad!

I know you'll get back on track and be at your goal by Christmas!

How is Buckley???

 

[eyor44]

Come on Amy, you can go it. You can definitly make your goal.

I don't think your dinner looks bad either.

Pumpkin ice cream? Now that sounds interesting.

 

[lovinaz]

Someone save me from myself! I am on a downhill spiral... I did OK all day yesterday, until we went out to eat, AGAIN, last night. I HATE eating out! I cannot behave at all. And the scale had a horrifyingly huge number this morning to prove it.

I haven't even eaten breakfast today, I am still too bloated and stuffed from last night. I'm sure I have enough calories stored to get me through the morning (heck, probably through the next 3 days! ). I HAVE to get back into the swing of things. I hate feeling like this, it depresses me big time. I can't change the past, I can only concentrate on the future, which is what I am going to do, starting NOW.

I also found out that DS13 is on Facebook! And I only know this because he added me as a friend. WTH??? He does not get on the internet at my house, this is obviously happening at his dad's (he is there this weekend). ANd I know he is a teenager and he was going to go that route eventually, but the thing that makes me so mad is that my ex actually had the nerve to say that I let DS get on all these websites he shouldn't be going on, yet HE is the one who allowed him to get an e-mail and Facebook account! I really can't stand his hypocracy. He still irks me 7+ years after getting divorced! The only good thing is that now I can keep an online eye on DS. BUt that means I have to really watch what I put on my page!

For Saturday:
B: chocolate oatmeal
L: FlatOut wrap w/egg salad (1 whole egg + 2 egg whites); 1/2 serving Wheat Thins (finally gone!); 100 cal pack of Chips Ahoy
S: small handful pecans
D: chips-n-queso dip; buffalo chicken salad; 1/2 chocolate chip cookie dessert w/ice cream

E: none, of course!
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Amy, I think this week will be way better, now that I am over the shock of DH being gone during the week. Looks like he will be gone until about Thanksgiving. Buckley is fine, moping around this weekend because the kids are gone!

Lisa, pumpkin ice cream is the BOMB!!! Don't try it, you will be hooked. Of course I love everything pumpkin (bread, cheesecake, etc). Thankfully it is only available in the fall, or I think I would have a serious weight problem!

 

[lovinaz]

So far so good today. I got up and worked out, which felt great! Let's see if I can keep myself in the right mindset ALL day!

Yesterday was OK in the food dept. I ate 4 pieces of pizza (definitely should have stopped at 2!) but that was the only real slip-up. I was really good with snacking, so that is definitely an improvement! I think I have finally ended my bender and have gotten disgusted enough with myself to make a change.

For Sunday:
B: skipped
L: 1/2 green enchilada; 1/4c spanish rice; 2 bites macaroni salad
S: snap peas-n-hummus; 100 cal pack Chips Ahoy
D: 4 pieces homemade pepperoni pizza; HC fudge bar

E: none

 

[eyor44]

You can do it Amy! You really can. One little change in the routine can totally mess me up. But you can get back on track.

Food looked good for yesterday. I think homemade pizza is better that takeout. You know exactly what you put in it.

See you exercised this morning and said you felt great. Just keep that mind set going for tomorrow. Just remind yourself, if it felt great yesterday it will feel even better today.

PS - looks like I will be avoiding pumkpin ice cream at all costs. I can't handle another addiction that would then be taken away. You should have seen me when cherry hershey kisses first came out and they were only available at Christmas time.

 

[toystoryduo]

Way to go, Amy!!!! Great job on getting your workout in!!!! Keep up the good work!

Have a nice day today!

 

[lovinaz]

Yay, a good day yesterday! And I even did my Pilates this morning, for the first time in months... I finally reached the point where enough was enough and I think my mind is where it needs to be now. For a while, anyway! We are having our annual Halloween party this weekend and I know it's going to be a booze and food fest. Just what I need...

For Monday:
B: chocolate oatmeal
L: leftover lemon chicken breast; zucchini
S: 2 egg whites; 3 mini cucumbers
S: 10 Cheez-Its (HUGE victory! I knew I couldn't resist them, so I counted them out then put the box away!)
D: buffalo chicken strips (not the healthiest choice!); corn; HC fudge bar

E: 45min on elliptical
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Lisa, I am also a creature of habit. And a lot of the problem is that I am used to being super busy at work and last week was horribly slow. I don't function well at a slow pace...

Tracy, thanks!

 

[eyor44]

for a good day yesterday. (or Monday, but I'm sure yesterday was good also)

 

[toystoryduo]

Great job, Amy!!!! Exercise and food look good!

Have a wonderful day!

 

[lovinaz]

Another good day yesterday. It stinks that DH is gone, but it's something I'm going to have to get used to for the next month or so! The thing I don't like dealing with is the leftovers! He usually eats them all!

DS was giving me a little grief yesterday, so I had to send him to his room. He was mad because I wouldn't let him go to his friend's house. Yes, his "friend" that he didn't have his phone number, know his address or even his last name! He said he knew what street it was on, and he could find it once he saw it. DON'T THINK SO!!! I told him that if he wanted to go today, he would have to get all that information from him, then I'd let him go. He got over it after 30min or so in his room, but OH WELL. Life is full of disappointments, isn't it? Then today he tied DD's shirt into 3 super-tight knots instead of a bow, so I was late leaving because I had to get that mess straightened out. That's what I get for trying to save time asking him to tie it while I was still getting ready...

For Tuesday:
B: chocolate oatmeal
L: leftover stroganoff w/wheat egg noodles; corn
S: 3 egg whites; plum; 3 mini cucumbers
S: handful pecans; freeze-dried Asian pear (40 cal)
D: cordon bleu; green beans; HC fudge bar

E: 40min Pilates
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Lisa, 2 good days in a row, I hope it sticks around for a while.

Tracy, thanks. It is nice to be back on track with the Pilates, I know I will thank myself when I get toned like I used to be!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Amy, Congrats on two good days in a row, you are on a Success Roll,keep it up!!

As for ds, teenage boys are some sort of payment for previous sins I have decided. I was laughing at the shirt thing but I bet you weren't! My son now simply calls his sister "Cherub". Sounds innocent enough but it drives her so bonkers and of course that's the whole point. And people wonder why I drink.

That is very hypocritical of your ex to do that. I have mixed feelings with the facebook thing. My kids have email accounts at school through the district but aren't on facebook yet. Apparently they are the only kids on the planet who aren't now that your son is!

Shall I tell you about the delicious pumpkin muffin I had from the Blue Ribbon Bakery on Main Street last night? OMG, sorry I found those is all I can say.

Keep up the good work, I knew you'd get right back on track!

 

[toystoryduo]

Woohoo!!! You're two for two! Way to go, Amy!

Have a wonderful day!

 

[lovinaz]

Yesterday was good, but I didn't get up to work out this morning. I was so insanely tired, it wasn't even funny! I dozed off through most of the movie I watched with the kids last night and after a full 8 hrs sleep, my body was still not wanting to get up when the alarm went off this morning. I'm blaming it on hormones! But, the day ain't over yet! My plan is to do some strength training at home before soccer practice (squats, lunges, etc) AND/OR walk around the fields during soccer practice. There are 6 full-sized fields, lots of distance, and it is so cold here today (OK, it's 63 degrees, but that is cold for us!) that I can't even fathom sitting in my chair reading and freezing for 1.5 hours. So, I'm pretty confident I will get in some form of exercise today.

For Wednesday:
B: chocolate oatmeal
L: FlatOut wrap w/turkey and cheddar; plum
S: 3 mini cucumbers; plum (I bought a huge container of plums at Costco and I am the only one eating them!)
S: 10 Cheez-Its; 1/2 yellow pepper w/hummus
D: chicken parmesan (from Eating for Life book); broccoli; HC fudge bar

E: 45min on treadmill (@ 2% incline, 5.6mph)
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Amy, DS went through a phase where he called DD "Chubby" (and she is not even close to being chubby!) and he finally stopped after I told him that he could give her a complex and possibly an eating disorder if he kept doing that! Boys... Those muffins sound divine. I restrained myself at Costco. They had like a 7lb box of pumpkin spice bread mix. I had it in my hands for an awfully long time, then put it back! I knew there was no good that could come out of that! As for Facebook, I have DS's password, and he doesn't, so he can only get on there if I log him on. That's worked out well so far.

Tracy, thanks, I finally feel like I am back on the right track.

 

[lovinaz]

Now I know why I always get up early in the morning to workout! Unless I am in a group class, I obviously prefer to be alone. Yesterday after work, I told DD I was going to do some exercises before soccer practice. She wanted to do them with me. I was just going to do weights and squats, lunges, crunches, etc. We got her some soup cans for her weights and were all set to go. I couldn't get her to do a proper squat and I told her to stop doing them before she hurt herself. Then we moved onto lunges, and of course she said they hurt (uh, ya!), and I thought maybe this wasn't such a good idea since she is about to have 1.5hr of soccer practice! So then she gave up while I was still working out, the dog is trying to lick us in the face the whole time, she is giggling when the dog licks her and finally I had to ask her to leave the room, with the dog, so I could finish on my own! We wasted so much time that I didn't have time to do upper body. But hey, at least I did something, and I felt it this morning!

DH comes back sometime tonight. We still need to get pumpkins and carve them! And tomorrow will be spent at soccer (8am game! ), Costco run, cleaning and prepping food/house for the party. And I seriously doubt I will behave at the party... I always start out with the best of intentions, but a couple drinks and jello shots seems to erase those quite easily.

For Thursday:
B: chocolate oatmeal
L: FlatOut wrap w/turkey and cheddar; plum
S: 1 egg white; 3 mini cucumbers; plum
S: 5 Cheez-Its; freeze-dried apple
D: 2 large bowls Cinnamon Toast Crunch; 1 lemon-ginger cookie

E: 20min lower body and abs exercises

 

[eyor44]

Ahhhhhh.....teenage sons.....what a joy. Actually middle DS is most of the time. But when he and DD get together in the same room......why oh why do they have to tease their little sisters soooooo much???????

Amy, you are on a roll! You keep right on moving. Did you walk at the soccer field?