Looking for support

[CruiseBoundnKY]

Hi All! Please let me introduce myself as Karen from KY. I'm 32 and have been riding the diet roller coaster most of my life and I'm sick of it

I have tried: OTC "wonder" drugs, prescription drugs, atkins, ww, Dr. Phil, had SEVERAL gym memberships, at home equipment, personal trainers, slim fast, regular diet/exercise, death by aerobics , and finally I had the lap band surgery 3 years ago.

I first had a problem crossing under the 200 line, then I've now developed a fear of the 170's. Don't get me wrong, I currently am at 228.

Prior to our cruise this past May I was below 200, got back from cruise at 212 and now 228. YIKES

I went from my 16's back to tight 22's and mostly wearing elastic and I HATE THIS!!!

I am diagnosed with depression and borderline bi-polar. I am on medication for this, but this week my "friend" is here and when you mix hormones with everything I get a little agitated and hard to deal with.

Thankfully my boss is super understanding and I now take off half a day every week and that day can float to fit my needs. The only catch is that I have to take time for myself, per my bosses orders.

Well yesterday I had a HORRIBLE day. Bad weight loss day, bad eating day, argument with dh, boss cranky, run late for work, complicated tax returns...So when I came home I took one of my prescriptions that I have for "bad" time. I came home and literally passed out from exhaustion until 9:30. Got up ate cereal and went back to bed.

This morning I decided to make today my half day, because I needed alone time. Let me rewind the story to let you know that I have been working out now for about 3 months steady along with watching what I eat and I've had my lap band tightened. We have also started running cattle at my home, so I've become more of a farmer and less of a couch potato. So today, I took off and went to a local park and walked 2 miles. That is in addition to the 1 mile I already walked on my treadmill and 10 minutes on the eliptical trainer this morning.

I just don't understand. I have all the tools, including my band that can help me. A wonderful support system. Then why do I continuously fail?

Before our last cruise I swore I wasn't going to spend that kind of money on a vacation and be miserable. Well guess what...I didn't lose the weight. I wasn't miserable, but I wasn't happy in my body either. I have a lot of time between now and our next cruise/disney vacation and I HAVE got to do this.

I hope that I haven't totally bored everyone that has read this and believe me I do appreciate you reading.

I could really use some disfriends to help me along the way. I'm really loving the July challenge. That seems to really be driving me to meet it. Seeing my name on that list is definitely helping hold me accountable.

Thanks in advance for listening.

 

[Tiger Lily 03]

I am sorry you are struggling with this and I am proud of you that you keep trying. It seems to me that you have to find the value of all this for You. You have to work at it and that is certainly not easy as you have discovered.

I have not read the book, but others have recommended the book by Dr. Phil with regard to dieting. Maybe someone here knows the title. He goes after the why along with the how to. Maybe this will help you to try to understand why you are making choices you do and get you closer to your solution.

Don't make yourself look for the failure. I'm thinking you could make small steps to buy into the program of a healthy lifestyle one small thing at a time. Look for small goals then build upon those. Join in on some of the challenge threads here to help yourself make it fun and stay in the game.

Let me know how you are doing. Don't give in...You can do this and you are worth it! Go get 'em!

 

[HERSEY]

I'm new to this dieting game, but take small steps. Set a goal each week each day if you have to. You can do this. Don't get negative if you fail just keep trying.

 

[SeaSpray]

Hi Karen:

I don't really have any advice for you, but I just wanted to say "Way to go!" on hanging in there You have some medical issues that really have the cards stacked against you, and it takes a lot of courage and strength to keep trying to find new ways to overcome the weight.

I haven't tried many diets; years ago I tried WW, and then just didn't diet at all for several years. I just recently gave South Beach a try and so far (7 weeks now) I'm successful with it because it doesn't feel like a diet to me. Well, except for the fact that I can't eat pizza, subs, etc. when I want to. LOL What I mean is, I don't feel at all deprived on this "diet". I think that's MY key to success. Unfortunately it's not easy for each of us to find that key. It's probably a combination of keys, and not just a single one. I think one important ingredient is "not giving up" when you have a bad diet/food day.

Please hang in there, you sound like a wonderful person and just give yourself small goals at first.

 

[believe]

It is tough. I am in a similar boat of having the knowledge and facilities to lose the weight but I get in a rut. It is great that you have come here. It is times like these that I have to find a new motivation. I came back here to look for it. You mentioning the July challenge made me start thinking that may be what I need. Thanks for motivating me. Find a new website or exercise to get you remotivated. Your boss is right that you have to take time for yourself.

 

[ohMom]

(((KAREN))) -- hugs for you b/c i hear that successful LOSER deep within you just waiting to pop out and then you will see you are not a failure! You are not a failure b/c you want to be healthier, you want to make improvements for YOU so that you will feel better about yourself and in your everyday. it's time now to stop looking backward....remember our WISH motto....ONWARD AND DOWNWARD! there is no backward....why? you ask? b/c rehashing the past just is depressing and guilt-ridden and nothing good comes from it. take it one day at a time, one hour at a time, one meal at a time and make better choices for YOU!

 

[CruiseBoundnKY]

I met my July weight loss goal!!!

Thanks for all the support and wonderful words of encouragement!

I can't believe I met my goal. Well...it's the first of many.

Today I'm going kayaking 6 miles! I am inspired by reading your posts and seeing all of your successes!

Best of luck to everyone!!!

 

[Tiger Lily 03]

Congratulations to you for getting to your July goal! Have fun!

 

[SeaSpray]

I met my July weight loss goal!!!

Thanks for all the support and wonderful words of encouragement!

I can't believe I met my goal. Well...it's the first of many.

Today I'm going kayaking 6 miles! I am inspired by reading your posts and seeing all of your successes!

Best of luck to everyone!!!

CONGRATS!! WAY TO GO! Keep up the good work!!! I hope you're having fun kayaking today!