LaMagique's Journal (comments welcome!)

[lamagique]

I am struggling with what to write. I have written this little entry over and over again. I really want to be successful in my weight loss journey this time. I want to be honest and open, with myself and with whoever may be reading.

MY STORY
I have been overweight since I was in elementary school. As a very young child, I was active and I could have been a great athlete. I stopped being that way as I started to go through puberty. By the time I was 11, I was not active and I was officially overweight, though not by much. It was until I stopped taking PE classes my junior year of high school that I began to really pack on the pounds. I didn't see it as a problem until my senior year of high school, when I saw my senior pictures. When I got them back, I was shocked! I didn't realize that I had gotten so big! So, I decided to take matters into my hands and try to lose weight. I did the Curves diet and it worked. I lost about 7 pounds in two weeks and I felt great. But then I stopped. My weight loss journey pretty much continues like this. I do something for a while, it works, and then I stop. Every time I have actively tried something, I have always been successful. My problem now is that I haven't really been trying anymore. I guess I get frustrated with myself. I guess I don't understand my relationship with food. I eat when I'm not hungry. And I don't know WHY! Am I bored? Am I looking to fulfill myself in some way, shape, or form? I don't know. All I know is that at one point, I had lost 30 pounds. But I have put back on at least 20 of those pounds. I don't like the way my body feels with this new, foreign weight on it. I way to feel light and healthy. I feel good when I eat good foods. I want to be energetic. I want to experience and get the most out of my life.

Well, that's my story for the most part. I guess I just want to have this journal to really find a support system and a place to be accountable for my actions. Thanks for reading if you did and... yeah.

 

[Amy&Dan]

First of all, Welcome to Wish! This is a great board, you will make lots of great, supportive friends who will help you on your journey.

Its great you are wanting to start new healthy habits. And you are not alone with your struggle with food, most of us here do! You will be amazed at how journaling your thoughts, feelings and even what you specifically eat each day if you choose to do that, will help you. Its the old accountablity thing!

So good luck and again welcome, we are here for each other. You can do this!

Amy

P.S. How exciting for you to be in Paris! Don't let those pastries call your name, just keep walking by the bakeries!

 

[Foxfiregrrl]

To the Dis WISH boards! I think you will find the support you are looking for here. I can relate to your history. I can remember being pretty young and being told by my family that I needed to lose weight We develop strange and unhealthy relationships with foods through the years and it is hard to change them... BUT it can be done!

Being here is the first step to making the right changes! Good luck on your journey! You can do this!

 

[lamagique]

Thank you everyone for your comments.

So... it has been a while since I last posted. I have decided to stall on my weight loss journey--waiting until I get back into the United States to really lose weight. I knew that there was a possibility that I would gain weight, seeing as how I am in France with my favorite delicious foods. When I told myself to try to restrict a little bit, I would just end up going crazy and eating way more than I thought.

I am going to be in Europe for another month and a half, and then when I get home, I am really going to actively pursue a healthier lifestyle. I am coming to the point where I see that it's not just about losing weight to look good, but also to feel good and to be healthy. I would really like to be a healthy person.

I am going to start looking into plans so that I can have a clue as to what I would like to do once I get home. I have counted calories in the past, but I am leaning towards maybe doing Weight Watchers or possibly South Beach. We will see. If you have a plan that you are following that's working for you, let me know! I would love to hear about it!

 

[Amy&Dan]

I think its very wise for you to do this weight loss thing when you know you will be more successful, especially given how close you are to returning home. I love Weight Watchers, am down almost 35 pounds. Its a great program, they have two meal plans, flex, where you count points and eat whatever foods you wish or Core which you don't count as strictly but have a more core list of foods you eat (basically a lower carb plan). Give it a try, I belive you can attend a meeting for free and then decide if you want to sign up. Good luck and enjoy your last month in France! And eat a yummy pastry for me.