TheDisneyOutsider
Mouseketeer
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- Apr 3, 2011
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I guys. I'm know you can't really help me with this but I just really need to get it all out. Disney has been my favourite place for years now and I am always so excited to go back. We went last in June and had a great time. However in September my brother was rushed to the hospital because his heart was beating at something like 200 beats per minute. We later found out that his heart had short circuited. They got it back to normal and they said it may never happen again, it was sort of just a freak thing. He did have a bunch of tests to be safe, but they all came back fine. Like they said, it could have been a one time thing. However sine that I have been so anxious all the time. I was so worried about him and wouldn't take my eyes off him. This has gotten better but over the next few months I have developed severe anxiety (I've always had it but never really knew) and have become somewhat of a hypochondriac. I suffer from physical symptoms daily where I think I have terrible diseases. Anyway I am seeing someone for this but in the meantime my mom has started talking about planning a disney trip for later this year. I am so excited and we often talk about plans and where to stay and such, but every time I let myself get excited, I begin to worry about my brother at Disney. He loves Disney too and loves Space Mountain and all those types of rides, but I am so worried that he will go on one of those rides and his heart will short circuit again. I am so upset because Disney is my happy place and it always makes me feel better, but now all my happy thoughts are plagued with these types of terrifying thoughts. I did ask my mom if we did go if she could ask our doctor if my brother would be ok to do these rides. My brother is 21 and has been healthy and fine before and after this short circuit, but I still worry a lot. I don't really know what I'm asking here but I just really needed to get this off my chest. I just want my happy place to be happy again 
