Journey back to ME!!- I'm getting bugged!!

[goldcupmom]

Today is hard - probably a combo of PMS, lack of good sleep, and the stress of the unknown. Plus DS19 has court.

Breakfast was an oatmeal bar (4). DH will be home to take DS to court and I'd like a nap, but am going to try to make myself go to the gym. Would be better for me in the long run.

Off to deliver more phone books.....

 

[toystoryduo]

Julie,

You are in my thoughts and prayers, sweetie. Take extra special care of you.

 

[goldcupmom]

Well, the nap won, but never happened. I laid down, phone rang, doorbell rang, cell rang. Oh well.......

DH just called, they couldn't have court because 'they' - whoever that is - didn't bother to request that the girl be there. DUH!!!!!! So, next Thursday we go back and I have to go as well. WONDERFUL!!! I made the mistake of commenting that depending on what I find out on Wed, I may not be in much good emotional shape to be there. DH got livid and told me "I suppose you're going to make life miserable for everyone now". Sweet, huh???

Lunch was 2- 2 pt turkey sand. Not sure what else I'll have. Need more water.

DD has a concert at the University tonight at 7 we'll go to then pick her up. Long day for her - 7 a.m. - almost 10 p.m. doing school stuff. UGH!!

I gave in and had 3 small chocolates (3) which still only puts me at 11 for the day, but must not keep doing that.

 

[goldcupmom]

One more day down. I hate feeling this way, but I'm vacilating between "I'm dying next week" and 'it's a fluke'. Ended up having cottage cheese & fruit (3), turkey (1) & a small banana w/ lt pb for dinner (4). Under points, but don't feel like eating.

DS19 has to deliver phone books ALL DAY, so I will be out driving ALL DAY. UGH!!

I haven't made it back to the gym, but want to . My legs aren't quite as sore so it's time to do it again.

I have no idea what today will bring or what food will be.

9:40 a.m. - still trying to wake DS19 and get him moving. Breakfast egg b, ww tortillas, ff chz (4). I decided I'll throw on a pot of spaghetti & ww pasta for dinner.

 

[goldcupmom]

Lunch was revival soy shake(2) and a 2 pt turkey sand(2). Never got the Spaghetti on, so dinner is from Chilis - I'm having the guiltless chicken (11) if I eat it all. that would be 19 for the day. Still working on the water.

Got a letter from the Imaging center. It says "Your recent Mammogram shows and area of asymmetry (and/or calcifications) requiring additional evaluation. Occasionally, this may only require your prior mammograms for comparison. Additional evaluation may include any one of the following: Additional Mammogram Views, Ultrasound, MRI, Galactogram, or a Cyst Aspiration. You may be contacted to schedule or obtain previous mammograms."

Not quite sure what it means, but......

 

[goldcupmom]

Dinner was the Chilis guiltless chicken. Good, but WAY salty! I also had a couple of bites from an Awesome Blossom - I could easily eat it ALL - all 76.5 points. OUCH!!

Breakfast a Mrs. Freshleys oatmeal cream pie & a 'twinkie' (4) I found these at WM and they taste like the real thing. Amazing. only 2 pts each. Done w/ 32 oz water.

DH just left to take DD to fencing and I'm going to start undecorating the Christmas tree. Slow job. I also have to help DS19 with Phone Books.

Not sure what else today will bring. Just focusing on keeping going.

 

[eeyore25]

Welcome back Julie!!!!

Sendin lots of prayers your way. I am sure that everything will turn out okay. Not only with you but with you DS as well.

Keep up the good work and Happy Sunday!

 

[goldcupmom]

Lunch yesterday was Keva and a slice of blueberry bread (6), dinner spaghetti (9). Got water in , but just the 64.

The closer Wed comes, the worse my imagination is getting. DD calls me the Queen Mother of Pessimism and she's right.

I have no idea what today will bring, I just want Wed to hurry up and get this part over.

 

[toystoryduo]

Oh Julie

I am so sorry you are going through this right now. Just take each day one day at a time and Wednesday will be here with some answers for you.

Please try your best to stay positive. I know that it might be hard right now, Julie, but you can do it!

Sweetie, you are in my thoughts and prayers. Please take good care of you!

 

[goldcupmom]

Thanks for the thoughts & prayers, all. I deeply appreciate them.

Basically, I'm scared spitless after my sister's dx last spring. I'm also wondering if they are being overly cautious b/c of that. My gyn wanted me to see a breast specialist anyway, just as an info source, even before the mammo came back. I'm also wondering if they ever got my films from prior mammos - I had mammo morning of 12/22, the letter is dated 12/30. With Christmas Holiday, plus paperwork, office work time, I'm not sure they even have it or if they had it when the letter came out. Time will tell. I'm a very good 'imaginer' and play the 'what if' game all too well.

Lunch was a 2 pt sand/ cauliflower and baked lays (4) total. Breakfast was decaf tea and 2 truffles(3)....Bad, Bad, Bad, but Yum, Yum, Yum.

6:40 p.m. - Leftover Spaghetti & bread for dinner(9) - many points left, not sure if I'll use any or not.

 

[calena]

Sending prayers and good thoughts your way. Try to think positive. You are being checked out so if there is something there they can deal with it. If there isn't you had a good diagnostic test to make sure there isn't. So many of us put off health issues until it is too late. You did the right thing by getting a mammogram to begin with... they are just making sure all is right.
Go back to the water aerobics. I would love to do that. Just show the old folks the way it can really be done! Everything you can do to get moving, eat better etc improves your overall health. (I'm sounding like I actually know what I am talking about - I wish I could just put that into practice for myself!!!!) Have a good day.

 

[goldcupmom]

This is going to be a long day. I'm really tired and didn't sleep well last night. Bad dreams - very vivid. Not uncommon for me PMS, but didn't need them this month. If TOM finally shows that, at least, should get better.

Breakfast eggB and ww Tortillas(4).

2:53 p.m. - just had lunch - olive sand (4) & cauliflower.

Done w/ 48 oz water.

Very tired today. I may try to leave points for a glass of wine before bed. In the past any alcohol, even tiny amounts put me to sleep. Maybe it will help. Probably can't hurt.

I am totally and completely paranoid today.

Took DS19 to pick up more phone books. All the routes near home are gone and they even gave away the one they said they would hold for him. He was bummed. This is a small one - about 270 stops - but not close, so I told him we have to do it in 2 trips to save gas. We'll see.

DH will likely take DD to fencing tonight. Usually does as it gives me a break. Who knows if she will get to go on Wed. Depends on my outcome, I guess. Then court w/ DS19 on Thurs. Hopefully the stupid girl won't show up and it will be over quickly and easily.

 

[goldcupmom]

Today has been rough. Food has been 4 pb cookies (4). 40 oz water done. I'm so convinced that tomorrow I will find out horrid news. I know that's not rational, I'm just SCARED. I can't seem to do anything but read the gazillions of pages of info on the net, much of it conflicting. Hopefully I will have something somewhat positive to post tomorrow.

Thanks for the thoughts and prayers.

 

[keenercam]

Julie -- I am so sorry you are going through all this anxiety and stress. I just wanted to tell you I said a prayer for you and am sending you Take care of yourself.

Cam

 

[goldcupmom]

I'm leaving in just a few minutes for the appointment. Scared beyond belief. Praying that this is a B9 condition, or they only thought they saw something.

I'll be back later today.

thanks for your support & !!

 

[goldcupmom]

Just back. All is fine. 8 mammogram films later - really bruised. 2 20 min ultrasounds and the radiologist says there is 'nothing remotely abnormal'. This was all caused by lack of 'sufficient compression'. I am still keeping my appt. with a specialist next Wed for peace of mind as my Gyn wanted me to go even before all this.

Thanks for all the , thoughts & prayers.

I'll be back later w/ the plan.....

 

[jennz]

Great news!! What a relief that must be. Thanks for the update!!

 

[toystoryduo]

Oh Julie!

That is good news indeed! Thank you for the update, sweetie! Now, you can relax....

 

[keenercam]

Julie -- Praise God! I am so so happy for you.

 

[Lesli54]

Glad to hear that things are ok! "Suffiecient Compression".....is that what they call torture?

Now you can go about your days and weeks knowing you are healthy and getting healthier every day.

Have a good one.