Jay-nee's journal

[Strings]

Jay-nee,

I hope you are doing ok. I'm sending and prayers.

Beth

 

[Princess Michelle]

Praying for you and your family Jaynee.

 

[jay-nee]

I have found that huge problems in your life lead to great weight loss, kinda scary though. My stomach is fighting me tooth and nail, it does not want food.

Other than that, it wreakes havoc on eveything else. My IBS is back, so bummed. I look beat. But, counseling starts tomorrow to see if we are willing to make another go at this. Not sure I can put myself through this again...

One thing I have to say to my WISH buddies is...thank you for all of your prayers and support! Hugs back to all of you... It really does help to log on here and see that you folks have taken the time to write me these great little positive messages.

Well, you will see below that I have snagged a new clippe this week. It's just hard to be wicked excited about it, but I am. It's just not my main focus right now. I have exercised 420 minutes this month so far, I keep just turning that bike into my friend for those feel-good endorphins! I'm sure they help a bit.

Thanks again. -jay-nee

 

[sarahsmom73]

Hang in there Jay-nee! We're pulling for you!

 

[DisneyEnthusiastic]

Hi Jay-nee! I was just reading through your journal...you are doing an amazing job! Sorry things are not going so well w/ DH. I will keep you in my prayers. It's so weird that stress works both ways...either makes you binge or starve! Good luck to you. Keep your positive thoughts! BTW...congrats on the new clippie

Gail

 

[plutosmyfav]

Jay-nee

I am so sorry to hear you are having trouble. You always add a positive perspective to your posts. My heart breaks for you with the stresses and the possible trip cancelation. I hope your talk with DH will resolve your issues. Family stress is the worst kind because it is so close to your heart.

Be good to yourself, don't fall into destructive patterns. Remember there's a whole lot of WISHERS who care about you

Sending pixie dust your way
Sundie

 

[Strings]

jay-nee,

I am sorry that things are still so stressful. Be sure to take care of yourself. I am thinking about you, and I will definately say some prayers for you guys. I hope you feel better soon.

Congrats on the clippie,
Beth

 

[sarahsmom73]

Thinking of you!

 

[geetey]

Jaynee
I am sorry I wasn't able to get to your journal sooner, but we got back Monday night. I am sending truckloads of prayers and pixie dust your way! I hope things work out for you, your DH, and your family!

 

[jay-nee]

Thank you to each and everyone of you for all of you support and hugs and well wishes.

DH and I are trying to reconcile and are making a 100% attempt. So, today, things are better.

Not sure how it would have gone without everyones prayers...hugs back to you all for that too!

I am keeping up with my exercise and feeling pretty good, but very tired. About every 3rd time on the bike becomes just a light spinning instead of a true workout. I have started doing pilates again too.

Now the great news, my clothes are starting to get loose and I went through my closet and am giving away all my hevy clothes, no excuses to go back down this road!

I'm not in my 14 jeans comfortably yet, but it should be soon. Yippee for me! If we go to WDW next week, maybe I'll be in them by then? I really hope so... I hate tight clothes so I won't wear them until they really fit. Just hate to bring the big clothes, so we'll see...

I'd love to be at my 1/2 way mark by my WI next Tuesday, only 2 lbs more needed for that! Then its both downhill and uphill from there, right?

The decision about going to WDW is going to be made by family meeting later this afternoon, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

Just hoping that life gets better and better from now forward!

Thanks again to all my WISH friends!

 

[plutosmyfav]

Now the great news, my clothes are starting to get loose and I went through my closet and am giving away all my hevy clothes, no excuses to go back down this road!

That's right! Gone for good I got rid of all my fat clothes this time around. The last time I lost weight I held on to them "just in case". Well if that's not a self-fulfilling prophecy!!!!!

I'm glad things are going smoother for you. I hope you have smooth sailing now on

Sundie

 

[Strings]

jay-nee,

I am glad things are going a bit better. I will continue to pray for your family. Congrats on getting rid of your large clothes. I just haven't gotten there yet.

Good luck at the family meeting today.
Beth

 

[geetey]

Sending more and prayers your way so things can continue to improve and go well!

Good luck with your family meeting.

 

[sarahsmom73]

Great news! You are in my thoughts daily!

 

[jay-nee]

family has decided to go to WDW, I think it will be best for us to have some fun together as a family again, and soon, so timing is really good. Now, as you can imagine, I have 6 days to get everything ready! But that, at least, will be a good stress.

Now, as if I needed anything else stressful, my bike broke and it can't be fixed until we are back from WDW. So, I will be exploring my options today. I am hoping that the local Y might let me join for a week. I also have an old windtrainer that I am considering breaking out, but will also have to give the old racing bike a tune-up. I now know how attached to my bike I am, I cried about this. It doesn't help that things are so crazy here and it's that TOM too. I know things could be alot worse and, believe me, I am counting my blessing everyday. It's just that I'd like to climb right back onto the positive track and I keep getting shot down.

So, today I am going to focus on getting an alternate for my bike situated until bike can be fixed. I will say that NordicTrack is covering it under warranty and that was pretty cool of them. Granted it is only a year old but I think it might be a few days over the actual year warranty period so they could have been jerks, but good guys instead.

Also, today I need to focus on digging out the luggage and printing packing lists too. Plenty to do this weekend. I just hope we made the right choice to go on vacation...

BTW hugs to all my WISH friends, you guys are so good to me and I really appreciate it. Hopefully I can focus my energy outward soon and give back what I've gotten.

 

[sarahsmom73]

Great! I hope you have a wonderful time as a family!

 

[jay-nee]

because we are going on vacation, I decided to change up my WI day. Then I will WI next Thursday, the day we leave. And then, back on track when we return to Tuesdays...

Today, I am down another 1 lb. I was really hoping for 2 so I could be at my 1/2 way mark, but hopefully, on Thursday I will be there before we leave.

Gonna start making phone calls re: replacing my bike for the next 6 days and when we return... I am going to try and get my windtrainer back up and running and also call the Y to see if I can come for a week.

Thanks again to all my WISH friends...

 

[DisneyEnthusiastic]

Way to go! Enjoy that family trip!

Are you guys driving? How long will you be there?

Sorry to hear about your bike. I hate when you get in a groove and something messes up! At least you are handling it well.

 

[Dory's Twin]

Wow....started reading your journal and was amazed at the similarities in our lives....I just joined because I need to get this excess fat off. Have always been a jock who could eat, but at 43 that's over. I still exercise at the gym 4 times a week, but I eat way too much...I love food!

I think I will use you as my inspiration ...if you are okay with that and I will work this rear end off!!! I have no excuses.

Thank you!

 

[Princess Michelle]

Jaynee, congratulations on losing the pound!!! I hope you are able to get to your half-way goal before you leave. That would be wonderful.

Sorry to hear about your bike. I hope you can get it fixed soon and that you are able to get your workouts in some other way.