I actually have a lot of friends, about 20ish or so that I could name right now. Out of those 20 I would say that about 5ish were close friends and about 2 or 3 really close friends. It's kinda hard to classify for me. It's not really a matter of trust because I have some trust issues (I'm working on it, it's on my life list!), eventhough I know that I can really tell anything to some of them but I just can't (I know, weird and probably very ununderstandable but I have some issues), nor more of a 'I knew you this long' kind of thing. I guess it's how well you can talk to them. So no, you're not a loser. I consider you lucky for being able to identify exactly what makes those two people amazing.