Are you saying that you do not believe in communion, totally, or just how the Catholic church actually handles it (stating that the wafer/wine is actually the body/blood of christ not a symbol like the Last Supper)? Just curious, no flame

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Gotta tell you... my post-Catholic School spiritual growth has been from varied sources - my purpose is to TRY and become a better person and Christian. That being said, I am probably not the best "source" for any denominational Christian teachings. So, take my ramblings for what they're worth.
Many times, it is very difficult to "re-learn" something that 12 years of Catholic school has imbedded into me. Not bashing Catholicism, but for me, I don't find it a good fit.
All that being said, my goal is to combine fact and logic with my spiritual beliefs. Jesus (Yashua) was a religious Jew and rabbi. IMHO, many of the large Christian denominations have fallen away from what Jesus himself learned and taught, and have morphed into something different. One of the biggest examples I can think of off hand is the Sabbath. God's commandment to keep the Sabbath holy, in my belief, is being broken every week when most Christian churches celebrate on Sunday. Jesus' Sabbath started sundown Friday and lasted until sundown Saturday. Therefore, by celebrating the sabbath on Sunday, we are "technically" breaking one of the commandments. In my opinion, just like we are "technically" breaking the idolitry commandment by giving special meaning to crucifixes.
I know you didn't ask for all that, but I hope it helps clear up my thought process.
Anyhow, my Catholic upbringing tells me that the wine is transformed into Jesus' blood and the bread is transformed into Jesus' body. (Actually, I think there's a more specific term, but it escapes me right now... transfigured? trans...something) My adult self-learning tells me that the bread and wine were symbolic - but symbolic as part of the Sader that was held as the "Last Supper". So, I'm torn. I would tend to believe that it is not trans...whatevered into the body/blood of Jesus because it would be idolizing something that is not (of) God.