I'm Hilary. I'm 14, and in half a year I'll be 15.
I'm miserable most of the time.
But you can make me happy with the most random things. I have one friend, somedays I wish I had more, but somedays it doesn't matter. I have the most fun with her, and we know how to cheer each other up.
I'm under this fake impression that high school will bring me lots of friends, even though, somewhere, I know I won't.
I used to write a lot. I used ot make graphics a lot. But it's always been something I'm not incredibly passionate about, and I'll do it for a week or two, and then get bored. I have no real talents, and I don't think I'll ever find one.
I hate sports. I am not religious.
Somedays, I think I take music way too seriously. However, I hate music class. I'm practically tone deaf and can't play the simplest of instruments. I can't read the notes, even after years of knowing them. I can recite you the rhymes etc, but I can't read them in song.
I can't pay attention in school. I just can't. I take my notes and that's it. I just miraculously get good grades, I'm not smart, and I don't study. I think a lot of the stuff I have learned in the last year has been useless. I don't want to know the area of my staircase.
I adore ANTM and CNTM, and I'll be talking to the tv about how some people don't even know what they're doing. Most of them are just pretty faces, and they (the competitors) don't realize modeling is more than that.
I don't think I'm going anywhere in life.
Love is something I'll always be looking for, something I'll treasure when I find, and something I need. It's probably the most important thing that I don't ahve right now.
I hate tv shows and movies that make me sad for days at ends. I can't stand when they kill one character, and leave the other to suffer in misery of knowing there could have been more. It makes me want to cry.