In Search of My Body vol. 10 - taking it one paper towel at at time

I have a similar food dilema at work.

I'm in the kitchen, yes. But the kitchen IS the business. I answer the phone, I wait on costumers. People love it because they can stand there and watch us cook. It makes them feel special - like they are at Grandma's house and she's cooking up a storm just for them.

Things are constantly in the oven, on the stove, etc. I almost never get to sit and eat. Typically it's a few bites here and there (then washing my hands for the zillionth time after each graze moment). We do have a microwave, so sometimes I bring food to be heated. BUT. That can be hard because if I'm heating up some spaghetti and meatballs, the customers will want it. Then it looks awkward if I'm eating food other than what I'm preparing. Because if *I* won't eat whatever it is I'm making that day, why should they buy it, kwim?

Salads are good. I like to chop up a whole pepper, an entire cucumber, shred a carrot, etc and put them each in their own little Tupperware container in my fridge. It's like my own personal salad bar. Each day I'll just dump a little of whatever I feel like into my salad container and mix it up fresh. Add turkey or leftover chicken (I avoid tuna because of the smell), seeds, chickpeas - whatever.

I also like the bagel thins. I make a sandwich with ham or turkey, Cabot 50% reduced fat cheddar slice, lettuce, tomato. Yum. Soy chips or nuts, fruit. Carrots, grape tomatoes or celery. I eat a LOT. Perhaps that's why I don't lose weight :confused3 But because I'm around yum-o food all day I have to have plenty of healthy to nosh on or I'll be grabbing warm gooey chocolate chip cookies. Or rolls. Or cinnamon buns. Or....you get the idea :upsidedow
 
Blisters.... I wear Wright Socks. I don't have trouble with blisters in the normal sense - on the surface, fill, pop. The ones I developed last year were from DOING SOMETHING NEW ON RACE DAY. Dammit, don't do that.

So, so very true. What a cruddy lesson to learn though. Glad the duct tape system is working! Endurance athlete wear duct tape :laughing:

Nancy - I laughed at making S point out your body in the crowd. I did something similar to DGF a couple of weeks ago, we saw a woman jogging and I said, "I want to look like that" meaning the stride. She said "you do, but thinner". Really? Cool.

Ronda

:cool1: That is AWESOME!
 
We interrupt this normal work day for a little Bicycle Race. I bet you know the words, so sing it with me.

Can you tell I needed a break? It is still freezing here - colder at my desk than it is 20 feet away. Skirt weather next week!
 
:lmao: I started singing it before you even said to :lmao: I even listened to that song this morning while I was (can you guess?) riding the bike at the gym :lmao:
 

Hi,

Back from Dr. Snatch and Grab. Had more blood and urine. Lord I thought I was finished!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KDFjdlskjfalkdfjlasdk. Anyway total coincidence Nathan was there at the hospital (and it's a massive hospital) - he was having an ultrasound b/c he's retaining water in certain areas and they just want to make sure it's his meds only . Sighing, I'm sure everything is okay.

Liz - I know. If there is anyone in this world that I know likes herself - it's you. :love: :rotfl2: And please know I don't think there's a darn thing wrong with wanting more - and feeling more confortable etc.- if I did I should just get the he!! off this thread. ;) Especially feeling more confortable - I SO get that. . I'm sorry I come across that way. But of course I HATE put down words to ourselves - just hate it.

But I really liked looking at my lowest picture and remembering how obsessed I was at NOT being under 200- totally looked at where I wasn't - and I looked and felt fabulous. Never ever again will I feel that way - lessen in front of me and learned.

A great thing is I didn't look at the picture and beat myself up because I'm above that weight. That's a wonderful thing. I just said "when I'm there again I will not beat it up again".

And I guess that's it - I wish for all of us that we could want more if that's rational BUT want it with cheering where we are. That's it I guess. For me and this is for me only I don't mean to offend - my weight has been off for years and years - yes I've gone up a bit here and there - nothing major - but the reason I've kept all this weight off for this long - for me - I believe it has been about not beating myself up.

In the past I would never celebrate years of maintaining a weight loss - I would have beaten myself up about where I'm not and that I've gained a small part back. Especially about where I'm not.
 
gah. Amish girl broke her mouse :crazy2: Hate not having a mouse. :mad:

I had a Gremlin moment the other night at the show. Stephen's cousin was there with her 1 year old, who knows only 2 signs. "more" and "silly" :rotfl2: So when he wants more of something that makes him happy he signs "more silly" :rotfl2: (I'm easily amused. I know.)




umm..not so much. Oscar and Romeo are both girls. :rolleyes1 I'm really hoping that Whiskey and Zulu are girls though - I love those names



I'm struggling to get back on myself. Today I realized that I've been allowing my taste buds to make all the decisions on my food. And those stupid, selfish tastebuds aren't allowing my brain or my stomach to have any input at all. So. I've decided my tastebuds are hereby fired :laughing:



Perfect goal Liz. :lovestruc



Thanks Lisa! I've got 488 amazing pictures! I'm not going to put any of them on FB right now, because the drama club is selling the cd as a fundraiser - but I'll throw a few up here soon.



Good luck with ol' Doc S&G ;) Glad to hear that you are working out and feeling good! Now, to win your bidding war!

Nancy, I'm so confused. Didn't I see some FB pictures already? Are they someone else's - must be. I'm so confused.

I guess this is taper madness. I checked off every run on my plan like clockwork for months. At Disney last week I wore my Teva sandals in the park and then to Typhoon Lagoon. I could feel the bottom of my foot start to get hot. When I did the Disney half in 2010 I was reduced to walking the last few miles due to deep, deep blisters on the balls of both feet. This is how the beginning of that felt. I'm thinking NO, not now! Please not now. I lotioned my feet. Talked to them. My run the next morning was a planned 5. I stopped at 3. It wasn't that painful, but I don't want it to get any worse.

For that day in the park I put duct tape on the soles of my feet behind the toes. Worked like magic! The sock slid over the skin and the dish ran away with the spoon! I used duct tape again on my long run Saturday - 10 miles. Felt good. Yesterday was 5 again and I headed for the TM without the tape. I quit at 4 as the heat was starting to build.

What seems to happen is the skin moves with the sock or shoe in the case of the Tevas- so it's not a surface blister. Instead the skin moves over the deeper tissues and that's where the blister forms. Last year I could feel these deep dimples and see the outline. It was two months before the blisters "worked" their way to the top. I've got 11 days to the race. It will be all duct tape, all the time. Hey, it works! And for a taper purchase it's pretty cheap. Although I am eyeing the FR60 Kat.

I also brought a cold home from Florida. It's ending quickly though. It seems like I meet new viruses and invite them home. No one is happy with that!

I have four more runs and then a marathon. :scared1::yay::scared1::woohoo: All at the same time.

Ronda

Four more runs? Already. Holy cow. Can't wait.

I'm here! TOTALLY not caught up, and up to my ears in petsitting-spring-break-madness! It's been cold, snowy, & rainy, I'm coughing still, had dogs run off on me...it's just insane! But I'm still here! Kinda. :scared:

Yuck on cold, snowy and rainy. Here's to some temperatures from two weeks ago.....

Good morning! Crazy busy at work. Tracking daily and fitting exercise in when I can (mostly on weekends ot

I hope everyone is having a great day.

Hi Amiee! :lovestruc
 
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Nancy - I laughed at making S point out your body in the crowd. I did something similar to DGF a couple of weeks ago, we saw a woman jogging and I said, "I want to look like that" meaning the stride. She said "you do, but thinner". Really? Cool.

Ronda

I LOVE it!!! :goodvibes That's a great moment. :thumbsup2
 
Hi Lisa! I hope Nathan is ok.

I'm sure he is - I guess I was a tad taken aback b/c his face was a *bit* puffy again - nowhere near where he was when he was very ill - but it made me paranoid. He takes many many anti-rejection pills so that could be it easily - side effect. Thanks Amiee. I should learn to not let my mind wander. Like that will ever happen. :lmao: :goodvibes It's just me I'm sure. The changes on the positive end are fantastic and comforting.

EDIT: I just read about a transplant recipient where the drugs made her have moon face after surgery. So Lisa is merely thinking TOO MUCH. What a surprise.
 
I guess this is taper madness. I checked off every run on my plan like clockwork for months. At Disney last week I wore my Teva sandals in the park and then to Typhoon Lagoon. I could feel the bottom of my foot start to get hot. When I did the Disney half in 2010 I was reduced to walking the last few miles due to deep, deep blisters on the balls of both feet. This is how the beginning of that felt. I'm thinking NO, not now! Please not now. I lotioned my feet. Talked to them. My run the next morning was a planned 5. I stopped at 3. It wasn't that painful, but I don't want it to get any worse.

For that day in the park I put duct tape on the soles of my feet behind the toes. Worked like magic! The sock slid over the skin and the dish ran away with the spoon! I used duct tape again on my long run Saturday - 10 miles. Felt good. Yesterday was 5 again and I headed for the TM without the tape. I quit at 4 as the heat was starting to build.

What seems to happen is the skin moves with the sock or shoe in the case of the Tevas- so it's not a surface blister. Instead the skin moves over the deeper tissues and that's where the blister forms. Last year I could feel these deep dimples and see the outline. It was two months before the blisters "worked" their way to the top. I've got 11 days to the race. It will be all duct tape, all the time. Hey, it works! And for a taper purchase it's pretty cheap. Although I am eyeing the FR60 Kat.

I also brought a cold home from Florida. It's ending quickly though. It seems like I meet new viruses and invite them home. No one is happy with that!

I have four more runs and then a marathon. :scared1::yay::scared1::woohoo: All at the same time.

Ronda

Ronda, I am glad the duck tape helped. I don't dare tell DH about that or I would never get new shoes :rotfl2:
I am just in awe of how far you come. just a few weeks from a full. :worship: I can only dream about doing that.

Ah, Nancy, I love you. :love: New magnet for the fridge: "Chance made us thread-mates, crazy made us friends".

I have to be thankful for my healthy body. Seriously thankful. You know, I see people every single working day in pain. All day long, for six hours, that's what I see. And I never stop to think, WOW Liz, you got off lucky girl. Sure, I have weight to lose. But I have no major health problems at all. Nothing.

So I'm going to shut up and be thankful about that today. Remind me, okay? Nancy, Lisa, E, EE, Amy, Kat, Paula, Karen, Ronda, Kelly, Jo, Megan, Rob wherever you are...all of you...

Am I missing anyone? That's our roll call, right? So sorry if I am!!! :confused:

Okay, onto a question. So I've got this job here, which I love. :love: Like I love Nancy! But here is what it means.

Mr. 36 leaves at 5:30am every day, gets home at 7pm. I get kid to school, work 8-2, no breaks (and I mean I pee once a day at 1pm, and that's it!), then pick up kid. After school activities, ranging from 3-5 depending on the day. Homework. Bath, laundry, chores. Dinner at 7pm so we all eat together. Bedtime for child 8pm. I collapse at about that time every night. TV, book, zone out.

Don't get me wrong, I think that's a fantastic life. I do the bulk of childcare, cooking, cleaning, and errand running, but I am happy with that. And Mr 36 is totally willing to do any and all of that, schedule permitting. And sometimes I slack off and you know, READ instead of clean the stove while homework is being done. :rotfl:

Problems: Eating at work and exercise.

Work is 8-2 which means it's breakfast and lunch there. Now the thing is, I don't get breaks. At all. I am the woman behind the desk at reception who answers the phones and makes your appts and takes your money. BUT I am also the one who brings you back and cleans your room. So front and back girl. Thus everything I do is on display (what I eat, drink, etc) and there's no big sit down. It's up and down. I'm Catholic, so it's like Catholic Mass. :lmao:

Also, nothing can smell or be too foody because, eww gross for clients.

I usually manage breakfast okay. Almonds, fruit. Water or coffee. Bad but I try to pour it into a non coffee looking mug. (Wellness and all!) Lunch SUCKS. It's impossible to sit and actually eat. Anything I eat has to be consumed quickly, so I:

1. Order in soup or a sandwich.
Pros: tends not to stink, I get to eat, always delicious.
Cons: costs money, need to eat quickly, I don't always make the best choices.

2. Bring something:
Pros: I get to eat, Cheaper.
Cons: hard to heat up or make food because of timing, clients, and smells. Not always filling. Takes planning.

3. Wait until 2:30pm when I get home
Pros: um, none. Easy?
Cons: I'm starving and I eat whatever comes the quickest at home.

So basically I spend my day having to pee and with a slight headache from not eating. Now, if I could just chow Snickers bars and that was good for me, I'd be okay. :lmao: But as it is, I feel caught. I do order in and I do bring food and I do skip, depending on how harried my day is, and unless I hit it just right, it's hard. Skipping flat out sucks. Eating a granola bar to tide me over sucks. But less than not eating. Ordering in is great if I am focused and only order the right thing. But that's hard and I hate spending the money.

I'm not sure what the perfect thing to bring would be. Frozen entrees take cooking and I find they don't feel like real food to me. Salads take work at home, but they are good - if I spend the time to really make them and get the protein in and all. Hard to eat at my desk, though. Sandwiches I rarely make at home, but I could. I love bringing homemade pasta salad and quinoa and beans, but you can't bring that every day without dying of boredom. If I made homemade soup, that would be great. Soup is easy to eat here. But yeah, then that would be my fulltime job! And I can't really heat it up here.

What do you all do for lunch? Any suggestions? I really need help.

Part two, exercise issues, to come!

Protine shakes/ Bars are my vote, may one of each, I get them at Sams


Lisa, I am the queen of letting my mind wonder and take over. I had a issue with that today, Hope Nate's ok, and stop looking it up on the web.
 
So I am just in a funk, I know it has to be PMS,
I ran on Satruday, Jillian Monday, Elliptical Tuesday.
I wanted to run today, but my run mojo is gone. I just can't deal with the wind/cold right now. The sun is out but its still cold. I tell myself, "self umm you ran is 19* weather, get your @SS out there. Myself says back. NO!


This is my brand of crazy

OH, Liz I love Change made us thread-mates, Crazy made us friends.
 
No I wasn't looking it up on the web. :lmao: :lovestrucI just happened to find a thread here where someone stated that her face was puffy from meds AFTER the transplant - which is a great thing to soothe my nutso mind. Thank you coincidences/sycronicity.
 
Don't erase it Jo. It's just one of those days.

You have no idea what some of us have posted here. :rotfl2:

:hug: to you.
 
Hi Alexa! :hippie:

Kat, feel better soon. I am crossing my fingers for a illness related weight loss for you. Channeling Cutie here!

:rotfl2: SO laughing at this. YES, a total Cutie thing!

OMG, if there is now a vault in that place - well I'm running to the border. :woohoo: CAN NOT WAIT!!!

No...no vault! Yet....:rolleyes: Seriously, there is not one coming. Just the beam. And the mats. This is a pic of the wee one, just for you.

I guess this is taper madness. I've got 11 days to the race. It will be all duct tape, all the time. Hey, it works! And for a taper purchase it's pretty cheap.
I have four more runs and then a marathon. :scared1::yay::scared1::woohoo: All at the same time.

Ronda

So glad your trip was such a success!

And yes, taper madness is the worst and you seem to have restrained yourself! As for the duct tape...it totally works! All of the gymnasts use it, too!

So excited for your race! Can we track you? Or is there a live web feed at the finish? We want to be there with you!
 
Gremlins! :rotfl:

Have I mentioned I hate tracking? I used to LOVE it. I need to switch back with Erika FAST. :rotfl:

Gremlin, checking in! :rotfl2:

And as for the tacking switch, I know, right! I am tracking like a mad woman! :rotfl2: It's the iPhone APP. It made all the difference for me.


I once spent the better part of a Disney vacation making Stephen find people in the crowd whose body looked like mine. So, yes, I *get* your brand of crazy.

And I understand the addicted to weight loss. When I lost my weight and was at my all-time lowest (which is 15 lbs less than I am now :headache:) I literally feared food. Not *all* food - but I basically ate the same thing day after day and was afraid to vary. While my body was thin and healthy my head was not. Sadly, at the moment neither my head nor my body is in that healthy place that I so desire.

Well, you all know my fear of the scale, right? Well, that is MY crazy and it is related to what both Liz and Nancy said. When I was skinny (117!!! And a size 2!) I would weigh myself every day. And if the scale did not say the right number (I allowed anything 119 and under), then I wouldn't eat until it said the right number. I would get on the scale every hour or whatever. And yes, I KNEW then just as I do now that weight naturally fluctuates daily. So um, yeah. Unhealthy head. And that is why I don't weigh regularly now. I don't want to risk ending up back there.

Nancy - I also walked this way with Steven. :)


Say it with me....Rock me, Steven. :cool1:
 
OMG! LOVE, love, love it....Chance made us thread-mates, Crazy made us friends! YES!

Ok, I am finally all caught up! I've missed you all and missed being here. Nothing major going on, just my regular exhausting life. Which really is going well. Kids are great, all thriving in school and their various activities. I am freaking DRIVING the wagon I am doing so well. Feels great!

The knee...oh the knee! I had my MRI today. And about half way through, the radiologist came in and got me out of the tube. He looked at me and said, "I thought you said you didn't have any metal?" Um, I don't. So he was like, come back with me and look at the monitor. I go back there and there is a large chunk of metal floating around in my knee! WT F?!!? I have NO IDEA what it is or how/when it got there. The only thing I can think is that when I had my very first knee surgery when I was 14, they left something in there and it finally dislodged itself and is floating around causing me grief. Very weird.

So when the kids got home from school, I had the bright idea to tell Riley to bring me a strong magnet. Sure enough, the damn thing STUCK to the side of my knee, right where the metal thing showed up on the MRI. It was HI LAR IOUS.

I go back on Monday for the follow-up with the orthopedist while we figure out what the hell to do about this.

Lisa...you're up next! :thumbsup2
 

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