Thanks for all the messages guys - Ive not been online the last couple of days cam had to go back to hospital on friday and to be honest I think stress finally caught up with me and i seem to have slept for 3 days solid I am going to see my friends family today but they are extremly close and seem to have closed ranks and not allowing anyone to help at all - for now im just going to go round in person and offer again x
My kids are shocked to the core and its really hard to try and keep everything normal but i think when you have kids you find how to put a brave face on and smile even when everything around you seems to be trying to force you to not.