I know it's gotta get better...I've had a hard day today...

[December99]

At 4:06pm today, I was in the car heading out to the vet to pick up the remains of my moms dog so we can spread the ashes over her grave...and I started bawling!!!! Four weeks ago today at 4:06 my mom passed away...I just could not stop crying...well I did long enough to go get the dog...then I stopped by her site and just cried...like a total baby and I have had a very hard time stopping tonight....off and on I've been okay but when I'm sitting alone...I start all over again.

Please someone tell me this will end soon - the ongoing tears....I haven't had many days like this one - it just really hit me very hard today!!!!

UGH...I just needed to cry some more and I knew I could come here to shed some tears...and I know that there are many people that have had to go through this...just someone please tell me it will get better!!!! I know she's in a much better place and she's much happier than she would have been right now...Maybe something inside of me is telling me that the cancer would have been back in a fuller force - and we would have found that out probably tomorrow. Maybe some strange way that's why today has been hard also - I don't know.

Thanks for letting me mumble...

 

[Michelle]

{{{HUGS}}} sweetie, it does get better, it just takes time. It's been 21 YEARS since my father died, and on the anniversary of his death on 9/13 I was crying again myself.

Give yourself time to grieve. It hurts so much, I know, but time really does help to heal the hurt. You never forget, but you do heal.

 

[BethR]

I cannot imagine the pain.

{{{HUGS}}} '99

 

[glo]

Hugs Chris. I promise it will get better. You have had such a hard time lately. I will be thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers. Hold on and remember to always come here, there is always someone here to listen....hugs

 

[KimRaye]

Chris, I don't know what to say. I'm just soo sorry today was a bad day. Here's to easier tomorrows!! And, look for a Butterfly every day!!

Much Love & {{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}!!

And, you've got my number!! Anytime sweetie!

 

[Mskanga]

Chris , it will get better, my dad has been gone for 26 years now and I still have my moments but when I get like that I try to remember the silly times with him, that usually makes me laugh because he definetely was a character! {{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}

 

[#1 Disney Fan]

{{{{Hugs}}}}, {{{{Hugs}}}}, and more {{{{Hugs}}}}, 99. I don't know what else to say. We're here for you and I hope that your tomorrow's get easier.

 

[catsrule]

I lost my Dad Dec. 2 last year, I know what you are going through. I know it feels so weird and different. I will be at DisCon this year on Dec.2. I might need a shoulder to drop a tear or two on.

It gets a bit easier as time goes on. But the weirdness is still there. Hope the pain eases up a little bit for you. {{{HUGS}}}

 

[helenabear]

Big {{{HUGS}}} Chris. It does get easier, but it does take time. I still remember dates and still get emotional over some 9 years later after my mom's death. For me, yesterday marked the beginning of my "down time" when it comes to thinking about mom and her 3 month battle with cancer. It has gotten easier but still some days when I think about it, I cry like a baby. And to tell you the truth, for the first month after my mom died I must have cried at least once a day. Hang in there.

 

[Serena]

Chris, it took me about a month before I totally lost it. I had held myself together long enough to get what I needed done. After about a month I guess I decided I could handle it, and I fell apart.
This will happen from time to time. You'll be fine, and then something will trigger it. Even nine years later.
{{{hugs}}} sweety, it will be alright, eventually. Just let it happen, because if you try to hold it in, it will affect you in other ways.
Just decide you are taking a couples hours off from life and let yourself grieve.

If you need to talk to me let me know.


Again, I am so sorry.

 

[dianeschlicht]

((((hugs))))

It was your DM's connection to the dog that started it. It took at least 5 years before that quit happening to me. Sometimes just driving by the hospital would start me in! It has now been 10 years, and I still miss her so much, but the tears don't come as often now.

 

[Claudia1]

I don't have anything profound to say but wanted to send you {{{{{{{ hugs }}}}}}} this morning.

Please share your grief as often as you need. We're always here for you!

 

[Mackey Mouse]

Chris.. hugs.. it does get better, it just takes time.. It will always be there, the missing of her, but you will remember her with love and laughter as the years go by.. I miss my Mom everyday and as my first gets married this weekend, I so wish she would be there to share in the day.. so I am a little weepy too.. it is the normal grieving process....one you have to through..Hugs and prayers to you and your family..

 

[Lars624]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
I hope that today will be a little easier on you.
{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

 

[Melissa R]

Oh Chris - so sorry that you had a bad day. This first year will be so hard for you as you do everything for the first time without your mom. Obviously, having to deal with her dog made all your feelings come to the surface, but maybe that's a good thing. Allow yourself the chance to have those sad days, to release all the pain that you are holding inside. Take care of yourself and know that I'm thinking about you!

 

[janette]

Just a {{{{HUG}}}}, I hope today is easier.