I hate to ask this...

[drakethib]

Yes.

It is very wrong.

I understand your thoughts and was once there myself.

I promise you, things are not as bad as you think they are now. One day you will look back and see how much stronger you are because of low points that happened in your life.

There are more people around you who care more then you realize.

Life is a blessing and while it hurts at times, there is a reason things happen.

If you never listen to anything anyone speaks again, know this:

IT WILL GET BETTER.

 

[allie&mattsmom]

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. It will get better. Hang in there.

 

[swilphil]

It's absolutely wrong. You need to talk to a professional and sort this out. Take some of that sadness, disappointment and hurt and use it to help those in need. There are Red Cross and Salvation Army facilities looking for volunteers. You would be depriving your country of a person (you) who can contribute. Killing ones self only contributes to more pain and heartache for others.

Excellent advice. You can talk to a counselor at school. Even writing in a journal or talking to a friend or clergy person could help.

I felt like life would never be the same after 9/11. In some ways it isn't, but there is still much joy to be had. In some ways I appreciate it more and I see people in general taking time to smell the roses. YOU create the world that you want.

 

[drgnfly30]

NP Serena... I realized it after I originally posted as well..

MPFreak... I was a 14yo girl once too.. I suffered from depression & at times my problems seemed so monumental I couldn't see past them... trust me when I tell you that you can & will get past any of those problems... You know the sayings.. God won't give you anything you can't handle & What doesn't kill you will make you stronger... they are all true! Hang in there & take a look at the funny posts here tonight - they're priceless & will definately lighten your mood!

 

[hiwaygal]

When I was young (about your age MaryPoppinsFreak) I was not happy...what got me through was writing down what I felt (I ended up with a pretty large journal of poems) and listening to music.

I definitely think you need to take a break from *this* board for a little while if you are feeling the slightest bit bad about yourself...heck, I'm nearly 40 years old and I can't take what's been going on here lately. So I've been up at the trip reports board reading about all the wonderful Disney trips (and planning my own in just a short time).

I don't know if this is appropriate...but there is a song by Aerosmith that I love...perhaps you've heard it...it's called Amazing...I think you should read the lyrics (and take note of the "bold" ones):

Amazing
Aerosmith

I kept the right ones out
And let the wrong ones in
Had an angel of mercy to see me through all my sins
There were times in my life
When I was goin' insane
Tryin' to walk through
The pain
When I lost my grip
And I hit the floor
Yeah, I thought I could leave, but couldn't get out the door
I was so sick and tired
Of a livin' a lie
I was wishin' that I
Would die

It's amazing
With the blink of an eye, you finally see the light
It's amazing
When the moment arrives that you know you'll be alright
It's amazing
And I'm sayin' a prayer for the desperate hearts tonight

That one last shot's a permanent vacation
And how high can you fly with broken wings?
Life's a journey, not a destination
And you just can't tell just what tomorrow brings

You have to learn to crawl
Before you learn to walk
But I just couldn't listen to all that righteous talk
I was out on the street,
Just a tryin' to survive

It's amazing
With the blink of an eye, you finally see the light
It's amazing
When the moment arrives that you know you'll be alright
It's amazing
And I'm sayin' a prayer for the desperate hearts tonight.

Take care of yourself, MaryPoppinsFreak...and feel free to PM me if you need to talk about anything!