I can do this...Karyn's journal to lose 20!

[karynnix]

Well, I tried, but the rest of the day wasn't much better. Just kind of blah. The sun is starting to come out, and DH should be home soon. DS had a good day at school. He said that the kids played with him at recess today. That's a big step!!

I have tried to keep my eating under control today. I'm getting hungry again, so I'll have a bowl of cereal when I finish here.

Breakfast-ham sandwich (5 pts)

Snack-cheese puffs (5 pts)

Lunch-Chicken Helper Fried Rice (5 pts)

Dinner-pancakes with a little syrup (6 pts)

Total-21 pts...not bad...cereal will add about 5 pts to that total. Maybe I'll look around for something lower in points.

 

[Rizel]

*gives you a hug* I hate being homesick too. Try to cheer up, go out and take a stroll, cloudy days are the best days to take a walk, it'll be nice and cool. *hugs* you can do it!

 

[eeyore25]

Hi Karyn,

Sorry I have not been up on your journal. Things have been so crazy at work.

I am glad that they found out what was causing you so much pain, just sorry what you have to go through to get it fixed. I'm thinking of you.

Glad that the kids are really working and understanding your son better. I went to high school with a boy that was autsic (Spelling?) and his mother had to come to school (yes in high school) and talk to the class about him. It was really very interesting to hear the things that his mother had to say. He was a great guy!

You are doing a great job Karyn! Keep it up

 

[lovinaz]

How are you doing today Karyn? Feeling better about things I hope!

Hang in there, you can get back on track!!!

 

[karynnix]

We found out today that there are absolutely no military jobs that DH can transfer to in S.C. We are stuck here. I just don't know if we made the right decision moving here. Food-wise, I have not done well.

Breakfast-cereal and milk (5 pts)

Lunch-some leftover rice from yesterday (4 pts), pinapple and cream cheese sandwich (5 pts) and cheese puffs (5 pts)

19 points and I haven't eaten dinner yet! Not good.

 

[keenercam]

Hey, Karyn -- I am so sorry you guys are having a rough time because of DH's job situation. I hope it all works out for you soon, but that in the meantime, you can find some positives to your current location.

I am so relieved to hear that things are better for your DS at school. Thank God that kids can be taught tolerance and patience and understanding. Hopefully, they are learning lessons that will make them better people. Right now, I'm just so glad for you that that huge source of stress may be relieved a bit.

It sounds like you are doing pretty well on food, even if you have to access your FPs-- isn't that what they are there for? Don't beat yourself up about it. Give yourself so much credit for not falling headfirst into a bowl of ice cream or something, with all you have had to cope with.

Sending you and and WISHing you a great afternoon.

 

[lovinaz]

That stinks, I know how much you want to move back. I agree with Cam, you have to make the best of your current situation. How much longer is your DH going to be in the military? Once he gets out he can always look for a job in SC. It will happen in time, it happened for me!

Don't let yourself go off the deep end! Recognize that you are depressed and going to want to eat things you shouldn't. You are going through an extremely stressful period right now, it's understandable! Maybe you can funnel some of that energy into exercise or being diligent about your eating or volunteering. Something to keep focused on the positive.

Hang in there, don't give up!

 

[Cruise04]

HUGS Karyn!!!!! I'm sorry that there isn't anything open right now. But at least keep in the back of your head to check every once in a while. I am so happy that things appear to be looking up for your son!!!!

You can get back on track and it looks like you're heading that way - good job!!!! I know it's hard when you get down and the days are just blah - that's what I was like last week. But I got back on track and it's harder than ever but I'm determined to do this! Hang in there - we're here for you!

Keep on
Chris

 

[karynnix]

You guys are so supportive and wonderful. Thank you. I have resigned myself to the fact that we will be staying here. Jay will be in the military indefinitely. He has been a reservist since he graduated high school in 1992, and he wanted to go full-time when he got back from Iraq in 2003. Now he is an administrator for a reserve unit. This is his career choice. I am very proud of him for making that choice after all he went through in Iraq and Kuwait. It takes a really strong person to do that. Personally, I'm not that strong!

I haven't eaten anything else yet today. I'll be hungry when I get back from taking DD to dance in a little while and I'll decide what to eat then. Thanks to all of you for the wonderful support.

 

[lovinaz]

You are an awesome wife! He is very lucky to have someone as supportive as you, even though you are not where you really want to be. Give it time, you will learn to love Iowa. Just be sure to schedule visits back home as often as practical.

You are stronger than you think, you can do it! And we are here for you to lean on.

What kind of dance does your DD do? My DD6 is in tap and ballet. She LOVES it!

 

[goldcupmom]

HUGS!!!!

I'm sorry things aren't going to work out to go back to SC, but try to make the best of things. Hopefully your son's school days will continue to improve. Your kids are adorable!

Hang in there! Homesickness is NO fun, and as someone who never lived near any family my whole married life,I know how tough it can be. Get involved, make sure to take time for you to make your own friends. Life will get better!

You are doing the right thing by handling your DH job situation this way. Who knows, something may turn up when least expected.

In the meantime, I always believe that things happen for a reason. Keeps me from going insane!! LOL!!

Have a good rest of the week!

Enjoy Iowa fall weather! Wish I could come play in the leaves with you!

 

[eeyore25]

Hi Karyn,

Hugs to you as well. I too am also sorry that things are not working out for you to move back to SC. Like Amy said, just make sure you make time for visits.

You can get back on track, I know you can. And we are always here to lend an ear!!!!

Keep it up!

 

[karynnix]

Oh my goodness...I have NO willpower! I went to lunch with DH and ordered fish and chips. WRONG CHOICE!! There was a healthy grilled chicken right there on the menu and I ordered fish and chips before I could stop myself!! What am I paying a food slapper for anyway??? I ate 3 pieces of fried fish and about 4 fries. Oh, and I ate some coleslaw.

Breakfast-pineapple and cream cheese sandwich (4 pts)

Snack-chips (4 pts)...actually measured them out!

Lunch-well...you know (???? pts)

Dinner-Honeycomb cereal and skim milk (5 pts)

If the fish and chips were more than 7 pts (which I'm sure it was!!), then I went over...AGAIN!!! No more cheating. NO MORE EATING OUT UNTIL NEXT WEEK!!!

 

[lovinaz]

Eating out does wreak havoc on the healthy eating, doesn't it?!? Every weekend I plan out a week's worth of breakfasts, lunches & dinners, then go to the store and stock up! If you have everything you need, you won't be tempted to eat out and you can always have healthy meals at home. There are SO many times when we are out & about on the weekends and I've wanted to stop at Chili's or somewhere for lunch and DB will remind me that we have stuff for sandwiches at home... Sometimes I want to punch him, but after eating a 200 calorie sandwich instead of 600+ calories of boneless buffalo wings, I am grateful!

You can get back on track, go back and read your journal from the beginning! See how you struggled and how you eventually got into the habit of staying within your points. YOU CAN DO IT AGAIN!!!!

 

[keenercam]

Hey, Karyn! Don't worry about that lunch,but be sure to come up with a strategy for dealing with it. I am one of those people who is out of control when I get a menu in front of me. I now have two strategies I implement: I either tell DH what I am going to eat and ask him not to let me order something different, or I tell him what I should eat and I ask him to order for me and I go to the ladies' room so that I don't change my mind to something bad when the waiter or waitress gets to our table.

 

[karynnix]

Today has been a struggle! I haven't been feeling well at all. I can't wait to meet with the surgeon in a few weeks to get this taken care of. It's really miserable. DS had a meltdown at school and I had to go and take care of him. DH just called and said that he has a guy coming over tonight to watch a ballgame. I want to run away!!

Breakfast-it was cold this morning and I wanted grits. I ate 2 bowls (it was sooo good!) and I figured 7 points...still not too bad

Lunch-baked potato (8 pts)

That leaves me 5 pts for dinner. I have no idea what I am fixing. DH wants to order pizza for the game, but that is too much temptation for me. I may send them to Pizza Hut and let them eat it there!

On a good note, my mom is going to come when I have surgery to help with the kids. She is going to take Amtrak because she has a terrible fear of flying. I can't wait to see her! I hope that I can have the surgery before the end of October so that it doesn't affect our Thanksgiving travel.

I didn't do too bad for dinner. I baked some fish (1 pt), ate some mashed potatoes (2 pts) and some peas (1 pt) and ate 1 biscuit (4 pts). That put me 3 pts over. Not as bad as it could have been!!

 

[J4Dis]

Hi! Sorry you had a bad day Hope tomorrow is better. Good news about you're Mom, though. Sounds like it will be nice. Too bad her visit is a result of you needing surgery though.
take care.

 

[karynnix]

I'm in a slump and I can't seem to dig out! I have tried very hard to eat better today. I'll weigh tomorrow, so we'll see how I did then!

Breakfast-Honeycomb cereal and skim milk (6 pts)

Lunch-leftover fish (1 pt), peas (1 pt) and mashed potatoes (4 pts)

Dinner-6 fish sticks (6 pts) and some Rice-a-Roni (5 pts)

Total-23 pts...still over, but that is becoming the norm for me! I can't seem to stay under 23 pts, so I'm going to stick with that.

 

[Rizel]

I'm getting overwhelmed just by reading your journal.
This is what i have to say.
You can do it, stay strong and things will look up.
Do not beat yourself up over being over your points, you will succeed and get over this slump.
*huggles* feel better.

 

[karynnix]

The scale showed 130.8 this morning. That is a 1.6 pound loss since last Saturday. Apparently the extra points haven't hurt me too much. I want to be down some more before I have surgery so that I don't have to work so hard while trying to recover. I know that weight should be the last thing on my mind, but I feel like the commercial with the woman dragging the scale behind her. It's always there!!

Breakfast this morning was a Lean Pocket (6 pts). We are having Christmas pictures taken today at the park, so I won't be tempted to sit around and eat all day. It has been in the 60's all week, and the day we have Christmas picutes, it's going to be 80 degrees!! We will just have to suffer for a little while in sweaters and turtlenecks in 80 degree temperatures! I promised DS that I would make tacos for dinner, so I got light sour cream and 2% cheese. I also got the super-lean ground beef (98/2). It shouldn't be too bad! DH has drill this weekend, so I will be able to catch up on journals this afternoon.