Having a hard time

[Verity Chambers]

I chose not to really post about this up to now, but need to get it off my chest.
My dad was disgnosed with pancreatic cancer last July and has progressed to the point where he is in a hospice and extremely unwell. He is pumped full of morphine and talking nonsense most of the time. SOmetimes he is cross with me, sometimes doesn't recognise me. It is heartbreaking to see him in so much pain, so weak, confused and upset. It is also so scary to be so close to the end. I just want to support mum as best I can.
I have rambled on there, not making much sense.
xxx

 

[BingsingsWaltDisney]

thoughts to you and yours...........H

 

[Cyrano]

Verity I wish I knew how to say the right words to understand your position.
Although my father died when I was much younger it came suddenly without warning.

I hope you can remember all those wonderful times when he was stupid, funny and there for you I am sure even in his pain he will be remembering how you looked up to him.

You have many close friends on the DIS who I hope will be a comfort to you.

Please feel free to come on and rant away

 

[Jeniferdwn]

Verity, i know it's hard on you seeing him like that, but remember the good times and the fun times you've had with him. I'm sure that's what he would want you to do. Also spend as much time as you can with him now. He may not seem to know you're there, but I'm sure deep down, he knows you're with him. Hugs and prayers for you and your family.

 

[mandymouse]

Big hugs Verity. Thinking of you, your dad and your family at this very sad and difficult time

 

[cannp123165]

Thinking of you and your family Verity.

 

[jjk]

thinking of you and your Family Verity

 

[princess jackson]

Sorry to hear your news,

 

[irongirlof12]

that's very sad indeed, you can only hope to get through this as best you can... if you need us you know where we are.

 

[Muscateer]

So sorry to hear your news. Thinking of you and your family at this sad and difficult time.

I went through the same with both my parents and watching them fade away through morphine was heartbreaking.

 

[Netty]

Verity very sorry to hear this.. all i can say is that remember how your dad was before all of this, he's always been there for you and loves you, you are now being there for him and your mum, take care sending you hugs xxxx

 

[joolz1910]

I went through a similar situation with my Dad last year - my heart goes out to you.

 

[Ware Bears]

 

[Pinky166]

Big hugs, thinking of you.

 

[wigeboo]

Big hugs

 

[disneychic2]

So sorry you and your mum have to go through that. Hospice is such a wonderful organization. DH's father went through it for a brief time and it seemed the people at hospice ministered to us as much as my DFIL. Know that there plenty of Yanks who are praying for you and care.

 

[disney_princess_85]

Thinking of you and your family Verity. Best wishes.

 

[Chilly]

So sorry to hear your terrible news. Big hugs to you.

 

[jen_uk]

Really sorry to hear this, sending you massive hugs

 

[Verity Chambers]

Thank you to everyone who has taken the time to respond to this thread, it is very much appreciated. The last few days have been the worst of my life, but you somehow you find inner strength from somewhere to carry on. Yesterday was awful as he was so muddled but today I just went for a short time (as he hates having lots of people round, it is agitating him) and he was a lot less confused, not sure why, but it was nice to see a tiny bit of my "real" dad if only for a little while. He has slept most of the day, so we will what tomorrow brings. x