Having a hard time focusing this week

[Rajah]

Yesterday had me in a bad mood most of the day. Today, I just want to go home. I don't want to be here (at work), I really don't.

I don't know why it's hitting me so much harder today (even harder today than it was yesterday) but for some reason it is.

Tried working on a project yesterday, and it took me over an hour to remember how to do something I used to be able to do in 10 minutes.

I wish I could just go home, go back to bed for a few hours, and then curl up with a book for a while, then some cross stitch and cartoons.

 

[helenabear]

Hang in there Tammi... no matter what is going on in my life, I get that way now and then. Is there anything you can try to look forward to doing that might put a smile on your face? I wish I really had good advice but I guess I don't... I hope the day gets better for you

 

[Rajah]

Work related? No.

Personal? Going home and cross stitching.

I'm seriously tempted if things don't start looking up to take off after lunch.

 

[wickey's friend]

{{{Tammi}}}

I'm more of a lurker, but I wanted to let you know that I've been thinking about you this week. I know it has been a tough one.

I really don't have an answer to your not wanting to be at work -- I just wanted to send a little support and dust. Please take care of yourself.

 

[browneyes]

I'm sorry today is a bad day, Tammi.

 

[CRB#33]

Tammi.

Hang in there. I'm praying for you.

 

[helenabear]

Hard to find stuff at work to look forward to isn't it? At least you have something to look forward to at home... if you can try to at least get out for lunch. Maybe a change of scenery will help perk you up a little

 

[worm761]

 

[Otto's Doll]

Hang in there, Tammi. Sending prayers and PD your way.

 

[snoopy]

Awww Tammi, I've been out of town, but I have been thinking of you. I'm sorry this week has been hard. Just take one day at a time.

{{{hugs}}}

 

[Rajah]

Well, going out for lunch both helped and didn't help.

Didn't help in that one of the reasons I had to go out today was to go to the bank with my mom to remove my dad from the accounts. Thankfully, just a few days before this happened, we'd gone to an actual branch of our bank instead of the "mini-branches" in the grocery stores, and met a very nice banker who helped us get our business accounts set up. We went by there today, and my DH had already contacted her to let her know what had happened (weeks ago, we had to wait for the death certificates to come in) so she knew what we were there for without us having to say anything. And even though she didn't know our names, she remembered *us* and knew our situation.

Then mom and I went by the bookstore because I wanted books 7 and 8 in a series I'm reading and 2 in another series. Naturally, the book store didn't have any of them. So I'm debating between Amazon or Library. Maybe I'll do both -- library so I can read the next book right now, order so when I want to re-read this series later (which I know I will, this is the 3rd time I've read this series -- I just borrowed the books from a friend the first two times) I can. I already got all the rest of the books from Half Price Books, so I know our HPB doesn't have the others, unless they came in a week ago.

Then by lunch. Got some soup which helped my sore throat, but that's about it.

One thing going out *did* do is it made it later when I got *back* to work so it's easier to see staying until 6:30 when it's 2 now than it was to see staying until 6:30 when it was noon.

 

[Planogirl]

Just wanted to say hello and send a . Hang in there Tammi.

 

[Serena]

I know you can't feel this right now, but you are doing amazing. Don't be so hard on yourself, you'll be alright.

btw, I bet there were some days you were looking forward to going home, long before now.

 

[Rajah]

Oh yeah, I sure did have days similar to this before, Serena. It's just now a little "sharper" if that makes sense.

 

[Pin Wizard]

Hugs, Tammi! Could it be time for a new job? I left mine a year and a half ago and went back to school. Now I'm bored with school and ready to work! LOL! No pleasing me! Ha! Hope it improves soon. I remember going to work each morning, getting my coffee, sitting down at my desk, and my first thought was...I don't want to be here! It went on for a long time before I finally left!

 

[Rajah]

I've thought about that, PW, but when I'm not depressed, I like what I'm doing here, like where I work, and for the most part like who I work *with*. Right at the moment, I'm going to be depressed no matter *where* I work, so I might as well be depressed here. Plus, the company's helping to pay for my Master's degree, and if I left, I think we'd have to give back some of the reimbursement money if I remember correctly.

All things considered, I'm better off where I am, I think.

 

[Serena]

Yeah, of course it makes sense. You've been through a lot, you still are.
Today you can be one of those clock watchers that can't wait until the end of the day. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

 

[Rajah]

I wonder what the boss would think of me bringing in a pillow, blanket, book and kitty? Gabi would *love* exploring the office, I'm sure.

 

[Serena]

Actually do they have an area that you could lay down, maybe take a long lunch break and a nap? Maybe not Gabi, but some cross stitch and a book?

It sounds like a great way to get the break you need and be able to work like you need too.

 

[Rajah]

They sorta do, but I never can relax in those so-called "quiet rooms". I feel like I did going to the school nurse: if you're sick enough to go there, you're sick enough to do nothing more than lie down and count the ceiling tiles. And doing that would make me worse.