Hi team!
Sorry I've been MIA for a few days. Life. OY!
In some possible positive news, after talking a long time with "Mom 2", a really good friend of mine from seminary who did therapy before, it seems that there's a good possibility I may have Adult ADHD. She said she often wondered seeing how I approached things (or didn't as the case may be) at seminary, and given the things going on now... She sent me a PDF of the self-screener that I would be given anyway, and basically everything was in the shaded area, indicating a very strong likelihood of having it.
The bad news is *my* particular charmer of a GP at the clinic I've been going to didn't even want to discuss it, in spite of GPs being able to diagnose. He cut me off immediately and said he would give me a list of psychiatrists they recommend. But honestly I shouldn't have even let the appointment get to that point. This is the same gem who brushed off my weight loss in our last appointment...so I shouldn't have been surprised that when he was doing the exam he said "Do you wear sunscreen?" "Yes." "You really should. You have almost no pigment in your skin." and followed that up with "Oh. You have some stretch marks here."

If I hadn't been a) so floored and b) so wanting to talk about probably adhd I should have told him to get out, gotten dressed, dropped my co-pay at the desk, and asked when I could pick up a copy of my records for a new doctor not at this clinic. The nurses are great and I love the gyns, but their doctors? Seriously rude and insensitive.
So now I'm apparently looking for a doctor AND a therapist who can prescribe meds (a friend has given me the names of a couple of psychopharmacologists she's used who pretty much just assess based on tests and then prescribe, but I'm iffy on using them). Oh joy.
Physically I'm feeling better. Just residual stuffiness. I ran on the treadmill today and it felt good. Tomorrow I'm planning 2 hours at a slowish 3:2 interval. If it hits 9 miles, bonus. But I'm more focused on getting foot time than foot mileage in training for the NYC Half. Emotionally...much as I hate to admit it, I might actually benefit from a therapist. We'll see. I'm making sure every i is dotted and every t is crossed at work. So far it's going well. One teacher quit on Wednesday, so that's been occupying them the past couple of days (and with no notice it probably doesn't look great on an untenured principal's record, so...they may be more supportive and encouraging, but I'm not counting on it).
Wow...sorry to dump on you guys!!! Feel free to tell me to shut up any time!
Sue ~ Have fun spinning and skiing!! I LOVE the music from The Secret Garden!! I wish I'd been able to see it!
Gerry ~ Good luck!! Kick asphalt!
Lynn ~ Isn't bare ground lovely?? We're finally getting it here in NYC too!! Woohoo!! Enjoy the warmer temperatures.
Elizabeth ~ Hope yoga was great! And that you got a good run in today!
Saylan ~ Enjoy your taper!!
Vicky ~ YES! I actually get a Winter Break that starts next Friday at 3pm and lasts through the next week. I'm going to Italy through the 24th!! WOOHOO!!!! Then we're off from 3pm April 15 through the start of school on the 27th for Spring Break. (One advantage to being in NYC is that the Jewish population is so high, our Spring Break is always inclusive of Passover. Also if they fall on weekdays, we get Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur off. There wouldn't be enough teachers to cover the kids that would be in attendance, so...bonus!) I loved Black Swan!! (Other than The Kids Are All Right which I also loved...but totally think Julianne should have gotten the acting nod over Annette. Poor thing ALWAYS gets gipped out of awards - this has the potential to be the second where it's by someone in the same movie as her... I digressed...I haven't seen any of the noms besides those two. I know it's blasphemy here on the DIS, but I've never been able to get into Toy Story.) I saw it at a theatre across from Lincoln Center, so that just sort of heightened it to walk out and be *there*.
Ok...I've babbled enough! Take care everyone!!
~beth