Well, it's been a heck of a week.
Yesterday, when I realized my healthy eating habits were starting to crumble down around me, I stopped, took a deep breath... and hit the restart button. I have to say that I really really appreciate how supportive my husband is through this, too.
On Friday, after a long and kind of stressful week, I was waiting for my husband after work. While I was working on my knitting, a woman walked by, talking on her cell phone. She mentioned that she'd just gotten out of a job interview for a position.
That I had applied for. That I clearly was NOT getting an interview for. Rats. Rats rats rats rats.
I informed my husband that I needed a piece of chocolate cake, because that was JUST my breaking point. We went to the store and he struggled a bit, because there was a HUGE very pretty chocolate cake. But he was able to put it back and pick up the tiny cake (technically a 5 serving-size cake), which was ALL I wanted. And you know what? It was awesome. Then it was gone.
But I still had cake. And Thursday night, we'd eaten out, and I rarely even bother to make super-healthy decisions. And there'd been a donut.
Yesterday, on our way back from errands, he said "I want to stop at McDonalds for a Flurry." My reply was "I've had cake, I won't have a Flurry, but you can." But in his effort to support me, he drove right past (I should also note here that he had run 14 miles Saturday morning!) McDs and home, where he fixed himself a big bowl of ice cream and I had one of my tasty fat-free yogurts.
I do suspect, at this point, that I will not be seeing a weight loss on my next weigh-in. I am keeping my fingers crossed that I do not see a weight GAIN!
It's also frustrating, too, because I overdid it, working out, on Wednesday and yesterday was the first time I was no longer in significant pain. I hate that it's so easy to overdo it - we're talking lowest resistance settings, 35 minutes on the exercise bike. I guess, though it sounds like a cop out, it is what it is!
My massage therapist also confirmed yesterday that my leg muscles are very week and very fragile and that the most I can hope for is the occasional half day, in Disney, on two feet and not in a wheelchair. Bummer!!
Plus, I'm working tonight, over dinner, and my employer promised "snacks." I think I'm going to cut up an apple and an orange for my own easy snacking and pack my own bottle of water. That way I can fill up on the healthy stuff, first!!
My scale has not been cooperating lately either......I am stuck again........
