You know what bugs me the most about this surgery? It seems like since it has become an option, it is the ONLY option that doctors seem to know or care about. It is next to impossible to get a doctor to talk to you about how to lose weight without the assumption that you are just a fat, lazy moron. I can't tell you how many doctors I've been to with this attitude. After the last one I just broke down crying because no one will help me.
I also have a LOT of weight to lose and for some reason it is just not coming off. I was on WW for 15 months... the first 3 months I did REALLY well and lost 25 lbs and then I added exercise to my routine and the weight loss just stopped. It was a plateau everyone said. I still had a ton more weight to lose after that. I exercised and went to WW meetings religiously for a YEAR after that and didn't lose an ounce. During the summer I biked or swam every day for over an hour... biking on hilly roads. During the winter I joined a gym and took a water aerobics class 3 days a week and worked with a trainer to create a program the other 3 days. Nothing. Not an ounce, no dropping of sizes with that mysterious "losing fat and gaining muscle" thing that seems to happen to some people. Nothing. An entire year of weighing and measuring and counting everything that went into my mouth and nothing.
So I finally got fed up and it took me all of 6 weeks to put that 25 lbs back on just exercising and not counting religiously. That was pretty scary so I went to the doctor. She told me that I had to be lying to myself if I thought I was actually doing what I said I was doing and having no success. She told me I was doing the wrong kinds of exercise... If I wanted to I could bike and swim "for fun" but she suggested curves instead as people have had a lot of success with that. She asked me if I eat when I am stressed and I said I did sometimes but not when I was working hard on a program (ie I hadn't in the last year) so she prescribed prozac for me. I tore up the prescription! She also mentioned the gastric bypass surgery. On my first visit! On one hand she is telling me that I have GOT to be undisciplined and on the other hand she is trying to send me to someone to cut me up. What kind of mixed messages are those?
I have been to several doctors since moving and I get more of the same. I did stop exercising for a while as we had too much going on with househunting and packing and moving long distance and all that nonsense, but I did start going to curves about 4 months ago and have gone religiously 5-6 times a week, about a quarter of those times doing a double workout and about half doing a 50 minute workout including hand weights. My pulse is in the target range. I had decent success (inches lost) the first month (though nowhere NEAR as well as other women I have known have started curves at my size) but that has petered down to almost nothing. I also have been watching my diet... not in a WW counting points way but I do spot check my daily diet and am eating well below what all of the calculators say I need to maintain my weight and pretty much the equivalent of what my WW points range would be. Oatmeal for breakfast, fruit for snacks, salads or sandwiches on light bread with lots of fresh veggies for lunch, healthy dinners. It's not rocket science. I cut out sugar and most white flour. I try to get in 3 servings of low fat dairy a day. Guess how much I have lost in 4 months? Nothing. Big fat goose egg.
So I started the whole doctor business again. Wouldn't you know, the first thing out of their mouth is gastric bypass. Hello, isn't that supposed to be a last resort? Surely there are other options to explore before resorting to the mutilation of a vital system in my body resulting in having to take nutrtional supplements for the rest of my life because I cannot get the proper vitamins the regular way?
I had one doctor tell me that she wasn't a fan of curves, she thought it was a gimmick and that I should walk instead. She told me to walk so fast that I was breathing very heavily and my heart felt like it was going to leap out of my chest. I can't believe a DOCTOR gave that advice? What about target heart rate? Even at 80% of my target heart rate (the maximum they suggest you hit) my heart doesn't feel like it's going to leap out of my chest and I can carry on a normal conversation. Actually I am like that up to 100% of my target heart rate which is why I bought myself a heart rate monitor because it was too hard to tell if I was pushing too hard.
I had another doctor tell me that whole grains are the key and I am eating the wrong kind of oatmeal. I kid you not. She said that any oatmeal you buy in the regular store is crap, I should eat steel cut oats. Now I don't eat instant oatmeal but I do eat the regular kind. I know that the only difference between steel cut oats and the regular kid is that they've been rolled flat (ie rolled oats). I know that the only difference between rolled oats and instant is that they are further pulverized for quicker cooking. I have done so much nutritional and diet research I could probably be a diet doctor (except I can't diagnose myself). I told her this and she STILL treated me like a big fat lazy moron. I told her that if I only had 10 lbs to lose perhaps tiny tweaks like that would make a difference but I have a lot to lose and nothing is happening. She asked if I wanted a referral to a gastric bypass doctor.
FINALLY I found a decent doctor. She has absolutely no bedside manner, but she is the first person who treated me like a normal person. She is the first person who noticed that my body temperature was 97.4 degrees in the middle of a warm summer day even after I had spent an hour working out that morning. She asked me about symptoms related to hypothyroidism and since then I have done a bunch of reading and frankly, I have been living with some of them for so long that I just ignore them. She asked if I have muscle aches and cramps and I said no because 80 doctors ago they told me of COURSE my muscles would ache, I am carrying a lot of extra weight! Even without that I have many of the symptoms, and my recent inability to remember anything short or mid term is the most startling because I USED to be the one who scared people by how much I retained. Thank goodness I am not taking any classes right now or I don't know what I'd do, I literally can't remember something that was said to me 2 minutes after it was said.
She did take blood and said that she is just an internal doctor, if nothing is obvious from the standard tests it's off to an endocrinologist for me. I have tried to get myself referred to an endo for a long time, but no one would. One doctor told me a little story about how she sent someone just like me to an endo for a battery of tests and nothing came back, as she thought, it was all in her mind.
I am waiting for those blood test results right now and I am terrified that they will come back all normal as they did the one time I was able to convince my doctor to run the thyroid tests as long as she was doing cholesterol and all the rest, but from my extensive reading the tests are really not conclusive, but at least I know this doctor will send me to an endocrinologist and also a nutritionist... who knows, maybe I am doing something wrong. I am tired of people commenting about how little I eat though, it's like they see this big fat person and figure they must stuff themselves silly. When I go out to a restaurant and order a salad with grilled chicken and dressing on the side and am stuffed by half of it they look at me in shock as they eat their burger and fries and maintain a normal, healthy weight. I can count on two hands how many people have said "wow, that's REALLY all you eat?" Of course in their mind they agree with all of the doctors, I MUST be lying to myself.
So I don't know... I don't need the surgery to keep my portions down and I think I would rather be fat than have my digestive system mutilated in that way. I would rather focus on having good cholesterol levels and good blood pressure and a low resting heart rate and being able to climb stairs without huffing and puffing (and yes, it also shocks people that I can "keep up" in spite of my weight, but of course I exercise like crazy). Oh well.
I guess that was just my whole long rant because I do not believe that doctors are using this surgery as a last resort. Of COURSE patients see it as a miracle cure because doctors are advertising it as such. Not only are they advertising it as such but they are advocating it when they don't know the patient from Adam. The whole "industry" just makes me sick and the fact that there is not much in the way of MEDICAL help for people who want to lose weight without surgery also makes me sick.
So Disney01, you can go on thinking your stereotypes about me if you want to because it really does seem to be well out of the comfort range of even trained medical professions to believe that being overweight is anything but payback for being lazy and gluttonous. I can talk til I am blue in the face and if people who should know better don't, how the hell am I supposed to change the minds of people who only have popular opinion to go by?
Off to the gym!