luvwinnie--you will be AMAZED at how volunteering, helping, or walking in that Kidney Walk in your mom's memory will help you, and make you feel SO MUCH BETTER. It's something tangible you can do.
I lost my best friend 7 years ago to cancer. She passed away 3 weeks after I gave birth to DS. (To say I was *slightly* hormonal would be an UNDERSTATEMENT).
She made us all promise that we would do what we could to help the organizations that helped her during her fight. I have been volunteering with the Jimmy Fund/Dana Farber Cancer institute ever since.
My condolences on your loss as well.
Debbie