Forgive me Wishers... I Have Sinned!

[mrsltg]

... and it was GOOD!!!

Hi all!

I'm back from my 11 day Disney trip. What a blast! I can't imagine having more fun than I did. Ok... here goes the confession...

I ate ice cream. At least once a day. Yes, I said at least. That means sometimes it was more than once a day. I ate desserts. I ate bad carbs. Although, most things didn't taste as good as I thought that they would. However, things that tasted better than I thought that they would often got a second helping (ie cornbread from Whispering Canyon). I drank wine. I ate pastries. It was FABULOUS!

Anyway....

I dreaded getting on the scale when I got home. I had promised myself all vacation that I would immediately resum Atkins on 12/17 (yesterday). When I woke up yesterday I dragged my sorry self to the scale and stepped on. It took me at least a full 30 seconds to look down at the numbers. When I did, I couldn't believe what I saw. I LOST 2 POUNDS!!! I nearly died!!! My guess is that I did so much walking (we usually opened and closed the parks with no breaks in between) that I managed to offset the food that I was eating.

Here's the problem...

I need support now. I think that I was hoping to gain weight as a reinforcement of what I had done. I wanted to see the numbers on the scale go up so that I could say to myself, "see what happens when you do this???" Instead, I look at the numbers and see, "It doesn't matter if you cheat." It does matter and I know it. I need encouragement to stay the course. I have been perfect yesterday and today and had no trouble slipping back into program. Please give me words of encouragement and support to help me through this time when I'm feeling a little more daring than I'd like.

Happy Holidays and Thanks!

Erin

 

[Disfan1]

You are right, all of that walking probably helped undo the "bad"stuff you were eating. Now that you are back from vacation, your metabolism is so revved up from the extra excercise that you will lose even more weight by going back onto Atkins Keep up the good work!

 

[ZerasPride]

It sounds like you had a wonderful trip and to lose weight too, that's just awesome! My next Disney vacation is in May/June and I'm not sure at this point how I will handle the pressure to eat off program. I am doing South Beach which is a bit different from Atkins but many of the concepts are the same.

I wonder if I will give in to the temptations that will be around every corner. My answer. I hope not. I don't want to cheat. I have cheated all my life. I know what ice cream, cheese grits and biscuits and gravey taste like. They have contributed to my heaviest weight of 282.5 pounds. I carry around a pic of me at my heaviest standing in front of the castle with my nieces. I look terrible. I have lost about 15 pounds in about 2 weeks. My clothes fit better than ever. I am even able to wear comfortably clothes that were previously tight or would not fit at all. I like this feeling of control. I don't like the icky bloated feeling I used to have all the time. My DH didn't like my snoring that almost drove him to another room at night. I like the compliments I am getting and the sense of gratification and control I feel when I pass up some decadent treat that I "deserve".

These are just the feelings I go through daily as I struggle with the thought of cheating. I know everyone is different. I admire you for being able to go off program and being able to jump right back in it again. I know me. If I go off program it may be a long road back if I find my way back at all. You did ask for some encouragement to stay with this way of life we have chosen and I'm just trying to help. I hope the support and encouragement I need will be here from my WISH buddies if I feel a bit more daring than I should. My number #1 goal besides losing this weight is to do it cheat free - for me!

 

[bunnyfoo]

I'm not on Atkins but just wanted to offer my support I'm glad that your getting back OP ... just keep in mind all the progress you've made so far! I love the cornbread at WL too! When I ate there, I got the bottomless milkshake ... those are great as well

 

[hammertime]

I'm not on Atkins but I've been doing portion control on my own and WW(kind of).

I plan on going off diet somewhat when I go to WDW in 9 days.

What do hope to do is eat my breakfast, lunch and dinner normally. Be sure to say no when the tummy says I'm full. Stick to 1/2 sandwiches and so on. That way I can cheat on having stuff like Funnel cake. I never allow myself to have that anymore but I'm going to have some at WDW.

I think the hardest part of treating ourselves with bad for us food is that it's harder to say no when we come back to normal life.

I do want to add that as I've been working on my weight and diet for almost a year now. It gets easier and easier to make the healthy choice and say no to the bad(off limit) foods.

Way to go with loosing those 2 lbs!

 

[mrsltg]

Thanks everyone. I think that part of the ease in getting back OP for me comes from knowing how good I feel now. I've lost almost 30 pounds. Another 8 pounds and I will have lost what my DD weighs! I will have lost an entire 3 year old!

ZerasPride - Your trip is 6 months away. Focus on being "good" until then. Focus on how you will feel and how your clothes will fit. Allow yourself the occasional indulgence while on vacation. I'd be willing to bet that you will have shed a solid 50 pounds by then (at least). An ice cream or some other treat that you enjoy is ok in moderation (even if that moderation is only once a year or whatever you choose for your mark). I took a biscuit and gravy at breakfast one morning. It tasted terrible. It's amazing how your tastes change after months of eating right. You'll be fine, don't worry!

Thanks again!

Erin

 

[kasar]

Forgive me Wishers... I Have Sinned!

Say three Hail Mary's and eat some bacon. You will be absolved of all your sins.

Actually, just pick yourself up, dust yourself off and try, try again. You can do this!

 

[twotoohappy]

Hi Erin and I too am a WDW sinner. We came back Saturday and I've found it difficult to get back on track. I'm slowly getting there, but not gaining after my trip didn't give the push to take it off again. Honestly, I thought I would've gained ten pounds over the 2 week with what I ate. I did do it in proportions and stopped when I was full. (well except for the extra zebra dome or two from Boma's ....) oh well. Keep your chin up and exercise. I need to get back into walking and drinking water mode!!!!!
good luck

 

[catherine]

I also am a WDW sinner We got back on Tues from a 16 day trip. I must admit I had more or less decided that I was going to try and eat how I will want to eat when I get to my goal weight. So I allowed myself to eat food that I wouldn't normally eat. However I didn't do a lot of snacking, apart from the days when I was stuck at Old Key West when my eldest DD was ill and couldn't go out anywhere. That was really difficult for me.

When we got back I was determined that I was going to get back OP right away, because I knew from past experience if I didn't I would blow it, especially with Christmas being around the corner. I have decided to do the 100 day cheat free challenge again. It worked for me before we went on vacation, so I'm hoping it is going to work for me over Christmas. Good luck staying on your plan. I know that you can do it. Just take one day at a time, and soon you will feel like you never went off your plan.

 

[nativetxn]

You ate ice cream everyday and you <i>still</i> lost two pounds over your vacation??? WOW. Just think how much you would have lost if you hadn't eaten those bad carbs

You're back with us now and back on track and that's what is important. I'm glad you enjoyed your holiday. Now, focus on your goal, you're going to get there one day at a time and we're all going to help you

 

[ZerasPride]

Erin - thanks for the encouragement and vote of confidence. I've got onederland on my mind but I've got a long way to go. My target date is July 1. I know that's not too realistic but I want to see how close I come to it. The idea of being 50 pounds lighter by my trip makes me giddy with excitement. It's a nice thought. Thanks and let's both keep up the good work!