Sorry for such a weird title, but I didn't know how else to quite put it. I will preface this by saying that before I ever got thyroid cancer, I was always a bit concerned about my health. I wouldn't say I was a full-blown hypochondriac, but I certainly had a *touch* of it. Anyway, 11 years ago, I found out I had thyroid cancer. I've gone through all the treatments (3) and follow ups and, so far, I seem to be cancer free now. But the whole ordeal really took it's toll on me and the more that time passes, the worse I have become about medical visits and such. Today, I had a very small freak out. When I got to work this morning I had message on my work voice mail from my endocrinologist. Now *HE* never calls me--it is always his nurse. Logically, I knew why he was calling. Just a few weeks ago, I had phoned the drug company that administers a drug for my thyroid cancer scans. I feel I had an adverse reaction to it and I reported it. The company wanted my doctor's name. I knew this was why the doctor was calling me. But for some reason, I was scared to death. I was on pins and needles until 9:00 a.m. when I could call. When I did call, they had me on hold for 10 minutes waiting for him. My heart was pounding, I felt like I was going to faint, and my face got so flushed. As soon as the call was over, I was better. But, you know, I'm just angry with myself now. I hate overreacting to everything and I cannot control it. If something on my body hurts, I immediately worry that I've got some infection (strangely enough I do not worry about cancer). My finger has been hurting since I cleaned the turkey on Thanksgiving and I'm terrified I have an infection (I know I don't though). It's hard to explain. I've been to a therapist (or two or three) and I see a psychiatrist for general anxiety. None of these people seem to help. They want to blame my marriage, or my parents or whatever. I was just wondering if anyone else who has faced a serious illness gets out of control like this?