*ugh* Hi everyone:
Last Sunday I fell backwards about 2 feet down while trying to climb in to my DH's truck. I was taking it to work because we had a snow storm and had a couple of feet of snow on the ground.
While trying to break my fall I grabbed onto the weather stripping and ripped it out and broke off a few of my fingernails in the process.
I fell back and landed on my back and fortunately my head landed in some snow but I still was stunned for a moment and just laid there. After a moment I realized that I was basically OK and got up, climbed in to the truck, and went to work.
On Monday I started seeing a big blurry spot in my field of vision as well as random flashes of light way off to the right side of my periferal vision. By Monday night it was really freaking me out.
On Tuesday morning I called my doctors (rheumatologist and primary care) and they referred me to an ophthalmologist. I couldn't get an appt until Wednesday morning. I was freaking out, hoping that my retina wasn't detaching.
So the ophthalmologist gave me a very good exam, 3-4 sets of different eye drops, and told me that my retina looks ok for now, but that the "gel" had detached from the retina, at the back of my eye. He is having me see a retinal specialist next week.
So I didn't go to work Tuesday or Wednesday. Thursday is my regular night off. So now it's Friday and in a few minutes I will be getting dressed to go to work. I feel so crummy, but I have to go in because otherwise I would need a doctors note because it would be 3 days out. I guess I could get a note, but after being out for 3 weeks recently, I'm worried (again) about being fired.
My vision is still blurry and according to the doctor, it won't heal or go away. The new huge blurry floater will always be there now. I work for 6 hours straight, with one 15-minute break, on a computer, taking customer orders over the phone. I wish I could disappear right now.

I don't want to let work down, or my DH down, or myself down, but with everything else, and now this on top of it, I really feel like this life is just one big joke.
Oh, and on top of that, there's no food in the house because I haven't gone food shopping this week due to everything (fibro, eyes, IBS, etc), so now I'm going to work and not leaving anything for dinner.
Thanks for letting me vent here. I'm going to get dressed for work now. I just feel so defeated.