If Jude wasn't so sick, I don't think any of this would bother me. His illness is really a priority for me, and unfortunately "real estate" on either end has become an annoyance when a few weeks ago, it was fun. It was fun getting ready and looking. Now its a distraction. Jude isn't going to get better and I think once I get to the other side of this situation, I will be able to focus on the house. I am not anxious for that day to come however.