Final recap for Wednesday 3/17:
1. Meds & vitamins taken 17/17 100%
2. Water - 5 mugs 17/17 100%
3. Food - better than Tuesday but not cheat free 11/17 65%
4. Exercise - nope 15/17 88%
I used my last food cheat day yesterday. I'm OK with that - it seems like what I needed to do to get through the day. I also used one of my exercise free days, and I'm OK with that too.
Today is a new day and I WANT to be cheat free. I'm not feeling the cravings I felt yesterday - that's a good sign.
Goals:
1. Meds taken & vitamins are waiting for me to fill up my water mug.
2. Water - 1 mug down - gotta go get more.
3. Food - B was a protein bar (2g). I have no idea about food for the rest of the day. I've used up all my snacks at work and I have nothing planned for dinner.

This will be tough but I think I can make it through.
4. Exercise - none yet but I'm hoping to fit Pilates into my evening.
I have to run a big meeting at 9 AM - guess I'd better get my materials ready so I won't be around to journals until later. I'll feel much less stressed when it's finished. There's plenty of work to keep me busy this afternoon but the tasks are manageable and I'm not stressed thinking about them - a good sign.
Tonight, we have to take DD for her 6 month eye doctor visit that I forgot to schedule - it's been 9 months now and her contacts are so bad she's having trouble seeing out of them - major Mommy guilt on that one. I know better. The good news is that she'll get a new pair tonight - the bad news is that the insurance will only pay for one new pair a year and this isn't the pair, we'll be $350 poorer. I know you can't put a price on DD's sight and I'd go without food before I'd go without her contacts, but the strain on my checkbook is a bit stressful at the moment. All will work out in time - I've just gotta have faith and put it in God's hands where it belongs.
Also, we're supposed to get another 3-4 inches of snow tonight. Is Spring EVER gonna get here???
A better question right now might be - is TOM EVER gonna get here and take this dark PMS-induced cloud away??? A week from now I'll be able to take all these things in stride as part of a normal day but at the moment, in the d-zone, they all feel like heavy weights on my mind dragging me down.
Yesterday I started out feeling the same way, but finding messages from lots of my WISH buddies in my journal had me feeling better in a couple hours. I bet that will happen today too. I'll be feeling better in a few hours. The mornings seem to be the worst for me - anyone else find this to be true??
I'm off into the day! I can do this!

I've been through worse in my life and today actually holds some sunshine and smiles if I'm willing to look for them. I could wallow in this blue mood or I can choose to look for the joy. Happiness is a state of mind and I'm going in search of it!!

I think I'll picture myself in full Adventureland Jungle Cruise regalia, complete with hat and binoculars. I'm going walking through the jungle for an adventure to search out happiness, sunshine and joy!!
