Doreen's New Way of Life (comments are welcome)

[DoeWDW]

Desiree and married2grumpy, I guess I'll give DH a break. My 15yo DD went with me and SHE can tell the difference! I'll have to look to her for my encouragement!

Lisa, always nice to have you stop in and encourage me! I am walking on air today! Who knew a bra could have such an impact??

Marsha, I'm determined to try to find a happy balance on these journals! I refuse to give them up - they are my lifeline some days! But I also need to keep my priorities straight and handle my obligations in the real world too. We'll both find a way that works for us!

Amanda, I bought 5 new bras (so I can get through the work week without doing laundry!). You see, I could not bear to go to work "perky" one day and "saggy" the next day so I HAD to get 5, right?? I'm still trying to justify all the $$!

So far today:
1. Meds & vitamins taken.
2. Water - 12 oz. down.
3. Food - B was 4 slices bacon (0g) and some honeydew & cantaloupe (about 16g).
4. Exercise - none yet.

Things are looking up for my goals! At least I've started on them now. I'm not getting much done at work and I really must buckle down! I've finished the M journals through the R journals and will start on the Ss after I get some real work done. Oh, if only I could get paid to DIS!!!

EDIT: 1:15 PM
2. 24 oz water down - need 3 more mugs!
3. 16g + salad (12g) + peanuts (2g) = 30g

EDIT: 4:15 PM
Fell off the wagon and landed right in front of the EVM! Will I never learn?? I'm going to go home and make a lovely low carb dinner and not go off plan any more today!

Journals - I finished the Ws!

 

[Strings]

Doe,

If you can figre out how to get paid for Dising, let me know. Looks like you've got 30 gm for dinner. No problem. You've done a great job flying without a plan. I'm glad you are enjoying your purchases. Nice undergarments can be a real boost in more ways than one.

Have a good one.
Beth

 

[sharoncity]

Hi Doe! Just want to say getting caught up on your journal has certainly given me a little chuckle! New Bras can definitley give you a boost! Why do we always overlook stuff like that for ourselves?! oh well, you've got some nice new ones and I bet you are lookin FINE!
Glad to see how and positive you sound! Take each day and make it happen Doe! You are doing great!
TTFN-
Sharon
PS I know what you mean about getting to the journals, but we all know we are all in each others thoughts - no worries there!!

 

[lulu201]

Doreen, c'mon! You let that EVM woo you with it's evil charms???
Oh, that nasty thing. Now today, be sure to stick your tongue out at it and give it the raspberries, OK? OK????

and for your new day. I'll be getting back to you to talk about walks (and your Angel bill?! ), but now I've got to get to work. Make the most of today, Doreen, and be good to yourself. You know you're worth it--heck, you've got the Vicky's to prove it!

Love from your WISH-sis,
Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

I'm not sure what was up with yesterday. It all fell apart mid-afternoon and went downhill from there. I was tired. I'd been up late the night before with my daughter - usual bedtime is 9:30 but I was up until 1:30. I was exhausted when the alarm went off at 5:30, didn't get my exercise in, felt totally unprepared for the day. I tried my best until mid-afternoon and then just gave in to the tiredness and said "whatever!".

Final recap for Monday 3/29:
1. Meds & vitamins - yep 29/29 100%
2. Water - 60+ oz 29/29 100%
3. Food - ate plenty but not low-carb 19/29 66%
4. Exercise - none 26/29 90%

Last night, I had everyone in the house in bed at 9:30 PM! We all slept peacefully and soundly. I'm feeling better this morning.

Today:
1. Need to take meds & vitamins.
2. Need to drink 5 mugs of water.
3. Need to eat 60g carbs or less and NO peanut M&Ms!
4. Exercise - I did Pilates deluxe this morning!

The food will be a struggle again. I really need to get to the store - no more low carb stuff left in the house! I was just too tired to go last night. Tonight's the night!! I'll have to buy stuff at work. I need to make sure I get enough protein. Another problem yesterday was that I only had bacon & fruit for breakfast, peanuts for snack and a salad for lunch and with only a little protein in it, I was hungry by mid-afternoon. Today I'll make sure I get a burger or some other protein to help me avoid the EVM.

I must wrap this up and go find some healthy breakfast food!

EDIT: 9:30 AM
1. Meds & vitamins taken
2. Water - 1 mug down, 4 to go
3. Food - sausage patty (0g) not much of a selection in the cafeteria

 

[septbride2002]

Hi Doe! It is amazing how when we are tired we seem to fall off the wagon easier. I was there on Sunday - nothing kept me from being off program except that I was tired and just didn't care. No worries though - we will get through this as well.

Again I keep telling myself that although I want to keep the weight off I won't be able to avoid pizza and pasta forever. Once I start on maintence (sp?) I will occasionally have these treats. I'm glad that you are feeling better today and I know you will make good decisions. Keep up your amount of protein and fat so that your body doesn't start storing fat for you!



~Amanda

 

[DoeWDW]

"Accomplishing a goal is not as important as the person you become accomplishing it."
–– Neil Armstrong

Earlier today I posted the following in Erin's journal. I wanted to copy it here so I can remember it.

***
We focus so much on our goal. We yearn for it, we work long and tirelessly to attain it, we achieve it,.....and then what?? You're right, it's a part of all life's big events. I struggle with it to some extent after every Disney trip. In a way, I'm dreading the half marathon, because I know this same feeling will hit me.

But every time I worry about those feelings, I look at the alternative. If I never set any goals, if I never try, then what kind of a life would that be? Would I be happier? I know I wouldn't.

When I look back on my life, it is the big events I remember, the big achievements I'm proud of. I don't remember those feelings afterward. I think the time after is a time to regroup, to recharge and to search for the next goal, to come to terms with all you've achieved and the hard work it took to get there, to look at how you've changed and grown in the process.

That's what it's about, right? It isn't about the achievement as much as it's about how we've had to grow and stretch and challenge ourselves to attain it. We're better people, wiser and stronger, just because we set the goal and strived to achieve it. We can feel better about ourselves because we went the distance and didn't give up in the face of obstacles.

Oh my, now I've gotten all philosophical in your journal. Thanks, though, for the opportunity to reflect on what it means to set our goals and then work toward them. There are times when I wonder why I do it? Why not just live moment to moment and forget about this goal stuff that can be so hard! Now I think I see - it's not about the goal, it's about discovering a better me!
***

 

[Castillo Mom]

Hi Doreen! I had just had to come by and say hello and thanks for the wonderful comments you made on my journal. I'm trying really hard to hang in there. I've said it a million times before, but I'll say it again, it's ladies like you on this board that have helped me stay in the game. Thank you so much.

Your thoughts on reaching goals are what I've been thinking as well. Once I reach goal, what then? But you're right, life is all about always having something to reach out for, something new to attain. Very thought provoking subject you brought up!

Have a beautiful day Doreen!

 

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

I'm sorry that yesterday fell apart on you. I have found that I need protein in the AM, or I fall apart in the afternoon. Thanks for giving me something to think about. I have a long time before I have to worry about it though. I hope today goes better for you. You are a wise woman, Doe.

Beth

 

[LAinSEA]

than peanut m & m's in the EVM. (I keep oz. bags of almonds & macadamias in my purse all the time. I'd love them to be chocolate coated, but settle for something crunchie and salty. The pre-measured amount keeps me from going off the deep end on them too.)

You've been pretty busy with training (I know it's also work, but the real work doesn't stop just 'cause you're training) and family. I guess peanut m & m's are the least of your worries. Good for you for getting your pilates in before your day starts!

Your trip to VS reminded me that I need to get in there and get some new bras myself...I really want to try the newer, more supportive Body by Victoria ones. The regular Body ones are so comfortable and have lasted me longer than any other brand I've tried in the last 5 years.

Yeah for Spring! Get out in the nicer weather and do some real "training"!

-Laurie

 

[lulu201]

Doreen, and for your day. You're in my prayers as you embark on your Wednesday. Just do what you can do and remember to take the day in baby steps--one thing at a time--always moving forward and never moving back.

for my WISH-sis,
Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

Final recap for Tuesday 3/30:
1. Meds & vitamins - yep 30/30 100%
2. Water - didn't drink enough! 29/30 97%
3. Food - sausage patty (0g), peanuts (2g), protein bar (3g), 2 Dove dark chocolates (7g), Lean Cuisine meal (16g), sf jello w/ whipped cream (0g) = 28g total = cheat free for me!! 20/30 67%
4. Exercise - Pilates deluxe 27/30 90%

Well, I don't get to roll my bear - I didn't DRINK enough!

At least I did well with food yesterday! I kept remembering Lisa Z.'s concept that a cheat is not about eating the wrong foods, it's about breaking a promise to myself. This new concept has really struck a chord with me and cheating does not seem to have the appeal it did a day ago.

So far today:
1. Meds & vitamins taken.
2. Water - 1 mug down, 4 to go.
3. Food - 2 string cheese (2g).
4. Exercise - Pilates deluxe already done.

I'm well on my way today. Food - oh my!! I was just too tired to go to the store last night. At least I brought string cheese with me today. It will be another struggle but that's life, right?

I can't believe today is the last day of March! The monthly goals have really kept me on track more than I would have been and I'm grateful to Amanda for the idea. Now I'll have to set some new goals for April!

Meds & vitamins - what a great goal this has been! Because I have to write it in my journal daily, it ensures that I won't forget. My goal was 100% and I've achieved it! I'm keeping this goal because those meds & vitamins are very important 100% of the time.

Water - my goal was 60 oz a day 100% of the time. I almost made it! Yesterday I goofed & didn't get enough. However, just writing the goal every day is a great reminder to me. I'm going to keep this goal also!

Exercise - my goal was Pilates or a mile walk 25 out of 31 days, allowing myself 6 days off. I've managed to exercise 28 out of 31 days - 90%!! I'm really proud of myself for this one because it isn't always easy. Getting Pilates done first thing in the AM has been very helpful! I do want to set an exercise goal, but I think I'm going to have to raise the bar on this one somehow. I'll make it Pilates AND a mile walk (even if it's WATP!) or 15 minutes of aerobic exercise of some kind 25 out of 31 days.

Food - my goal was 60g carbs or less for 25 out of 31 days. If I'm cheat free today, I'll have 21 out of 31 days - about 68%. I'm rather disappointed in myself on this one. How do I expect to lose weight and be healthy by following the rules only 2/3 of the time? I think I'd better set the same goal and try to do better!

Four goals seem like enough! It looks like 3 goals will stay the same and my exercise goal will get bumped up a bit - as it should be! My weight has stayed the same over the course of March - maybe if I meet these goals, it'll go down a bit???

Enough for now - I must get some work done!

 

[Strings]

Wow Doe,

Way to analyze your goals! you've already prioritized for next month too. Now, about being dissappointed with yourself over eating. You did a great job. it seems to me that you are in maintainace. You maintained your weight for the month. That does not mean that you shouldn't strive to eat better for the month, but you shouldn't be so hard on yourself. You reached 3 out od four goals. That is amazing. You are doing a fabulous job, and continue to be one of my inspirations. Ok, rant over.

I know you will stay cheat free today. It is worked into your stats. I hope it is a peaceful, stressfree day. Stick out your tongue at EVM for me.

Beth

 

[septbride2002]

I had to laugh this morning as I was catching up on Erin's journal when I read your post. I am also in the middle of Interview with the Vampire! I read it in high school and I wanted to re read it now and see if it was as weird as I remembered. Pretty weird!

You did great on your goals. Look back and see what your percentage was for January and February - the important thing is that we increase our cheat free days every month. Remember sweetie nobody is perfect. I'm going to be doing some reassesing of goals as well.

I hope you get a chance to go to the store today and stock up on some low carb items! They are so important to have around so you are not tempted to eat bad stuff.

~Amanda

 

[marsh0013]

hey doreen! i must say, i'm super impressed with your commitment to your goals. just the fact that you consciously detailed out each one each day, whether or not you met it, is a step in the right direction. but you have done a wonderful job meeting most of your goals for the month! sure, you came in a little low on the food one, but amanda's right...check out how you've progressed from january and february, i'm thinking you had a better percentage this month.

how bout making a goal today of getting to the grocery store to stock up on cheat free food! i know you are in desperate need of some, you have to do this for you. you'll be much more likely to stay OP if you have your legal foods

hope everything goes well for you today

 

[DoeWDW]

Beth, I'll have to stick out my tongue at the EVM from far away - I'm not even ENTERING that room!!

Actually the 68% of good food days in March is about the same as my January stats. I don't think I kept track in February. At least I'm not getting worse!

Amanda, that book is STRANGE! I'm almost finished - 10 pages to go. The funny thing is that someone recommended it to my 16 yr old DS - not sure what he would make of it! He won't read it - he'd be bored within the first 20 pages and give up. I think I'm happy about that, although he's in 10th grade and you read it in high school.... I don't think he'd "get" a lot of it.

Marcia and Amanda, I will do my best to get to the store tonight. I've just been so darn tired in the evenings that it was a struggle just to stay awake, much less go to the store. You both are very right - I've got to have some low carb stuff easily available. On Sunday night, dinner was a bowl of Cap'n Crunch cereal! We DON'T want a repeat of that! Besides, the puppy is out of food - can't let her starve!

Goal update:
2. Water - 3 mugs down, working on #4!
3. Food - 2g + huge cheeseburger w/ mayo & mustard (3g). 5g so far today. Peanuts (2g) will be snack this afternoon around 3 PM so I'm not starving when I get home. Dinner will be something I pick up when I go to the grocery store!

 

[septbride2002]

I don't remember what I thought of it in high school. It was a very strange book for me to read - but then I did go on to read other books by Anne Rice that I really enjoyed. If you want a really weird book read The Witching Hour by Rice - it is LONG and very strange.

I was reading more adult books at a very young age though. I read "Flowers in the Attic" when I was 11 years old.

~Amanda

 

[DoeWDW]

Amanda, we've found something else we share!! I was quite a precocious reader too and read "Flowers in the Attic" sometime in my early teens.

2. Water - 4 mugs down, will drink more at home.
3. 5g + a peanut bar (26g) from the EVM. There were no peanuts!! I was NOT binging - I wanted to eat something before I headed home so I would not be starving. This truly was the lowest carb choice available to me. I'm at 31g for the day - still can make it cheat free!

 

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

I know you can do it. You've still got 29 carbs for the day. I liked the Witching Hour, but I didn't like the followup Lasher. Actually, there's a funny story about Anne Rice books. The year I started reading the Anne Rice books, my DM got me all she could come up with for christmas one year. Anne Rice also writes under a pseudonym. Under the other name, it's erotica. My DM got her 16yo daughter 4 erotica books for christmas. She was mortified when she found out 3 yrs later. She found out by starting to read the Sleeping Beauty. She didn't read the back cover. Did I mention that my Mom actually was in a convent to become a nun? She met my dad 1.5 yrs into it.

Have a good one
Beth

 

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

I know you can do it. You've still got 29 carbs for the day. I liked the Witching Hour, but I didn't like the followup Lasher. Actually, there's a funny story about Anne Rice books. The year I started reading the Anne Rice books, my DM got me all she could come up with for christmas one year. Anne Rice also writes under a pseudonym. Under the other name, it's erotica. My DM got her 16yo daughter 4 erotica books for christmas. She was mortified when she found out 3 yrs later. She found out by starting to read the Sleeping Beauty. She didn't read the back cover. Did I mention that my Mom actually was in a convent to become a nun? She met my dad 1.5 yrs into it.

Have a good one
Beth