Don't cross me

[Neapolitan Ice Cream]

I'm feeling crossed, bitter and damaged.
You know they say that your first relationship is the most intense?
That is so true.
I split up with my first girlfriend YEARS ago but it still smarts I won't go into detail, but suffice to say she ended it over phone with the words "I hate you".
I was still very much infatuated with her and it hurt. A lot.

Oh well.

One day I'll get over it. Just not today.

 

[Lilsia]

A few weeks ago, my HS boyfriend somehow found out my sister's phone number and texted her. He told her how I still hold a special place in his heart, yada yada. And this was just out of the blue. I have not seen or talked to him in 29 years. 29!!! I think that it is best to let things go.

 

[BrianL]

It's hard. I've never had much luck dataing, and only ever had one real relationship, though it was short lived and I found out that she basically lied to me about practically everything. It hurts, and while I don't dwell on it much, she is probably my least favorite person in existence.

 

[BlueStarryHat]

It can be really difficult to get over an intense breakup, I know. You'll be okay, Neo.

 

[Taxtherich12]

What? Maybe some therapy would help. It’s not healthy to hold onto hurt for that long

 

[LuvOrlando]

It's tough to look back through older eyes and see things properly, seems we tend to age our memories along with us which is unfair to our youthful selves and friends.

Next time you have a chat with someone that age pay attention to the lack of maturity and understanding, you'll get better perspective. This also helps when trying to forgive ourselves IMO.

 

[MrsCobraBubbles]

I'm sorry. It does hurt and it's hard to forget. Like the song says, love hurts. I think I only ever loved one of my exes, not the one I ended up married to either but that's a whole other story. My breakup with this ex was kind of a misunderstanding, by the time we figured out what happened, we were both already in relationships with other people but I still felt hurt about it for a while. It doesn't hurt anymore but to this day, 20 years later, I still think about it and wonder how my life would have turned out if that misunderstanding hadn't happened, he was talking marriage right before we broke up and if he had asked I would have said yes. I said yes to the next guy instead which, looking back, was the biggest mistake of my life.

 

[ronandannette]

It's tough to look back through older eyes and see things properly, seems we tend to age our memories along with us which is unfair to our youthful selves and friends.

Next time you have a chat with someone that age pay attention to the lack of maturity and understanding, you'll get better perspective. This also helps when trying to forgive ourselves IMO.

This is extremely wise. It wasn't until I raised my own child that I truly understood how vulnerable I myself was at each age-and-stage I watched him grow through. Those insights were extremely cathartic to me, regarding things I didn't even really realize I had processed unhealthily.