DISappearing Peeps...A fastpass to THIN! Part 3

[the Fidge]

I made 2 of the music Cd so if anyone wants one of them sned me a pm will be happy to mail it off to you!!!!

Love yas!!

BRigitte

 

[pigget74]

Now, I am asking you all a favor. Please do not change your opinion of Grumpy once you read this because he loves you all, and you love him. I dont want that relationship to change. We can co-habitate on this board.

Okay, here we go. You are all my friends and you are all so terrific and great at offering support and prayers. There are some changes being made in my life. Dan has decided that our relationship has changed enough over the years that it is time to move on. The most important thing to both of us is the well being of our children. This is not something that I want to happen, however I am slowly accepting the inevitable. You cant make someone love you that doesnt love you anymore.

love and support for all!

Thank you to all who have sent their well wishes during this difficult time. I appreciate those who have chosen not to take sides.

Not choosing sides, but sending to each. You guys will be in my prayers.

 

[denecarter]

I'm "off" a couple of days and now I feel like that commercial... "life comes at you fast". A lot has happened on here in a short amount of time.

Fidge... glad everything is starting to sort out. One thing I can't tolerate is bullies!

Bee & Grumpy... no sides here... for you and the girls.

 

[the Fidge]

Thank you once again. I felt so bad not sharing with you all what is going on in my life. Isnt it funny that even in typing on a board you can tell if someone is "down" or "up", when you know them well enough.

I am finding more support even in my "real" life than I knew I had. Funny how people think you are stronger than you ever give yourself credit for.

I am "trying" to look forward to the baby steps I am taking. It is hard not to dwell on the past. I am remembering the good times and crying over what was. It is a killer to talk to the man you loved who used to look at you with desire and have that special warmth in his voice that at one time was so wonderful to hear. Now, all I hear is a strained, hurt voice that is saying I am talking to you because I have to. Dont ever take for granted that hug, or sweet tap... or the words I love you. It is so sad when it goes missing.

The girls know. I am trying to be positive around them. It is not easy and I have failed. I have explained that they may overhear me say things that are hurtful. I ask them if they have ever said anything that they didnt mean and wish they hadnt said it afterwords. They of course said that yes they do that. I told them that I need to vent and cry and sometimes when I am talking on the phone they need to give me some space. However, my girls have a hard time with that concept so I have to be better. Mothers, you know that even a closed door on a bathroom doesnt usually mean much to your children.. (fathers sometimes also)

They really are good girls. I would NEVER hurt Dan and turn the girls against him. He is a GREAT father.

Alrighty then! Love all of you!!
B

Bee,

You are yours will be in my prayers daily!!! SOmetimes the best lessons we teach our children is how we go through any given situation. TO do things humanly with all our mistakes and regrets shows them they too are not going to do things perfectly and THAT IS OK!!!!!!

Please do not regret the fact that you are human and may have said and done things you are not delighted with. Could you imagine what would happen if your girls always saw you do things perfectly?? Then how can they ever be human?? The most important thing you are showing is relationships are hard. No matter if it be a mother and daughter two friends or a marriage.

How we deal with things is the hardest part, and I am so proud that you are not hiding behind it and it putting it out there. Way to go! The greatest achievements in my life have come from my greatest pains!

I love ya and you mean alot to us here.

 

[the Fidge]

Wen to Dr office this am they drew blood and did ekg, doctor said ekg looked great! I do worry in the back of my head as my family has had some loses of the women due to heart stuff, naturally they all were a bit on the haevy side so I assumed it factored in. Was tickled to see I am ticking good!!! Despite the recent insanity here.

Dene- you are included in my prayers.

 

[UtahMama]

Bee and Dan- everything they said...ditto!

AND (to inject a smidge of my humor in this "sitchiation")...

Divorce is great on the diet! When I went through my divorce, I lost SO much weight....200 pounds to be exact . Mine was a "good" divorce, and in the end it was such a relief. I did lose a bunch of weight, through loss of appetite and taking long thinking-walks! Take care of your health, guys!

Will it be weird if we still GUSH over you???? Because we WILL gush over your successes because we love each of you !!!!


God bless you in this time of growth and loss. Be good to yourselves no matter what. It'll be a while till the rollercoaster you're on smooths out.


We're here for ya both!!!!!! (cheaper than therapy, even!)

 

[dismom9761]

to both of you,Bee and Dan.Like UM said we are here for both of you for the good and notsogood stuff.

Way to go on the exercise Bee!!

I could use some prayers myself.I don't want to go into too much detail but I have been having some tummy trouble for the past few days and can't work.I was home yesterday and got sent home today.I have trouble sometimes because I had my gall bladder out last summer but usually only when I eat bad(fried,etc) foods.I can't prove that I don't have a stomach virus so here I am at home,which I can't really afford.Well I feel wiped out so I am going to nap.

 

[pigget74]

HELP---someone posted a while back about the new toll road exit or something like that. We drive through Ocala and Lake City then hit the toll road. I think is cuts like 30 min ffrom the drive---Anyonw have any idea what I am talking about. Thanks

 

[dragonfly18]

I have been out of the loop for a few days because I had to make a quick trip to Miami for work. All the way down there and I didn't even get to go to the beach!!!

I did think of Shula while I was there though, cause we stayed at the Don Shula Hotel and Golf Club...pretty cool.

Anyways, I am at work and only have minute, but I just wanted to send and lots of prayers to Grumpy and Bee. I know first hand what you are going through and I know it will be one of the most difficult things you ever go through. But God will get you through it. You are both wonderful people and I hope the best for both of you! We love you both and would never take sides. I wish you both the best!

 

[Disneyfreak92]

I made 2 of the music Cd so if anyone wants one of them sned me a pm will be happy to mail it off to you!!!!

Love yas!!

BRigitte

Hey, what was on that CD again Figdey-poo? I think I missed that!

 

[denecarter]

Dene- you are included in my prayers.

Oops! Didn't mean to give the impression that things were coming fast at me... I meant coming fast HERE. But thanks for the prayers anyway.

 

[the Fidge]

Dene - sorry I can't give the prayers back!!!

Lynda- Whip Appeal -Baby
The way you move- Outkast
Im every woman - Whitney Houston
its not right but its okay- Whitney Houston
Moulin Rouge - Pink and the others
Love DOn't cost a thing- J-Lo
Sexy Back- Justin Timberlake
Mombo# 5
Dontacha wish - The pussycat dolls
Switch - Will Smith
Toxic- Brtiney Spears
Waiting 4 tonight - J-Lo
Im a slave - Britney Spears
Its all 4 you - Janet Jackson
I'm Real - J-Lo and some guy watch it theres some prfanity in one liine by the guy I can't get it off there
I didn't mean to turn you on - Robert Palmer
Everybody wnats to rule the world - Tears for fears

 

[angelicswtnss]

Okay...here is the intro...I will edit and delete it later so it doesn't take up so much space...Help me decide if I should keep going. I have many more chapters done...but I need real feedback from my Peeps.

Thanks in advance.




Jessie walked past the oval stones that lay along the rivers edge. They called to her, encouraging her to pick one up. She immediately longed to run her fingertips gently across the surface of them. Slowly and purposely logging the transition of each divot as her eyes consumed the colors individually and then in speckled patterns.

Pink and black. Pink and black. Pink and black.

Pink and black. Ordinary colors. Colors seen on every newborn girl to leave a hospital and each black cat to grace a Halloween evening. Pink and black . So non-extraordinary that a person may not even notice their union.

Yet when paired…amazing. Effortlessly transforming an ordinary rock into a mystical gem. Monetarily no value may be given to this pink and black rock but to Jessie it was priceless. Together, they created the vision of cotton candy sprinkled with licorice. Of long ago days, where diners were bustling with ponytails, poodle skirts and leather jackets. Pink and black together was magic. It was the complete collusion of strong and soft, warm sunsets and cool winter mornings.

It was her eye for this contrast and internal compass that pulled her to these rocks and also to Ben.

Ben, who was so much her opposite and yet grew with her to higher peaks than she had ever thought they could achieve. Ben, who asked for so little and yet gave the world in his touch. Ben who would trace her lips out of passion and become instantaneously her protector…holding her into the evening as the darkness brought out her insecurities and fears. Ben, who brought her back to herself, after being lost her whole life.

Ben.

Just Ben.

Her Polaris. The first star that directs you into the night sky. Ben, who held his ground with her and held her to him when her instinct was to flee. Ben who would not give up on her, on him, on them.

Smiling softly to herself, Jessie stood up and gathered two speckled wonders into her pocket. She would place them in the dining room when she got home. The room they laughed in, dreamed in and believed in. The place they did not eat in, but instead cherished in.

Where meals became a journey each evening. Where food was not consumed for caloric value…but nourishment of their beings.

They would make their dinners together…laughing…giving value to each leaf of lettuce…every ounce of steak. Their nights were about each other and the vacations they longed to take. The conversation was not about world politics and debt that worried them…but about the places and beauty the world would soon give them. Their meals were another extension of their lives. They cherished the details in the steps to their destination.

That was the same if it was reveling in the deep purple of Eggplant Parmesan with Vodka penne or being mesmerized in the subtle hint of mesquite in the burgers they grilled. It was exactly the same in their walks around their tree lined neighborhood and the short skips up the steps of Versailles. Together they saw beauty. Nothing less would be accepted. Nothing more was desired.

Jessie continued her walk, watching the waves as they grew stronger, lapping further up the rocky shoreline. She realized the storm would hit her in a fury of rain if she did not hurry back to her car. She zipped the front of her beige windbreaker and began the jog back home. She loved this stretch. It always seemed to her that the 2 miles out to History Cove was so long. Her body did not resist the distance, but her mind protested each and every day, without fail.

Leaving her house meant leaving where she felt closest to him. Leaving the touch of cologne that still hung in the air in their bathroom.

She knew this because throughout the day she would find herself back in the master bathroom, regardless of where she had been previously in the house. She would just go in, close the door and sit on the bathtubs edge waiting. Waiting and listening to her shallow breaths…hoping that she would not miss him. Hoping he would return during a slow exhale, not a rapid inhale. So sure he would come back and she would hear the familiar call of his voice when he searched for her throughout their home.

He would have found her. She never had any doubt because he had found her 19 years before. Before they had met, before he knew she really existed ourtside of his visions. He had seen her and fallen in love with her before their lips ever touched, before their hands ever held one another and before their eyes ever lingered.

She had faith he would come home and find her because he had called out to her in her inner being for nineteen years. He had guided her throughout the rough times by simply believing in her. She never could put a finger on what always told her not to settle. What told her that she belonged to someone, to something.

She had felt the arms surrounding her in the evening hours when…plausibly…realistically…she was alone. It was in those alone moments that she knew…

Simply…

Completely…

Just knew.

Ben had been in her soul her entire existence. He had nudged her to become a better Jess. Prodded her from a place where time could not be measured. Ben had always just been there. Ben was who she had rationalized her dreams with when all her friends had gone to bed. Ben was her light. He was her warmth. He was her mirror. The one that says it will be okay…that age did not reduce her worth. He held himself up so she could see her true self. That her value was there, even when she only saw the wrinkles in the mirror or felt the thickness grow in her thighs. He had done all this without ever uttering a word. He did this through his presence that was larger than life, even before she spoke his name.

Across the world, if only she could have believed…there was Ben. Same thoughts, same word choices…looking for the other half he knew was missing from his whole being.

Ben had found her by wishing. Wishing for love. Wishing for romance. Wishing for a soul mate. Wishing for someone to love and for someone to love him back. He had wished so hard his sleep had always been restless. On many nights he lay not wanting to be alone and dreaming of nothing. But on three nights in particular, he was comforted.

Comforted by the hope of a better tomorrow than today. Comforted by a woman who would never stop loving him and continually give him the reassurance of his greatness. Who understood his compassion and longed to walk beside him…

Not in front…

Or behind.

Just with.

Ben tried to reach her in those dreams and bring her to his waking days. He wanted her to know that he was searching for her. That he would never give up finding her. That she was his and he was hers. That destiny would unite them. That he had faith too. If she would just hold on and hold out for him. If she could just guide him to her. He needed her light as well to get through his darkness.

What Ben did not know…

And Jessie could never have fathomed, was how they would unite. How a dream from 19 years before and an undeniable awareness of a presence, would come to fruition and change so many lives for the better. How a chance encounter would instantaneously alter thoughts, beliefs, vows and the very breath each tried to control. That a dream from the past would so clearly paint the picture of a future and give each of them a roadmap to a moment where they would be…

Could be…

Pink and black.

Not separate…

But together.

Pink and Black.

That is beautifully written. You are very talented and I can't wait to read more.

 

[lexmelinda]

HELP---someone posted a while back about the new toll road exit or something like that.

We went that way and I highly recommend it. Here's the low down that I grabbed off my trip report...

We are now in the Turnpike Time Warp….so close, yet so far. If you’ve driven to Disney World, you know of what I speak. It seems to take hours to drive down the turnpike but then we finally see the end in sight…State Road 429 to Tampa? Yes, it is apparently a new road that leads to Disney World on the west side of the property. (Thank you, Praying Colonel, for this advice.) Signs do not identify this as being a road that leads to Disney. If you need to use the bathroom or get gas or food, this road is not for you. It is deserted….we see only 4 or 5 cars max at any given time during the 14 mile drive to the Disney arches. Do people not know where this road goes or are they afraid it’s still unfinished? We get off the deserted exit and there, just a few hundred feet away, are the Disney arches. Now my little guy can’t read but apparently every child in the free world can identify the words “Walt Disney World” when they are written in that magical Disney script and DS is no exception. As we get closer, he points and yells “HEY, THAT’S DISNEY WORLD!!!!” His mouth is hanging open and he is in total shock. He can barely sit still. Mission accomplished.

 

[aldisneygrl]

HELP---someone posted a while back about the new toll road exit or something like that. We drive through Ocala and Lake City then hit the toll road. I think is cuts like 30 min ffrom the drive---Anyonw have any idea what I am talking about. Thanks

I know Melinda already told you that it is State Road 429, but get off at the exit labeled Disney World/Hartzog Rd. This will dead end right beside Coronado Springs. If you turn right you go to the All Star Resorts, if you turn left, you go towards the parks. BE CAREFUL WITH YOUR SPEED! There are many troopers who "scout" this road because it is so deserted. Like Melinda said, make sure you pee before getting on this road, or you will have to go in the grass because there aren't any trees or bushes on this road.

Now that the WPASADI polls are closed, I can tell you which entry was mine. It was #32, urDISNEY, it is on Poll #3 on the WPASADI Hangout on the CB. Hopefully you read that as YOUR DISNEY instead of ERDISNEY as my, trying to be humorous DH, pronounced it. PM me your feedback. I don't want to hijack this thread, but did want to know what you thought. Just got a bright idea...
here's the link .....http://www.disboards.com/showthread.php?t=1378200

 

[Wonders10]

Oh my Peeps! My Beloved Peeps! I was panicking this morning because my internet was not working and I had no idea why?!?! Then just now when I got home it still was not working. I needed my DIS fix for the day! So I restarted and voila! it worked! Thank goodness. I feel naked without my internet.

I have been out of the loop for a few days because I had to make a quick trip to Miami for work. All the way down there and I didn't even get to go to the beach!!!

I did think of Shula while I was there though, cause we stayed at the Don Shula Hotel and Golf Club...pretty cool.

Miami! You were practically in my backyard! Well if it took 45 minutes to get to my backyard . I've never even heard of Shula's hotel and I've lived here my whole life!

Ok, gonna go work on my Pre-trippie. Back later tonight!

ETA: This was my 300th Post! Wooo hoooty!

 

[jeriber]

Oh my Peeps! My Beloved Peeps! I was panicking this morning because my internet was not working and I had no idea why?!?! Then just now when I got home it still was not working. I needed my DIS fix for the day! So I restarted and voila! it worked! Thank goodness. I feel naked without my internet.



Miami! You were practically in my backyard! Well if it took 45 minutes to get to my backyard . I've never even heard of Shula's hotel and I've lived here my whole life!

Ok, gonna go work on my Pre-trippie. Back later tonight!

ETA: This was my 300th Post! Wooo hoooty!

WOOO HOOOTY on 300

 

[jeriber]

I, like you, was shocked to see the break-up of our marriage posted yesterday. Obviously not because I was unaware of it, but because we had not discussed how to approach such a private matter with mutual friends...even on the boards. I knew that at some point we would need to bring this to our friends here, however the choice of when and how was made without any communication.

Please keep our family in your prayers...we will need them as things get tougher before we, as a family get to the other side. I appreciate your respecting my privacy in this...I plan on not discussing this again here...I feel for myself there are other venues I can chose that will not make people feel one-sided because as fair as anyone tries to be...it is impossible not to get personal viewpoints involved...mine...hers or yours. I respect you all too much to do that and I hope you grant me that respect in-return.

I will continue to be a member of this thread and look forward to each of our successes...both with weight and in our lives.

I know this is a serious mattter and I am sorry for both of you but as I sat here reading it struck me as kind of funny-I pictured you sitting at the dining room table discussing "stuff" like "how should we tell the girls?" "how should we tell our families?" and "how should we tell our PEEPS?". Reminded me of when we had the discussion a couple of weeks ago about when we die will our DH or DW let the PEEPS know. It's just strange how we think of our online buddies as "family" too.

Prayers for all of you-I love you both

 

[DisneyJo]

Haven't posted for a few days as this thread moves so fast but when I read about bee and grumpy I just had to post a big to both of you. Thanks also to a few of you who wondered where I was and that really made me feel loved so thanks.

The whole school thing isn't easing up, I'm trying to get my appeal statements together. I've probably posted this before but my Rosachea has near enough gone and I can actually look in a mirror without cringing now.

Well it's 10.30pm here and half way through Desperate Housewifes so night night Does any one else find they can't go to bed straight from Dissing as their head just spins? Or is that just me?

 

[summersk]

Dismom9761 you are definately in my prayers may you tummy troubles leave you quickly.

Bee & Grumpy, No sides taken. I feel your pain, and I think that over all you both are such great people to make sure that no matter what you put your girls first!

Bee: I know how you feel about the weight gain, I am in the same boat, I haven't weighed this much for the past two years, and it's killing me emotionally on top of everything else because I am eating away the pain which is really just compounding the problem because then I feel guilty about what I am doing to myself so I am working HARD to correct the problem. I am still without a job, it's so hard to find someone with consistant hours b/c I do need to care for my beautiful girls also, but I have something in the works (I'll reveal if it pans out). Thoughts and prayers are with you. Keep On Slimming you Skinny Minnie!

Wonders10: LOL I know how you feel when the internets down, it's truely an addiction!

Fidge: Congrats on the good test results!