Pea-n-Me
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GAGWTA!
It is sometimes hard to imagine that while you're getting chemo, but it's true.
I also had to adjust my way of thinking about chemo. Everything I'd ever learned about chemo in school was how toxic it was. When I first became a nurse 20yrs ago, I actually gave it a few times in the middle of the night!!
(Today nurses have to be certified in order to give it, and that usually only occurs on oncology units, but once in a while we have a cardiac patient getting it and a certified chemo nurse actually has to come up to our unit for the day to give it 1:1 that patient for the day). I also care for patients with heart failure related to adriamycin, so when I found out I had to get it myself I could barely believe the irony. I thought for sure it was going to kill me, and clearly remember the day I signed the consents, I felt like I was signing my life away.
So yes, accepting it into my body required some fast changes in attitude, LOL.
At my cancer support center the wonderful nurse (and fellow sista) who runs it taught me to think about it in a different way. I learned to visualize a white, healing light around it as it was running into my veins. I thought about the work it was doing - fighting off runaway cancer cells - and willed it to do a good job. Instead of sitting there in a state of anxiety (which was not hard to do
), I forced myself to relax, and go in my mind to the top deck of Disney Wonder - I used all my senses to really put myself there. Well I just about worshipped the ground that that nurse walked on for teaching me that, because otherwise, I know for sure it would have been much more difficult for me. I hope you can learn to do the same, Micki. Think now about where you would like to "go" during treatment, and begin practicing at home and anytime scary thoughts enter your head. Practice at least 3 times a day whether you need it or not.
The social worker there also taught me that I needed to keep doing nice things for myself even when I was feeling badly. To embrace LIFE!
I was instructed to put down the cancer books and pick up some trashy magazines!
To wear my favorite color every day!
To drive with my favorite music blaring while singing along!
To buy myself some fresh, fragrant flowers!
To do some things I've always wanted to do!
You get the picture... I also found myself wanting to help others through it, so I spent lots of time thinking about how I was going to accomplish that once I got through it myself. I guess this is the part that becomes true when you hear that cancer changes your life for the better.
Well, just writing this has been therapeutic for me. It helps to be reminded of how important it is to not spend time worrying about everything. I think laurabelle said it best when she said something to the effect that she wasn't going to give cancer anymore than it's already taken away. ITA!!
Hang in there Micki and everyone else who is facing these challenges today!

Excellent point, Laura!laurabelle said:The biggest thing during chemo is getting enough rest. That's when healing takes place. So listen to your body and pamper it too!

I also had to adjust my way of thinking about chemo. Everything I'd ever learned about chemo in school was how toxic it was. When I first became a nurse 20yrs ago, I actually gave it a few times in the middle of the night!!



At my cancer support center the wonderful nurse (and fellow sista) who runs it taught me to think about it in a different way. I learned to visualize a white, healing light around it as it was running into my veins. I thought about the work it was doing - fighting off runaway cancer cells - and willed it to do a good job. Instead of sitting there in a state of anxiety (which was not hard to do


The social worker there also taught me that I needed to keep doing nice things for myself even when I was feeling badly. To embrace LIFE!










Well, just writing this has been therapeutic for me. It helps to be reminded of how important it is to not spend time worrying about everything. I think laurabelle said it best when she said something to the effect that she wasn't going to give cancer anymore than it's already taken away. ITA!!

Hang in there Micki and everyone else who is facing these challenges today!