Confused, not feeling like myself anymore.......

[Lotto]

I feel bad sharing this pathetic story here in the teen board but I was told by someone that maybe you guys would be able to relate better to it because you are around the same age as me.


I feel "empty", I don't feel "whole" as in I feel like theirs a piece missing out of me. Before I went to Disneyland Paris I was having the time of my life. I was playing the best tennis I have ever played, I was enjoying myself in school, having great fun with friends and cruising along nice and smoothly. Then something happened in DLRP, something that I talked about in this first thread I made in the community board:

http://www.disboards.com/showthread.php?t=1657887&referrerid=&highlight=will


Now, I know it sounds pathetic. Like seriously, this is a 16 Year Old Lad we're talking about, do these emotions really happen to people this age? I then thought I was over the whole thing and so posted this apology for everything wrong I did:

http://www.disboards.com/showthread.php?t=1665436


I finally thought that I was over this whole petty thing, but tonight I feel really lonely inside.....I have all of my family here, a great home, computers, games consoles, tv's, sky digital, tennis, football, whatever you can name. But, I feel like theres something missing inside me and whenever I get this "lonely" feeling inside me I straight away think of "her".

Honestly, I don't know whats wrong with me. Have I lost it and gone completely insane? Seriously? I don't know if I'm even sane anymore even though I feel the exact same way I've always felt except for this little thing. I don't know.

Has this ever happened to anybody else?

Any advice on what to do?

I would never tell anybody that I know personally this because it is just too embarassing and they would probably tell me to get a life and laugh. I really hope that this person hasn't found out about this whole thing because there are CM's on here and if she has that is just the tip of the iceberg of embrassment.

Thanks anyway,

Jono.

 

[BabyPiglet]

Uhmm...

I doubt you have any real feelings for her, she might've just made you realize how lonely you are. You can be surrounded by a ton of people but still be lonely. Material items (like video games) can't make up for that.

Good luck in life.

 

[Axel]

That's happened to me several times before and you just have to move on. I've spent a month (two weeks a year) with this girl that I had a crush on and she lived in Scotland. I haven't seen her since and I just got over her. I was head over heels every time I saw her. Then I didn't see her for a while and it went away. Same thing happened with my most recent ex-boyfriend. I liked him as a friend and we eventually ended up going out for a while and I was totally in love with him. I was ready to get married and have kids- the whole nine yards, and then suddenly I realized that I didn't actually like him, I was just lonely. So I broke up with him. and I've felt better since I got over him. Because now I hang around with my friends more and I feel wanted. It's a great feeling.

To sum up that rambling paragraph: Don't get hung up on just one person. You're young. You'll feel that way sometimes, but if you face the reality, you'll probably never see her again. Face that and then go out with your friends and have a good time. Who knows, maybe the one you're looking for is right in front of you.

 

[disneyworldluvr349]

You are not foolish at all. I am the same age as you and I am in love with Johnny Depp. I mean Belle and Johnny are not much different dreams. I mean yours might be attainable if you visit the park often so you can talk to her but it seems unlikely. You might be feeling lonely I mean tennis is an individual sport and video games is you and the T.V. Get out to the mall and get to know some girls your age and who don't dress up like Princesses GOOD LUCK

 

[Dr.Pluto]

i can relate to you story. i really have no idea why. for me it was because i was lonley. i have no sibligs ir family were i am. but for u it may be totally diffrent. if you keep felling like that pm me and i will try to help.

 

[Lotto]

I have become very anti-social lately. I haven't been going out with my friends or anything like that and I've been keeping to myself. I think the reason that I've been keeping to myself is that my friends will hold me back from reaching my goals and becoming a pro tennis player. I think that I'm too focused on one goal that I haven't been with my friends as much because I'm afraid that I won't make it if I'm with them and thats whats making me feel lonely. Maybe, it's not her at all, that she is just an "excuse"as to why I am really lonely but deep down inside I don't want to admit it. Some replies in this thread have helped me find the answer! It's like wow!

It's all me and nothing to do with her!

 

[disneyworldluvr349]

I am glad to see you got some advice from our comments

Once again,
GOOD LUCK

 

[crazytp93]

OK:

You have a lot of materialistic items, but seem to be missing that one thing, you can't really put a name to it, whatever it may be. The thing is you should just get out there: If you are of age, go to a club (idk!?) or go to the mall, go to myspace see if you can meet anybody ( I dont personally reccomend it.)

Sorry I can't really help, but I have a hard time relating to this. I can a little bit, but not majorly like some others.

Good luck...

 

[STOPxmickeytime]

I agree with what everyone on here says,
Basically you just have to put yourself out there.
If your friends are REAL friends, they won't hold you back from your dreams.

I have days where I don't feel like hanging out with people, but I go out anyway, and I always end up having a good time.

And no worries. Being a teenager kind of guarantees your gonna get hung up on someone with no realistic means of ever getting together with them.
(For me, it's Nick Jonas :])

 

[GirlWithSpunk]

I'm sorry, but I dont that you truly really love her.
Maybe its something about her looks that you liked but thats probably it.
You dont even know the girl or her name.
If you do meet her and you guys don't get along or have anything in common, what then?

Well, good luck and just get focused again about what you want to do with your life, like playing tennis which you said is your life dream.

 

[3mtn-kate]

I have become very anti-social lately. I haven't been going out with my friends or anything like that and I've been keeping to myself. I think the reason that I've been keeping to myself is that my friends will hold me back from reaching my goals and becoming a pro tennis player. I think that I'm too focused on one goal that I haven't been with my friends as much because I'm afraid that I won't make it if I'm with them and thats whats making me feel lonely. Maybe, it's not her at all, that she is just an "excuse"as to why I am really lonely but deep down inside I don't want to admit it. Some replies in this thread have helped me find the answer! It's like wow!

It's all me and nothing to do with her!

That happens to me a lot.


It's good that you realize that. I totally get how it feels when you feel like there is one person that you can't let go of that is holding you back from being happy again. And it takes a lot to let them go and finally learn to make your own happiness and not depend on others to keep you happy, it's not their job. I believe that, as with luck, you make your own happiness in this world. Only you knows what makes you truly happy!

I hope you're on the road to finding true happiness again!

 

[Dr.Pluto]

well i hope that i helped in some way lol