confessions.

[StitchfansJr]

I confess that I love line dancing
I confess that I want any accent

 

[EeyoreFan1]

I confess that I've never done any kind of illegal drug, and that I don't ever plan on doing any illegal drugs. Ever.

 

[DramaQueen]

I confess that I should be writing my philosophy essay right now considering i have to work tonight from 5:30 till 11!!!!

 

[tigger/winnie/tink]

i confess that i watch elmos world

 

[tigger/winnie/tink]

I confess that I've never done any kind of illegal drug, and that I don't ever plan on doing any illegal drugs. Ever.

me too

 

[ktbutterfly2011]

I confess that I should tell him about the letter.

 

[marypops!]

i confess i don't know my shoe size... i mean in crocs i'm size 11, in trainers i'm size 9 and in school shoes i'm size 7 so i don't know what to believe...

 

[Ampris]

I confess that watching people french kiss makes me... i dunno. It's so romantic.
I confess that I can't wait until my first kiss as long as its with somone I love.

It's odd, but for some reason I really dislike kissing. Aside from married family members and the scarce few fictional couples I like, it just seems weird. And when people do it on TV and movies and such it really makes me feel uncomfortable. I like your sig though, and I confess that I can read it without turning my head or anything because I practice writing upside-down and backwards all the time, usually on my schoolwork (ahaha. )

I'm also a chronic doodler. Not a single page in my math book has been left unscathed. On the subject of math, I suck at it. Completely and utterly. I could try and try for the rest of my life, but I just can't make myself think the right way. I just can't.

I truly hate my attitude and personality, mostly my personality for being so stupid. It's like this: the majority of the time I'm either depressed and sullen, angry and irritable, happy and content, or some degree of optimistic; any given one of those, and oftentimes in sequence. For instance, the slightest thing will make me depressed, weepy, and apathetic, which in turn makes me furious at myself for being an ungrateful jerk who has a great life with no real reason to complain. I then attempt to smother the anger with optimism, which leads back eventually to being happy and content, but then that leads me to think, 'why should I be happy? I haven't done anything to deserve this' and depresses me again.

Sometimes I'll bang my head against or throw myself at the wall just to loose some emotion, since I'm quite bad at communication in general and communicating emotion in particular.

I'm very shy and reserved in the presence of any other humans, but whenever I'm alone, I like to believe that I'm an extrovert and will dance around and act out and make quick-paced banter or drawn out conversations with myself.

I'm very immature and love acting as such. Toys are still and always will be cool in my eyes.

Most of the time I feel out of place on forums because it seems that everyone already has their close friends and their favorite threads and inside jokes and nothing I like is considered 'cool' or 'un-cool' (as in, the opposite of liking conventional mainstream cool things and specifcally liking off-beat things to not conform (and sadly often ending up coming off as elitist.) and I don't fit in anywhere. But it's all unintentional, I guess.

(Note that this is mostly directed at SPPF. Their shipping section makes me sad. =( )

I have an overwhelming urge to treat all my pokemon fairly and as individuals with thoughts and feelings, though I've been repeatedly told that this is ignorant and unnecessary.

I tend to cry at nothing, yet despise being seen crying.

I've always had trouble sleeping, and so far the only things that help me sleep are rapidly thinking nonsensical streams of random thoughts or reading in bed. I also make up stories. These tend to be the mental equivalent of fan-fic more often than completely original stories, and can stretch on for as long as I need. At one point when I was younger, I was so utterly lonely and completely bored with life, and these stories eventually became my favourite part of the day. It was just innocent escapism, I thought. Because I have cravings for really strong emotion, they were always ansgty, heavy, often perverse, and threw the characters into all sorts of unlikely and dangerous positions just for the extra emotion (and these were based on shows like Chip n' Dale Rescue Rangers, Buzz Lightyear of Star Command, and Star Wars). They were only to entertain myself, but eventually I wound up liking them so much that I found myself detesting the daytime, moping around all day, only waiting for the night to come again so I go to bed and back into the story.

And I've never told that to anyone before.

I've read fan-fiction with ratings higher than I'm allowed, and though I make sure to skip over any bits that seem deserving of the rating or back off the page or skip if it's *really* bad, I feel terrified that someone will find out.

Kind of related to that last one, I'm terribly squeamish, even when it's just words. Even in fiction, blood makes me squick, senseless death makes me depressed, and sex makes me ill. (To say nothing of how I feel about it real life. )

I feel terrible that there's so much sickness and so many health issues and all those lives that could be saved if they could only get the proper care, but I'm too cowardly and squeamish to ever become a doctor. Even the thought of blood and knives gives me goosebumps, and I'm one-hundred percent sure that I could never, ever handle death. And yet I still want so badly to help people suffering. I just can't stand it; I feel so depressed and guilty every time I see my neighbor who suffers from nearly every imaginable ailment that can happen to the elderly and is clearly in perpetual pain and I can't do a thing about it- it just doesn't seem fair. It's not fair that he should work all his life and serve in the army and contribute so much to his family and other people and survive through so much and then have to live in pain and shell out insane amounts of money just to stay alive. It isn't right.

I hate my legs and teeth. HATE THEM.

When I was first introduced to the idea of homosexuality, after initially finding out on my own and not caring, I was unfortunately fed some ideas that were clearly close-minded and uncaring, but I was still impressionable and bought into them. For a while, and I am truly ashamed to say this, but I held some very ignorant views on the subject. Thankfully, I was able to find out more information and make up my own mind, but it still makes me feel bad thinking back on it.

I was such a stupid kid before the age of maybe thirteen and a half that I've been trying to block memories of the embarrassing things I did and said.

I'm a messy, unorganized, and not at all concerned with cleanliness beyond the basics, and yet I still have these spontaneous OCD moments when rugs are off-center, bowls aren't stacked right, pencils aren't aligned, or anything like that that I absolutely have to fix or else.

In the same vein, I have a lot of really weird habits- fixations, maybe. I always shower in the exact same way, brush my teeth the exact same way, I have a strict hand-washing regimen that must be followed or I feel weird for the whole hour afterward, I always use the same chair at the dining room table and have my favourite spot in the living room that has basically become "My Spot" (Both have in fact been consciously associated with me sitting in them by my family, and now it's just considered to be like another fixture, like the sofa being against the wall.)

Star Trek is my opiate of choice.

Hmm. That felt pretty good. I might have to think of more later. And can I mention that I really love having this board to just let out my feelings with? Because in all honesty there isn't a snowball's chance in Hell of my ever saying ANY of this in real life. Except that every time I read the title I get "Confessions part III" stuck in my head.

 

[Cookies.]

I view crying as a form of weakness. I only cry in front of maybe three people.

 

[ktbutterfly2011]

I confess that I cry. Too much. And I can't help it. I hate it when I cry infront of teachers but I do.
I confess that i'm very sloppy, but I do have OCD moments.

 

[Raichu]

I confess that I've never done any kind of illegal drug, and that I don't ever plan on doing any illegal drugs. Ever.

x2
outta most of my friends from school I'm like the only straightedge apart from like three others.

 

[ktbutterfly2011]

I confess i'm a straight edge. No cigs,drinks or drugs for me.
I confess I take pride in the fact that i'm a straight edge.
I confess that I think lower of my friends that aren't straight edges than the ones that are.

 

[Raichu]

I confess I stopped going to the mall with my friend because she only goes to meet up with people to go to the woods to smoke and I don't want to go so I'd just be left there alone...

 

[BabyPiglet]

Ok be prepared I have many many confessions.

I confess that I worry WAY to much about my grades.

I confess that I am afraid to drive a car.

I confess that I could have gotten my drivers permit almost TWO, yes TWO years ago.

I confess that I like to bottle up my feelings and don't express those feelings especially if they are about problems going on in my life or in my family, I have real issues sharing that and communicating.

I confess that because of keeping my feelings to myself there was a time in my life that i don't think i would have gotten through without my best friend in the entire world.

I confess that my best friend lives across the country.

I confess that she is my true best friend no matter what my 'friends' think because she is the only person who really 'gets' who I am.

I confess that i dance to my ipod in the middle of stores, which in result gets strange looks my way.

I confess that I am very obssessed with anything Kelly Clarkson.

I confess that there are things about some of my 'friends' that really annoy me.

I confess that I really hate going out with friends on friday or saturday night. I would much rather be at home with my family or have my close family friend come over and hang out, do things that I 'really' like to do.

I confess that I am a shop-aholic.

Last but not least.. I confess that I hate when people bug me to do something when I tell them over and over that I DO NOT want to do that, I don't like being pushed around. I might be a really shy person, but if your going to push me around your going to have issues. Grr.

Ok I feel free now.. Yay Sorry I confessed alot. Yet, I warned you.

One of my best friend lives all the way around the US also.

Just felt that needed to be said.

I really like this thread!!
I don't havetime to read all the posts right now but I for sure will when i get home from school.


here are a few confessions from me;

i listen to the TITANIC soundtrack very morning when I'm straightening my hair....and sometimes I cry but i have to stop it when I put on my makeup, because I don't want it to run

when i'm bored i go up in my room and find something to cry about
just because i really like being dramatic. and if there is nothing to cry about...i'll make something up.

i'm a bit of a "party-girl"
i drink more than i should
i've smoked on a few occasions, but i've never actually inhaled...
i only do it at parties...just because
i've actually managed to resist the temptation of smoking pot....even thought EVERY SINGLE ONE of my friends has done it (even the little innocent looking ones!)

When I go on acting auditions (like for plays or for my university or whatever) I carry a picture of Kate Winslet in my back pocket

Never would have guessed.

Agree with you there...it made me feel sick...ugh...

More confessions!

I've been drunk a few times...
I've smoked a bit...of stuff...
Done some cheatin...caused other people to cheat on their significant other

no more confessions for now!

Interesting.

I've never smoked (anything), and I've never drank alcohol.

But, I did accidentally get high by eating nutmeg once. (don't try this. trust me.)

Nice little story. :]

You're going to hate me when you're done reading this.
You all know I'm spoiled.
I use it to my advantage.
I can manipulate adults to give me what I want. But I don't do that too often.
I'm very self centered.
I've been craving attention since about February. (I'm trying to stop. lmao)
People compliment me a lot, and I don't like to come off as snobby, so I say, "OMG NO IM NOT!" Just to make myself feel better.
I've been (unsuccessfully) trying to weigh 100 pounds, since February.
I've ended up slitting my thumb before, on purpose. I was fed up with stuff that was going on. I didn't want people to think I've cut my wrists, when I haven't.
I'm stubborn, impacient, and VERY short tempered. I've lsot friends because of it. Good for them. I got mad at them for a reason.

Oh Jaimie, I could never hate you. I have to say I'm the same with most of those things.

I'm confessing that I've lied on these boards. Once.

most of you probably remember me writing about cutting myself. In that post, I made it out that I'd only cut once. But I hadn't. I recently just told a girl on these boards and then the closest person in the world to me. I cut myself a lot, in more places than my wrists.

I felt so guilty after writing that post, becuase I felt like I lied to everyone. Its taken me until now to be able to say this. No one knew.

It feels so great to get this off my chest. I never told anyone up until today.

*hugs*

i confess i live for attention(you can't always tell)
i confess that i can hand it out but i'm not always able to take it.

i confess i confess way too much.

i confess i ate dog biscuits when i was 3 and they made me sick.

I think you're being a little to modest again.

...I confess I read this thread to make me feel better about myself...

*nods* I also read this thread because it makes me feel better that other people on here have secrets too.

-I celebrated 4/20 for the first time this year.
-I had my first cigarette when I was 9.
-I had my first beer when I was 11.
-I'm flunking Biology.

Awee.

I love that song. I love that movie.

I confess:
I say I hate giving advice. Well, I don't. I hate seeing the people who seek advice at their 'rock bottom.'

I can't stand it when people are upset. It makes me upset.

I love getting advice from you Jaimie. It helps me tons. GAH. I hope I don't make you too upset. :'[

I read through most of the posts on thsi board and
I confess....I love reading everyone's confessions.
I confess that I love reading that everyone else has secrets like me.

I love confessing on this board, because well...you guys are my friends...and I can confess without being judges (hopefully!)


I confess that I think I know everything there is to know about romance/love/boys.
I probably don't.

I confess that I faked fainting once to get out of work
(it worked really well...and everytime I don't feel like working I have the urge to do it again)

I confess that I have a slight eating disorder....but it's over-eating rather than anorexia or bulemia.
I can't help myself when I am near food...I eat it.
I confess I'm not as fat as I should be (somehow!)

I confess that I am...rather promiscuous
I confess that for some reason it was hard to confess that!
I confess that I think you guys will think less of me now

Never would have guessed.



I confess that I'm in the middle of a mental breakdown right now. So bear with me please.

I confess that my mom trusts me way to much. If she'd even bother to check my text's or PM's she'd realize I'm still pretty screwed up.

 

[Tinky89]

I confess that whenever I see a bug in my house I scream so loud it could wake the dead

 

[yoyo93]

I confess: I will never know how i have a strong american accent because i have grown up with it my whole life so it dosn't even sound like an accent :/
I confess: sometimes I just want to lock my self in my room and scream as loud as i can, just stay on the computer all day and ignore everything real.
I confess: Sometimes i think im a sim! :O OH SNAP

 

[coolshannie]

One of my best friend lives all the way around the US also.

Just felt that needed to be said.

Never would have guessed.

Interesting.

Nice little story. :]

Oh Jaimie, I could never hate you. I have to say I'm the same with most of those things.

*hugs*

I think you're being a little to modest again.

*nods* I also read this thread because it makes me feel better that other people on here have secrets too.

Awee.

I love getting advice from you Jaimie. It helps me tons. GAH. I hope I don't make you too upset. :'[


Never would have guessed.



I confess that I'm in the middle of a mental breakdown right now. So bear with me please.

I confess that my mom trusts me way to much. If she'd even bother to check my text's or PM's she'd realize I'm still pretty screwed up.

I think my paren'ts would see that in me if they did that as well.. =/ -Hugs- Eat some ice cream or some chocolate, that always makes me feel better when I am having a breakdown.


I confess:

I miss my best friend a lot. I really need her right now.

I miss Macplink who is a member of the disboards who had become like a big sister to me. I really looked up to her. She has disappeared off the face of the planet.

Somethings been on my mind all day.. I really care about someone ive never met. And I shouldn't care about this person in that way. This is bad. My parents say I am naive (sp?) So what if I am being Naive? What if this person is some predetor? (sp?) I was just going through my friends on yahoo and when I saw this person's name I just got this feeling. This person hasn't been on in a month. Everytime he does get on I get a bubbly feeling.. This is bad. I know better then to have feelings towards someone ive never met face to face. Yet I can't seem to help it. I think im going to go crazy. ( No I didn't meet him on myspace or anything like that.. then I would know its bad..) =/


I miss my friends.. not my school friends... my three friends above.

Those people have been there when my school friends haven't.

 

[BabyPiglet]

I have a best friend who I've never met face to face.

You don't understand. Icecream and Chocolate will make everything worse.

:] Nothing is going to help me, I'm already lost.

 

[TOT_Princess_412]

I confess that all my friends think I am crazy because I love Disney so much

I confess that my friends think it is wierd that I talk to people that " I dont know" online

I confess that I obsess over things way too much

I confess that I scream for my dad whenever I see a bug

I confess that I am spoiled

I confess that I love High School Musical and Hannah Montana

I confess that when it comes to important decisions and I cant decide I usually do "eeny meeny miny moe catch a tiger by the toe"

 

[TOT_Princess_412]

I also confess that I should be studying for finals right now than dising.