Glad to hear that you're doing better...and at least keeping your head above the quicksand. And I have to agree with some of the posters suggesting finding a job you like or doing something to help make you feel good. I am actually finishing up my MSW, and do therapy for children and families exposed to and/or victimized by violence. Before this placement, I worked in a domestic violence shelter daycare and I cannot tell you how valuable those experiences were for me. Not only do I feel like I have contributed to the community and to those struggling with terrible situations, but it also has helped me to put my own problems in perspective, and to realize that while things may be bad, there is always a silver lining. So I would like to add the recommendation of looking into volunteering for some cause that you feel strongly about. The community could use your help, you'll feel so good about the contributions you have made, and you'll hopefully gain a new and more positive outlook on life. Also, I'd like to also agree that you consider counseling as an option. While I may be a bit biased (being a therapist-in-training), I think that it could be a valuable resource for you. Good luck, and know that you have a great deal of support in your life, although you may not realize it all the time!