Now that's one thing I'ld love to have happen.
Hun, play with it. You can turn it around and humor can make that easier. Give folks something to look at. Play with the stares you get. A comment? Play with it. You're not going to chance what others think or see, but can greatly influence how you yourself experience something. What you take away from it.
For instance when somebody starts the "grumble, not fair why do they get to board the bus first, faker"-thing at the bus stop they might very well find me playing with that. I'll feed the "troll-opinion" so to say. Act as if I am indeed a faker and take it soooooooo overboard it gives me (and if around, those in my party) a good laugh. I've seen quite a few smiles from others in the line. I make things so over the top it's obvious it's me playing with things. A few times the "grumbling" person sees what might be a clearer picture. Other times they go "see, there's my proof". Which just makes me laugh harder and see how far I can take it before they don't buy it anymore. Sometimes you can take it beyond believe so far.
End of such an episode? The person will think/see whatever they see fit. And I had a great good laugh. And laughs always slight off your back easier than taking a comment personal and thus easily feeling "attacked" as a person.
Really? Wow, that surprises me that you feel that way. I've had a severe depression years ago and honestly? I find the selfconsiousness a walk in the park compared to that. Including when I'm having a bad day and thus have a perfect radar for any possible comment, look or tought and take those all personal.
Maybe the therapist can find some ways of tackling that selfconciousness down some levels? As you already said yourself; you'll have to deal with "outstanding" things your whole life. Wouldn't it make it so much easier if you can tackle the awareness somewhat. Such a shame if a person is so influenced about what other (might) say, do or think. Those folks walk away and be done with it, but for you it sticks. Wouldn't it be great if you'ld one day find yourself thinking "hmm, by now the never ending battle with depressions always lurking around the corner is the worst battle in my life". Not that it's great to battle lurking depression at all, but it always just pains me whenever anybody is so hurt and/or influenced because of how they are seen/talked about/etc by "society".
But really, always remember that people will always think something. Even about that "perfect" person. It has nothing to do with YOU, nothing about Ppony. Nothing more or less than them thinking. (just like we also do
) If I have a bad day and start to take things personal and get a bad mood because of that, I remember the "it's not personal". It's not about me, but about them. That's so much easier to let go. You are who you are. That's it and that's OK. If you want to chance things; great for you. But don't ever think you need to because of others. You are OK as you are, including all of you. The good, the bad and the ugly. We all have them. And that's OK. Be who you are. That's enough.
In the parks I would have my KTTW in between the folded GAC. I had the most important info (stamps, name, number in party etc.) on the outside of that fold. Didn't end up doing many rides or using the GAC much but about 50-50 if the CM's wanted the GAC out or not. Which is also easy enough when folded.
But really; use the lanyard if that is what works for you. With a lanyard you can store a GAC both visable and invisable. You can be aware of it or inaware. Whatever works for you.
That was wonderfully worded and caring. I'd do WDW with you any day. 
that's why I don't tend to look at other people. Or one reason anyway. 
