EmmaAndQuinnsMommy
We miss Disney!
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Well, I have never done a journal of ANY kind before, so this is very new to me! Basically I have been psyching myself up for this for awhile now. I lost a bunch of weight a couple of years ago and was fine, doing what I was supposed to be doing as far as excercise and then we bought a house last year and all my attention went to that. I was okay last summer because we had a LOT of hard work inside and in the yard to do so I was still getting plenty of excercise. However, once fall arrived, and then Christmas came ... well, I won't weigh myself, but I know I am about 15 lbs. over what I should be. Twice since Christmas I have excercised a couple days in a row and then stopped. I am determined to stick with it now though. I just did 26 minutes on the Gazelle and then measured my body and scarily WROTE IT DOWN!!!!
The problem is that this weight thing has a HUGE affect on me. I don't know why, but it causes a severely over the top reaction in me and I get very depressed, etc. I know Dr. Phil always says that your self-worth should not be linked to your self-esteem but for me that is something I struggle with. I am a really great person, but I HATE it when I feel like this. I have always been a big girl. I am very tall (5'11") so there is no chance of me being a pixie, but when I am heavy I just get so depressed about it. It seeps into other areas of my life which are happy and should not be affected. I beat myself up about it constantly.
As far as my eating habits - not stellar - but not the worst either. I don't eat meat, but I do eat plenty of pasta and cheese. If I didn't, I wouldn't eat at all. I do eat plenty of fruits and veggies - love love salad, broccoli, etc. Also love bread, though. I like cookies. I trick myself into eating ones that have 0.5 sat. fat and I pretend it is fine to have 2 at a time that way. Have a bad habit of needing to eat a cookie after dinner. I get extremely hypoglycemic at times and I ALWAYS have to make sure that I have a snack in between meals or I shake and get dizzy, etc. Have had this issue for a long time. I try and eat nuts or granola bars for snacks. I am trying to alter my portion sizes right now.
I know that my number one thing is that I need to excercise and if I would just stick with it I would probably be fine and lose some weight so I am trying to make myself have some accountability here. Maybe if I have to talk about it then I will be good about it. I used to excercise 4-5 times a week, a 35 min. dvd so it isn't like I can't do it! The Gazelle seems good too though because I can record and then watch Dr. Phil and it went by really fast!
Our Disney trip is only about 2 months away and I don't want to be unhappy about this there - I want to fit into my normal clothes and not freak out about being in the pictures. I want to eat normally there and not feel guilty too! I don't know what I can accomplish in 2 months.
I am terrified to weigh myself. Want to know a terrible secret? I am 3 months late for my annual because I don't want to go to the doctor because I know they will weigh me and I can't deal with it. Isn't that the most nutty thing ever?
Okay, consider my guts spilled. =)
Carrie
The problem is that this weight thing has a HUGE affect on me. I don't know why, but it causes a severely over the top reaction in me and I get very depressed, etc. I know Dr. Phil always says that your self-worth should not be linked to your self-esteem but for me that is something I struggle with. I am a really great person, but I HATE it when I feel like this. I have always been a big girl. I am very tall (5'11") so there is no chance of me being a pixie, but when I am heavy I just get so depressed about it. It seeps into other areas of my life which are happy and should not be affected. I beat myself up about it constantly.
As far as my eating habits - not stellar - but not the worst either. I don't eat meat, but I do eat plenty of pasta and cheese. If I didn't, I wouldn't eat at all. I do eat plenty of fruits and veggies - love love salad, broccoli, etc. Also love bread, though. I like cookies. I trick myself into eating ones that have 0.5 sat. fat and I pretend it is fine to have 2 at a time that way. Have a bad habit of needing to eat a cookie after dinner. I get extremely hypoglycemic at times and I ALWAYS have to make sure that I have a snack in between meals or I shake and get dizzy, etc. Have had this issue for a long time. I try and eat nuts or granola bars for snacks. I am trying to alter my portion sizes right now.
I know that my number one thing is that I need to excercise and if I would just stick with it I would probably be fine and lose some weight so I am trying to make myself have some accountability here. Maybe if I have to talk about it then I will be good about it. I used to excercise 4-5 times a week, a 35 min. dvd so it isn't like I can't do it! The Gazelle seems good too though because I can record and then watch Dr. Phil and it went by really fast!
Our Disney trip is only about 2 months away and I don't want to be unhappy about this there - I want to fit into my normal clothes and not freak out about being in the pictures. I want to eat normally there and not feel guilty too! I don't know what I can accomplish in 2 months.
I am terrified to weigh myself. Want to know a terrible secret? I am 3 months late for my annual because I don't want to go to the doctor because I know they will weigh me and I can't deal with it. Isn't that the most nutty thing ever?
Okay, consider my guts spilled. =)
Carrie
It looks like you are on the right track. You can do it! 
Actually I appreciate that you rememberred it and asked me about it.
I know, it's psychological, but it works for me! 
