I'm also struggling with some guilt, I didn't go for my birthday this year but plan to next year. My son no longer wants to travel with me but I think I can do a short Disney trip without worry on my own. So I am planning to leave him home for 3 nights and go to my happy place. Mind you I will also feel some guilt or nostalgia for being there without him. As much as I would love to go to Europe or something, I don't think I can plan a long weekend there so this will be a trial of travelling on my own to some place I know and am familiar with, and getting my Disney fix, and doing it solo, with him left home for a couple days. But I am still feeling some guilt supporting the US right now. I hope it will go smoothly, and that guilt won't diminish my feelings about being there too much.