Biggest Loser Princess and Tinker Bell 2011 and 2012 -- OLD please see NEW thread

[lisah0711]

Good morning Princesses and Belles!

Nothing much happening here. Its been pretty boring lately which I am not going to complain about.

Boring is good! Especially for summer. Nothing beats a long, lazy day.

That's too bad about the dining list. Hopefully it will change. Are you planning a trip soon?

I think for our next girls weekend we should have a spa day too. Spa and DL-the perfect weekend!

I've heard the spa at the Grand Californian is very nice!

That's a bummer about the AP prices. Maybe stretch a hopper into an annual pass so you get some extra time? I don't recall whether they do the non-expiring option at DL.

I, started doing a dance to "Teach me how to Dougie" (I know, I'm probably the only one here that knows it). The school loved it, AK was trying to crawl under the bleachers while shooting me evil stares. She leads such a hard life!

I hope you teach me how to Dougie one day, Taryn!

Ah, yes, AK gets some extra special embarrassment because of you being a teacher at her school. I bet you are a lot of fun and the kids do love you!

A good friend of mine grew up in a small, rural school here in Idaho. (One of my few Facebook friends, Patty). Her Mom was a teacher there, too, and was her teacher in the 3rd grade. There was a very strict rule that she had to call her Mom "Mrs. O'Brien" in class and if she forgot, her Mom ignored her.

Good morning, princesses!!

And princess Lisabelles, I am sooooo excited for your race since I've seen the beautiful bling you will be earning. I think I need to get that on the agenda in my future.

I did find myself pricing disney trips. Michael turns 10 in dec, and he has a teacher work shop and a half day off near his b-day, so if I did 5 nights, he'd only miss 2.5 days of school, and it's cheaper, and he'd be a kid still for the dining plan, and the flights are only 216 direct right now on jet blue. I can't do it yet, but maybe if I get my hours increased in sept, I'd be able to do it.

It's an addiction.

Off to work, but ds is sleeping at a friends tonight, so I really will be able to catch up here, and go out for an early morning run alone!!

Have a fabulous day everyone!!!

Wowza! What are you going to do with your free night? Do you have a good movie on Netflix picked out? You have to do something fun! Absolutely no house or yard work and get that blender fired up. You need to test it before next week-end, right?

Rose, thinking of you all today!

Maria, hope nothing too embarrassing happens to your DS today!

Hello to the rest of our princesses!

Can you believe that it is almost the 4th of July? This summer is disappearing before my eyes.

It's Ironman here this week-end. We always plan to stay home that day because the course runs right between our house and office and cuts us off. They start at 7:00 a.m. and go until midnight! That is a long, long time to be going!

Have a great day Princesses and Belles!

 

[mommyof2Pirates]

Speaking of Brad... We'll be together for the next 16 days. Nuff said. He's off for the next 2 weeks, and already started in on money. AGAIN. Today, he's going to service the car (used to be a car service tech)we hope to take to WDW and see if he thinks it's good to go. It's older, but it's the SUV vs. the flea flicker. So we're trying to determine between reliability and good gas mileage and comfort/packing room. He's working on it at his parents, and taking the girls to swim. So hopefully I can bang out 1 of the two assignments, again, provided I get off here!

HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY!!!
Taryn

uh oh TARYN HIDE THE SCREWDRIVERS

that story about AK and you seriously had me in tears. That poor child.

Makes sense about the dining plan....I just seemed odd that all those places werent on it.

I did find myself pricing disney trips. Michael turns 10 in dec, and he has a teacher work shop and a half day off near his b-day, so if I did 5 nights, he'd only miss 2.5 days of school, and it's cheaper, and he'd be a kid still for the dining plan, and the flights are only 216 direct right now on jet blue. I can't do it yet, but maybe if I get my hours increased in sept, I'd be able to do it.

It's an addiction.

Off to work, but ds is sleeping at a friends tonight, so I really will be able to catch up here, and go out for an early morning run alone!!

Have a fabulous day everyone!!!

I hope that the trip could work out for you. I know the feeling I cant foresee our trip for another 2-3 years and I am already trying to plan it in my mind because that makes me feel better. Then sometimes I get depressed knowing I cant go sooner.

It's Ironman here this week-end. We always plan to stay home that day because the course runs right between our house and office and cuts us off. They start at 7:00 a.m. and go until midnight! That is a long, long time to be going!

Have a great day Princesses and Belles!

Wow that is crazy. Do you get to watch them and cheer them on?

We are not planning a trip in 2012 but I happened to just see it on the blogs and just thought it was strange. Thats how odd I am I worry about stuff even when it is not directly affecting me.

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Busy day today at work but TGIF. I am not sure how my weigh in will go today because I generally try to wait right before lunch and now I will be out of the office at 940 and will eat before I return again. I may weigh in on monday since I will be off next friday. We will see. Either way I know it will be a small loss this week.

Dh and I had a tiff this morning which is a bit unusual for us. I realized last night that he hadnt given ryan breakfast this week before dropping him off at the sitter. I asked him why and he said he didnt know that he was in charge of that. I got mad and said well who ever told me I was in charge...no one gave me a job description I just use commen sense. well that ticked him off. gosh we have been at each others throats lately I think we could really use some down time so hopefully this sunday with not having much to do we can do something fun together. MEN.......

 

[Rose&Mike]

Lindsay--that sounds like an argument at our house.

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Well it turns out there were 3 little tornadoes in our area, 5 total in Louisville!The one at Churchill Downs damaged 9 barns. No horses were injured. What's so funny is they weren't even talking about the storm in our area very much. One was less than a mile from our house. I guess that's why you go to the basement cause you just never know. They were all little and no one was injured, thank goodness! Folks have been getting very complacent around here and I think that was quite the wakeup call.

Everybody at my house is a little stressed out. I went for a run and lifted before we went to the game last night and I felt like I was having chest pains all evening--Don't worry I'm 100 percent sure it's stress, heat and too much weight lifting. And maybe just a little dehydration from adult beverages this week. Tom isn't up yet and he has been doing really well with staying on schedule this week. He said it went ok with the psychiatrist yesterday, but he doesn't want to keep going. He took his blood pressure and it was elevated. It's going to be interesting to see what our pcp says.

And poor Mike. Two people have left his group at work in like 2 weeks. We are pretty sure that they have killed any chance of him transferring with his company right now. The position that he posted on is still listed but he has heard nothing. Sometimes I am just tempted to put the house on the market and worry about the job later. We have enough money to get us through 6-9 months without touching the 401k, but there's the health insurance issue, and even though ours sucks I wouldn't want to go without it.

Kathy--enjoy your free evening. If you lived closer, I'd tell you to come on over and we'd sit by the pool.

Have a good day. I'll let you know how things go.

 

[lisah0711]

Either way I know it will be a small loss this week.

Dh and I had a tiff this morning which is a bit unusual for us. I realized last night that he hadnt given ryan breakfast this week before dropping him off at the sitter. I asked him why and he said he didnt know that he was in charge of that. I got mad and said well who ever told me I was in charge...no one gave me a job description I just use commen sense. well that ticked him off. gosh we have been at each others throats lately I think we could really use some down time so hopefully this sunday with not having much to do we can do something fun together. MEN.......

Woo hoo on a small loss coming, Lindsay! I'm sure it wil lead to bigger things soon!

And a big on the MEN thing. It deserves two really. I've had the same conversation with my DH many, many times. Except you are nicer than I am about it. I usually start yelling something "you can handle a million dollar case without direction -- why don't you know what needs to be done every morning at home without being told?" or something like that, which is really helpful, I know. Poor Mike, he probably felt bad that Ryan didn't get breakfast but instead of saying so, he got defensive. I think it's really just a their brain works differently thing but if you figure something out, let me know.

I might run down the hill and do some cheering on Sunday for Ironman. It's pretty hard to pry me from the house on Sundays, though.

Lindsay--that sounds like an argument at our house.

See, we're not the only ones! Except it is a little scary to hear that you still deal with that, Rose, I was hoping it would get better as DS gets older.

Glad that the tornadoes missed you. It's scary how close they were.

I hope that everything goes well today and that you all can start relaxing with a plan in place. I'll be thinking of you!

 

[mikamah]

Good evening, princess pals!!

I'm just relaxing in my pajamas alone and enjoying every minute of my alone time. Michael's friends mom picked him up at aftercare, and I just dropped his stuff to her, and chatted for a bit. She said, you can call later and check on him if you want, and I quickly answered, "OH no, I won't be calling" Then I zipped to target and picked up a few things, have chicken pot pie in the oven for dinner, and then will just relax tonight, and watch a movie, and maybe read for a bit. I put a bunch of choices on my netflix instant queue. City of Angels if i feel like crying, and some old jennifer aniston movies, picture perfect and she's the one. I don't remember if I saw them before or not. Also put One flew over the cuckoo's nest. So many choices depending on my mood after dinner.

Lindsay - I really can't go in december, yet I find myself dreaming about it. We want to do washington dc next april, so I need to start looking into that and getting excited for it. I am just drawn to wdw, and realistically, maybe 2014 for my 50th might be our next trip, or should be if i want to be responsible, but i keep dreaming. Sorry about the fight with dh.Marriage is tough, not that I know from experience, but I hear it is. Hang in there, and I hope you're able to have a nice relaxing weekend. My friend that was my coach when I had michael thought doing it alone was such a great thing, and reasoned that everything that needed to be done I had to do, if the baby was crying in the middle of the night, I just got up and took care of him, I didn't get frustrated because my husband was lying beside me pretending to be asleep and ignoring the baby. Yah, she's not married anymore.
Hope the scale was good for you.

Rose- I would have loved to come and sit by the pool with you tonight, and check out some gluten free beer with ya. Sounds like you and Mike could sure use some stress relief this week. I hope something turns up on the job front for Mike soon. I would not want to be without health insurance either. So scary to do that. Hope Tom's appt with the pcp went well, and his blood pressure is ok. So many people have white coat syndrome, and sky high bp when at the doctors, but fine normally. Do you check his at home too? Or most of our pharmacies have the cuffs you can check with no stress of being at the doctors office. Hang in there. Hope you have some relaxing time this weekend too.

Lisa "you can handle a million dollar case without direction -- why don't you know what needs to be done every morning at home without being told?" Love this!!! I can imagine you are a force to be reckoned with when necessary. That would be cool to see the Iron man competition. That's a long day for them, wow. I can't believe the fourth of july is next weekend either. I am so hoping our street gets paved by then. My yard is so small the kids play in the street during the party, and have the water balloon fight there, and if it was this weekend it's be a mud bath. So keep your fingers crossed for me. I'm definitely less stressed about things as I get older, and after a couple pina coladas, I won't care what's happing in the dirt. Our festival starts tonight with a champagne gala, I don't know who goes to that, lol, but tomorrow is a park day with kiddie rides, games, and an Ice cream scooperbowl, where you get 5small samples from 5 different ice cream stands. Might make that my lunch. Glad Robert was enjoying his camp this week.

Taryn-Your poor daughter doesn't stand a chance. You are so funny, and one day she will look back without those daggers in her eyes and smile at what a fun and cool mom you were. Probably many years from now though, so don't hold your breath. I have missed your long posts, and since I've been reading your posts, I haven't had enough time to post my own. Just kidding. yay for school being almost over, and your 16 glorious days with your dh. Enjoy every minute of them.

Maria- How 'bout that Whitey Bulger???!!!! It seems like we've heard about him off and on forever, but I think I've heard enough now. Actually, I was thinking it would be interesting to pick up one of the books about him.
Nice job on the runs!! Hope the 9 went well for you. Bummer on the steps cost increasing. It does stink to have to put money into the house, especially at the cost of vacation. I really need vacation time to regroup, and keep myself sane, but of course as I'll attest to this year, it doesn't have to be expensive, just time off relaxing together. Wow, ds's school sounds so challenging but what a great opportunity for him.
I thought of you when I saw our town is getting together with the rec dept to do a summer camp for I think it was 6o homeless schoolage children living in the local motels. When michael started school, and told me his bus stopped at the Days Inn, it made me so sad. Do I remember your work is with the homeless?

Liesel-Bummer on the increase in prices of your aps. I hate when things like that happen, like paying a late fee on a bill makes me so mad if I've forgotten to pay something. Love the tink medal!! You lisabelles are going to be looking good!!!

Well, I'm going to have my dinner now, and chill out for a bit. I do have some laundry to do, but not much else tonight. I plan to get up early and run/walk, but probably just 3-4. My foot was a little sore after the 5 on wed, so I'll take it easy, and see how it feels. Might be time for new shoes, but I was hoping to make it til august on these.

Have a wonderful evening, ladies!

 

[Worfiedoodles]

Good Moorrnnninng, and !

I am channeling Nancy this morning and feeling pretty good!

Kathy -- My dh has read almost every book on Whitey, he loves that mob stuff. It's funny because he's from NH and I'm from MO, but Whitey is just one of those characters you can't believe is real... I do work with the homeless, mostly individuals rather than families. At the meeting I went to yesterday morning they announced that as of Wednesday night there were 1,551 families in motels. What is even sadder is that a high percentage of them are teen moms, who could really use some support. The state is not obligated to provide them with housing search while they're in the motels, so they may not be getting any help in finding a place to live. We go to church in Malden, which also has motels full of homeless families. My church makes kits to deliver meals to them, which is something but doesn't seem like nearly enough. Ok, before I make everyone crazy and get caught up in work on a Saturday, I'm going to move on! Your relaxing evening sounds wonderful! We are going to have one of those tonight. DS is at Camp Wanakee in NH for a youth church retreat, and we are going to go to dinner and then watch "The King's Speech".

Lisah -- Well, you got the husband thing right. I don't know why it is they can do these unbelievably complex deals at work, but are incapable of determining lunches need to be made Dennis worked the basketball courts at Field Day. Luckily for him Ben wasn't on one of the teams he had. He did come over to him just to make sure he wasn't getting a ride home, though

Rose -- I am sorry about what's going on with Mike's work situation. It is disheartening that they will feel they need to keep him where he is. These things do always work out for the best, but sometimes it takes awhile. I bet that he needs to be there in order to be ready for the next fabulous opportunity that will arise

Lindsay -- DH and I also rarely get upset with each other, and usually it's because I'm just in a mood and he's had enough. It is disconcerting, and throws off your whole day. On the bright side, there's always the "make-up"...we had our first and only to date total blowout when we'd been married nine years (screaming at each other and being really mean)-- dh felt so bad he agreed to a cruise for our 10th anniversary. So, it can work to your advantage , not that I recommend it!

Taryn -- You made me laugh outloud reading about poor AK and her embarrassing Mommy! for the next 2 weeks with dh, I know it can be stressful, particularly right before a trip. My dh just hates to spend the money, and the closer we get the more testy he is. It also takes him about 2-3 days to really relax, so I've accepted the first day is kind of a throw away. That's why I like it when we can go to his sister's in Tampa before hitting Orlando. He's finally in vacation mode when the real fun starts.

Lisa -- Wow, that is a scary AP increase! I don't blame you, I would be very annoyed as well. They increased the prices much earlier this year, usually it's in August, I believe. So glad you had a wonderful trip, the photos are awesome!

I'm at Nancy and Corinna!

So, yesterday's 9M went really well. I felt great the entire time I was doing it! I'm so glad, after last week's 8 was a challenge. The scale is not moving like I would like, but I am going to take Lindsay's sage advice and hang in there. I'm sure a great loss is coming eventually. I also managed to stay OP with my food. I had nachos for dinner, my only indulgence -- and I earned enough Activity points to cover them.

DS left last night for his youth retreat, so it's just us today until tomorrow afternoon. DH is running a 10K tomorrow morning. I'm sleeping in. I know the stress has really been getting to me, because I slept 10 hours last night. Spock and were doing their best to wake me after 7 and then 8, but it wasn't until 10 hours had passed I was able to come out of my coma.

I'm not sure what we'll do today. I want to go to the outlets, but I also need to go to the Mall. I have to pick one or the other. It was rainy so I was leaning towards the Mall, but now the sun seems to be coming out, so it's my chance for the outlets. I want to go with dh and not ds, so this may be my only chance for awhile. The outlets are too far to leave ds by himself, and he would be miserable there -- so I'd better just do it! I want to get a new dress and skirt for summer, maybe look at some Vera Bradley...

I was watching a tivo'd "Extreme Makeover:Weight Loss" last night, and I'd like to think I had a epiphany. I realized that I need to lose 34 lbs to get into my healthy weight range. Any way you slice it, that is not impossible. I just keep putting it off and thinking it's too much, and I never really apply myself for long. Like I said, I've got a full laundry basket of towels I've thrown in. I lose 5 or 10, I give up, and I'm right back where I started or weighing even more. The only good thing is that every time that happens, I determine I liked where I eventually got to, and I make a little more progress. This has seen me slowly move from the 210s, to 200s to the low 190s where I am now -- thinking 180s are really good and I can be back there in a week or so. Hopefully this push will get me to the 170s and beyond. I don't like to talk about numbers because I get discouraged, but I think it's important to remind myself that even with the stops and starts, I'm much better off than I was 4 years ago. I know that I have not done all the mental work I need to do -- I do keep trying, and I know I am making progress. I have a lot of issues from being adopted (even into a loving, amazing family), and not being accepted because I'm multi-racial. It's taken me a long time to realize that most people are picked on and ostracized for some reason or other. That's why the "cool kids" group is so small -- small in size and small in mind. I've often viewed being adopted as that first rejection, and if you couldn't love a newborn, what they heck was wrong with me? On an intellectual level, I know it took far more love to send that baby away to a loving home where she could have two parents and a better life, but because of the way the kids treated me in school, it just made me feel like there was something fundamentally wrong with me. I love myself and I love my life -- and I am so fortunate -- I'm just learning to let that go and finally decide if someone doesn't like me that's ok and doesn't mean I am "wrong" at my core, and be pleased not only with what I've accomplished, but who I am phsyically and mentally. I am far from ideal, but I've worked hard to have this particular body, and I intend to continue to improve all of me. The more secure I become in myself, the more I'm able to let the food go. In my case, this really is more mental than physical. Thank you for being my therapists this morning

Last night when I stopped at nachos because I was full, that was a victory. Normally I wouldn't think of going to bed without some chocolate -- but I just was completely full, so I stopped eating. If I can do that on a regular basis, I will see results. Eating is a comfort to me, and I have to stop that.

Last weekend I was in the Hallmark and they have new Star Wars items. I bought a sign with which says "Do or Do Not, There is No Try". This has actually been helping me. I placed it on top of the tv in the bedroom, where I can see it first thing when I wake up and go to sleep, as well as when I'm in bed and contemplating going down to the kitchen for a snack.

Sorry, I didn't mean to write a book, I think I just needed to get all that out.

I hope everyone is ready for a fabulous weekend, and Thank You for being my friends!

Maria

 

[Rose&Mike]

Maria--I wanted to share with you. I went to therapy several years ago to deal with all of the abuse. I was having a lot of ptsd symptoms and really was in a bad place. Anyhow, one thing the therapist told me that really stuck with me and gave me some comfort was that in her opinion the most difficult thing to deal with and to learn to live with is feeling rejected by your mother or feeling like she didn't love you enough to protect you and care for you--no matter what the reason. This is probably part of the reason why it is has been much easier in some ways for me to forgive my dad who was the perpetrator than my mom who allowed the bad stuff to happen. And why it hurt so much. I will never understand why she did the things she did--and continues to make the choices that she made. And for years I had a hard time believing anyone could like or even love me--if your Mom doesn't love you then who could??, but it does get easier. You might not ever know why she did what she did, and that's got to be hard to come to terms with. I know it is for me, but I finally think I have figured out that I need to give myself what I need and that taking care of my body is the kindest thing I can do for myself. I don't know if any on this makes sense, but just wanted you to know I was thinking of you today.

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Ok yesterday was a long day. I have been sleeping so poorly which is not helping. The appointment went well. I just love our pcp and will miss her if we ever move. She spent a lot of time with us and answered all our questions. Tom told her he was concerned the other guy might over medicate and she agreed that less was better. So he has a prescription that he started yesterday. He goes back to see her in a month. She encouraged him to not take it on days he doesn't need it. Which made him happy. We came up with a plan that involves eventually transferring some of the care to the campus counselors--since he is so far away. Mike found out that we can actually mail order the prescription--you can only do this in certain states--and that will save us $40 a month. The nice thing is both KY and SC allow mail order with signature so we can pick up a prescription here and mail it in and it can be delivered to SC or Tom can mail it from SC and have it delivered to SC. So that will make things easier.

So Tom took it yesterday, probably too late in the day (lunchtime) and only slept for 2 hours or so last night. She started him on the lowest dose recommended for adults, so we'll give it a few days and if he's still not sleeping then he'll call her and see what she thinks. He was so funny last night. Normally when you have a conversation with him it involves 50 different topics and is all over place. Last night he was very chatty buy managed to stay on topic. He was wearing me out he was so chatty. He is going to teach Kaplan SAT prep courses this fall and had to study for the training today and he said it was still not the most exciting thing, but he was better able to stay on task. He said his body feels a little keyed up but his brain is moving a little slower so he is actually able to pay attention better.

So that's where we are at. Hopefully the sleep stuff will resolve itself. I am feeling much better about the fact that she wants him to transfer some of the care to campus. The counseling center on campus is pretty strict about what they want for a diagnosis so hopefully the paperwork from the psychiatrist will be sufficient. All that stuff will get sent to SC next week so that hopefully he can have an appointment right when he gets back. And he's going to stop seeing the psychiatrist here which we are all very happy about. He was a little too pill happy for us.

Mike called the hiring people about both jobs yesterday and everything is still in play. We still aren't very optimistic about the one with his company. They have not officially killed it locally, but they have been known to allow people to interview somewhere else and then drag things out so long that it ends up falling apart. This is what we're afraid of. We took a bunch of stuff to goodwill, so no matter what happens we will be organized and neat.

Have a super weekend.

Hello to everyone. I hope you all are enjoying the weekend.

--oh and on the topic of poverty. This whole thing with Tom makes me so sad. All I can think about is all the families who can't afford to do this for their kids. Sure we don't enjoy spending this money, but we can afford it. This would be a huge hardship for a lot of folks and I just hate that.

 

[Rose&Mike]

Forgot to tell you all--my Fairy Godmother was on GMA this morning. They did the my three words segment and it was a video of these three little girls behind the castle with MFG with the words--Bippity, Boppity, Boo. I totally started crying--I'm kind of mess this week! Goodness! Anyhow, it was very exciting!

 

[dumbo_buddy]

hi friends! just popping in quickly to say hi. i need to go back and read a couple of pages. the last couple days were pretty busy and full of food and food and more food. i'm up to 147.5 now - started the pregnancy at 135. it's all food fat, no baby fat. wah. i'm feeling a little sorry for myself for making such bad choices the last few days. i have been exercising most days at least for a little.

ok, have to run. dh is in one of those awesome sour moods (yes, it's only 7am) and i have a feeling it's going to be a long day. he has a little bit of clean up to do leftover from the party and is acting like he's the only one who does anything. cuz, you know, i just sat around for the last few days.

 

[Worfiedoodles]

You might not ever know why she did what she did, and that's got to be hard to come to terms with. I know it is for me, but I finally think I have figured out that I need to give myself what I need and that taking care of my body is the kindest thing I can do for myself. I don't know if any on this makes sense, but just wanted you to know I was thinking of you today.

Rose -- You know exactly how much I needed to her that. Thank You for being such a brave survivor and trying to help me feel better by revealing so much of yourself. You are one tough, strong cookie, and I am so pleased to call you my friend

It sounds like you have a good plan for Tom's medication, and I do think it's better to start low and figure out if you need more. Overmedicating can't be good

So yesterday I started out with a runny nose and sneezes, and it just kept getting worse. I ended up telling Dennis I didn't want to go shopping, I just felt awful. We went out for brunch (I had French toast), and that was almost more than I could take. I came home and didn't leave my bed the rest of the day. I slept awful last night, the medication made me a frequent visitor in the bathroom. Let's just say I was reminded of when I was 9 mos pregnant, and if I could eliminate this cold through liquid, it would already be gone Now I can feel it in my sinuses, so no run for me today. Dennis, who gave me the cold , is trying to decide whether to go run his 10K. He looks like death warmed over, but that's just my opinion

I'm going to drink some Sleepytime tea and try to get a little rest. Honestly, I had planned to go over to the main thread and answer questions, but I don't think I'm mentally up to it. I have that fevered feeling when you can't think well enough to read a book, so hopefully after some rest I'll feel more up to talking about hidden Mickeys

Maria

 

[lisah0711]

Good morning ladies!

Maria, a big to you for working on the mental part of your game. You're like a BL contestant who had their big break through and now are going to knock 'em dead!

It took me such a long time to realize that not everyone is going to like you, and some people aren't even going to have a good reason for not liking you. I used to think that people pleasing thing came along with the exaggerated sense of responsibility that seems to be a midwestern trait. Now I don't know, I only know that "what people think" isn't as important to me now.

I love myself and I love my life -- and I am so fortunate -- I'm just learning to let that go and finally decide if someone doesn't like me that's ok and doesn't mean I am "wrong" at my core, and be pleased not only with what I've accomplished, but who I am phsyically and mentally. I am far from ideal, but I've worked hard to have this particular body, and I intend to continue to improve all of me. The more secure I become in myself, the more I'm able to let the food go. In my case, this really is more mental than physical. Thank you for being my therapists this morning

, Maria, I'm so glad that you are my friend! I hope that you are feeling better today, too. Sick is no fun.

Rose, you have been through so much and are so brave! And you are at goal and have stayed there through another tough year. You so totally rock!

I'm glad that the doctor visit went well and things are coming together. I hope that you all can enjoy the rest of your summer. This may be last summer you are all home at once for any length of time.

Nancy, remember that with Thomas -- it goes so quickly! Then they are grown up and don't need you anymore (or at least admit to it).

The female Ironman champion finished in 9:19:42 -- that is a long time to be out there doing your best. She did walk part of the marathon. The second place woman actually ran the marathon portion 30 minutes faster than the winner so the winner must have had a better bike time. It was a little warmish toward the end.

In recognition of Maria's and Rose's inspiring posts, I am going to go for a short run now. Even though it is a Monday and I never exercise on Mondays. Thanks!

Have a great day all!

 

[dumbo_buddy]

lindsay your tiff with hubby is like a daily thing here! on friday i dropped thomas at my friend's for an hour so i could go to costco and buy things for the party. i had DH pick him up when he left work. i got home and they were both there and i asked DH what thomas ate at my friends. "i don't know. was i supposed to ask?" eesh, if they aren't told exactly what to do they just don't get it. my problem is that i'm hot-tempered and blow up all.the.time!

how's the running going? did you decide on the hershey half? i would REALLY like to do it oct 2012!

rose and maria - i wish i had checked this thread more thoroughly earlier because it seems a little too late to add my two cents. i want to thank you for sharing your struggles. what's the best part of reading it is that i actually KNOW you guys and know that you've come out on top and are two awesome and beautiful women. it is SO hard dealing with mom issues. i went to therapy for a while about my mom but gave up. i think i was just getting mad at rehashing the fact that she just doesn't love me the way she should. and still i find myself sitting and daydreaming about the day when she'll finally be a real mom. yeah, that's not going to happen.

i'm really glad to be a part of this thread. it's nice to know that there are truly nice and supportive people out there. sometimes you just don't want to go into dark areas of like with the people in your real life. you know?

kathy i love DC! i interned there in college and had the best time. alot of my friends live there too. when you do go, PLEASE let me know. one of my best friends works at the white house. she used to be president bush's scheduler (as in, she basically scheduled his whole life in 15 minute intervals for years!). when obama's administration took over, they got rid of most people but she was kept on and does something a little different now. she keeps telling me and i keep forgetting because all i hear is things like top secret and air force one and national security. haha. anyway, blah blah. let me know when you're going because my friend can give you a private tour of the white house. it's AWESOME! she takes you to all sorts of places that you can't go on the regular tour. we were there in april and stood right outside the oval office. we'd normally be able to go in but obama and his staff were in there in a secret meeting which turned out to be him finding out that bin laden was killed. pretty neat.


Lisa so how was camp for DS? and his extra bit of freedom? i hope it worked out swimmingly

Taryn when are you leaving for disney? wait, did you leave yet?

I am channeling Nancy this morning and feeling pretty good!

hehe, it's fun to write in big font, isn't it??



So, yesterday's 9M went really well. I felt great the entire time I was doing it! I'm so glad, after last week's 8 was a challenge. The scale is not moving like I would like, but I am going to take Lindsay's sage advice and hang in there. I'm sure a great loss is coming eventually. I also managed to stay OP with my food. I had nachos for dinner, my only indulgence -- and I earned enough Activity points to cover them.

nice job on the 9 miler! awesome! that's enough activity points for nachos for SURE! you deserve them!


I was watching a tivo'd "Extreme Makeover:Weight Loss" last night, and I'd like to think I had a epiphany. I realized that I need to lose 34 lbs to get into my healthy weight range. Any way you slice it, that is not impossible. I just keep putting it off and thinking it's too much, and I never really apply myself for long. Like I said, I've got a full laundry basket of towels I've thrown in. I lose 5 or 10, I give up, and I'm right back where I started or weighing even more. The only good thing is that every time that happens, I determine I liked where I eventually got to, and I make a little more progress. This has seen me slowly move from the 210s, to 200s to the low 190s where I am now -- thinking 180s are really good and I can be back there in a week or so. Hopefully this push will get me to the 170s and beyond. I don't like to talk about numbers because I get discouraged, but I think it's important to remind myself that even with the stops and starts, I'm much better off than I was 4 years ago. I know that I have not done all the mental work I need to do -- I do keep trying, and I know I am making progress. I have a lot of issues from being adopted (even into a loving, amazing family), and not being accepted because I'm multi-racial. It's taken me a long time to realize that most people are picked on and ostracized for some reason or other. That's why the "cool kids" group is so small -- small in size and small in mind. I've often viewed being adopted as that first rejection, and if you couldn't love a newborn, what they heck was wrong with me? On an intellectual level, I know it took far more love to send that baby away to a loving home where she could have two parents and a better life, but because of the way the kids treated me in school, it just made me feel like there was something fundamentally wrong with me. I love myself and I love my life -- and I am so fortunate -- I'm just learning to let that go and finally decide if someone doesn't like me that's ok and doesn't mean I am "wrong" at my core, and be pleased not only with what I've accomplished, but who I am phsyically and mentally. I am far from ideal, but I've worked hard to have this particular body, and I intend to continue to improve all of me. The more secure I become in myself, the more I'm able to let the food go. In my case, this really is more mental than physical. Thank you for being my therapists this morning

Last night when I stopped at nachos because I was full, that was a victory. Normally I wouldn't think of going to bed without some chocolate -- but I just was completely full, so I stopped eating. If I can do that on a regular basis, I will see results. Eating is a comfort to me, and I have to stop that.

Last weekend I was in the Hallmark and they have new Star Wars items. I bought a sign with which says "Do or Do Not, There is No Try". This has actually been helping me. I placed it on top of the tv in the bedroom, where I can see it first thing when I wake up and go to sleep, as well as when I'm in bed and contemplating going down to the kitchen for a snack.

Sorry, I didn't mean to write a book, I think I just needed to get all that out.

I hope everyone is ready for a fabulous weekend, and Thank You for being my friends!

Maria

x1,000,000 sounds to me like you have a good weight loss plan. you can definitely do it!

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everyone has been doing so well with their running and i was definitely inspired. after the last few weeks of doing nothing but eating and gaining, i decided to get back on the healthy wagon today. i ran 3.1 miles with the jogger and then walked another 2 miles. took me about an hour to do it all and i was so glad to have moved that much. took a shower and now i'm putting together a shopping list and meal plan. my aunt came over about an hour ago. she locked herself out of the house and had to borrow my car to drive to my uncle's firehouse to get her keys. they recently renovated my grandpa's old house so we don't have a copy of the key for that house anymore. anyway, i guess that's reason #45,235 why living around family is a good thing

i'm off to check the BL recipe thread for some ideas. after shopping is nap time (aka laundry/cleaning time) and then i think we'll hit the beach in the afternoon. or the pool club. we'll see. sometimes i wish i had a less active kid so we could have just one day of laying around and doing nothing. oh well!

 

[Rose&Mike]

Maria--I hope you are feeling better. That stinks that you felt cruddy on a kid free day.

In recognition of Maria's and Rose's inspiring posts, I am going to go for a short run now. Even though it is a Monday and I never exercise on Mondays. Thanks!

Have a great day all!

I hope it was a good run!

i find myself sitting and daydreaming about the day when she'll finally be a real mom. yeah, that's not going to happen.

everyone has been doing so well with their running and i was definitely inspired. after the last few weeks of doing nothing but eating and gaining, i decided to get back on the healthy wagon today. i ran 3.1 miles with the jogger and then walked another 2 miles. took me about an hour to do it all and i was so glad to have moved that much. took a shower and now i'm putting together a shopping list and meal plan. my aunt came over about an hour ago. she locked herself out of the house and had to borrow my car to drive to my uncle's firehouse to get her keys. they recently renovated my grandpa's old house so we don't have a copy of the key for that house anymore. anyway, i guess that's reason #45,235 why living around family is a good thing

i'm off to check the BL recipe thread for some ideas. after shopping is nap time (aka laundry/cleaning time) and then i think we'll hit the beach in the afternoon. or the pool club. we'll see. sometimes i wish i had a less active kid so we could have just one day of laying around and doing nothing. oh well!

Nancy--I still occasionally play the what if or if only, etc stuff in my head. I will say, I think it's good that you still have some sort of relationship with your mom. It really is hard to make the decision that you are better off without them than with them. It brings up a whole lot of stuff you have to deal with emotionally. I don't know why she doesn't think you are an awesome daughter--but remember, phooey on her. Fabulous job on the exercise today!

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Things are going ok here. Still tired--I hate being tired. Tom is getting a little dizzy from his meds when he exercises, so we will have to keep an eye on that. Tonight I think we are going to go watch game 1 of the CWS--go Gamecocks!

TTYL!

 

[Worfiedoodles]

Have to get to bed, just wanted to share a thought I had earlier today -- some day our boys are going to be on a message board, all discussing why they can't find wives who are as wonderful as their mothers...I guess we'd better keep Taryn on speed dial!

Feeling a little better, hoping to run slowly tomorrow. Hoping to sleep well tonight since I haven't since last week...

Maria

 

[mommyof2Pirates]

Have to get to bed, just wanted to share a thought I had earlier today -- some day our boys are going to be on a message board, all discussing why they can't find wives who are as wonderful as their mothers...I guess we'd better keep Taryn on speed dial!

This is hysterical Nick aka DS4 was telling me tonight that he has a girlfriend at school and I said well how do you know she is your girlfriend and he said because I showed her the back of my underwear. I didnt even know what to say. DH shrugged his shoulders and said well at least he didnt show her is front. I then gave him the talk about how he doesnt need any girlfriends that he can just have me because no body else can take my place....he then said Ok mommy you can be my girlfriend.


Nancy- Glad thomas's party went well. Dont worry about the food or the weight gain just keep moving and you will be fine. You are doing so good!

Maria- I hope you are feeling better.

Rose- Go Gamecocks. I hope toms meds adjust quickly...dizziness=not fun.

Hello to Taryn, Kathy, and Lisa too.

Well ladies I had a horrible weekend. Well really just one thing ruined it. To make a long story short ah hem....

we had a grad party to attend. My husbands best friend finished his masters so his wife threw him a party. I already had bought a ticket to my friends play. So we went to the party at 5 and he stayed there with the kids and I left at 7 to go to the play. I came back around 11 and my husband was passed out sitting on a chair in their yard. He had way to much to drink. I was furious. I yelled....no wait I growled that he better get his a** in the car. I had to look for my kids. This one guy who I didnt even know said its ok Ive been keeping an eye on them. (ugh really). I found ryan who was playing outside but it took me 10 min to find nick...he was up in their sons bedroom playing. I got there things together and then walked around the house and there mike was sitting on the curb vomiting. His BFF started laughing and i went off on him about how this was not funny at all and that I wasnt gonna take him home. Nick started crying and ryan comforted him by telling him daddy just drank to many beers. I felt horrible for the kids. I was so angry and continued to be even more angry in the morning. I left early in the morning with the kids and went to my moms to let myself cool down. He got up and texted me that he was so sorry. I called him and explained why I was so mad It was more that fact that the kids were there under his supervision and that it was irresponsible of him. Granite his friends are the kids godparents but she was being a hostess and shouldnt be expected to watch our kids. I know he really knew what he did was wrong so I forgave him because I cant stay mad at anyone for long. I came to find out after talking with his BFF's wife that all of the guys had way to much and they were doing shots of hard liquor. I guess they forgot that they arent in their 20's anymore. Apparently her BIL who is a dentist and a very responsible guy vomited all over their kitchen floor. So at least It helped with the embarressment I was feeling.

Anyway sorry for the book but I just thought I would let you know why my wkend stank. I didnt sleep much sat. which made for a miserable sun. I had gained .8 over the weekend but I am back on plan today and went running for 30 min tonight.

I took ryan with me running tonight and he kept up with me the whole 30. I really enjoy running with him. He said he is in training for football.

Have a great week ladies.

 

[Worfiedoodles]

A quick for you, Lindsay -- and if it were me his apology would also come with a concession for something I wanted (cruise, painting a room, actually changing the lightbulbs he said he'd change 2 weeks ago etc.) but that's just me. I would have been scared out of my mind that my little boys were not supervised, and I don't think I would have forgiven as easily. You are a better man than I , Gunga Din!

I am so sorry this happened to you. My weekend would have been completely shot, too. I hope this week is much, much better.

Maria

 

[dumbo_buddy]

ugh lindsay! that would have made me SO mad. i think you handled yourself so beautifully. i would have flipped out and probably made him sleep outside! lol! grrr!

yesterday at the pool a couple ladies and i were having a similar conversation. men just don't seem to understand that kids need to be watched. like, all the time. my friend and her hubby took their daughter to the pool. my friend was down with the daugter and the hubby was up at the bar drinking. on a monday. at 2pm. really? and this other lady's kid was there. the lady works and she asked my same friend if she could take her daughter to the pool. told her that her husband would be there in an hour. well don't you know that the husband showed up, saw joanne with his daughter and walked right up to the bar, never to be seen again.

men!!!

 

[flipflopmom]

Don't disown me! I have been reading, and have lots to say. However, I don't have time. Turned in final paper a few minutes ago. Packing and flurry to get ready time! to everyone. I'll get on, at the very least, Thursday afternoon for a nice long post. Girls will be with mom, and Brad will be sleeping in prep for the drive throught the night. I hope I'll have everything done by then! Leaving Thursday night!

First time packing with AK trying to figure out which bras she can wear with what, and her worried about clothes, accessories, etc. So glad we sit down and plan outfits for each day, and bag them labeled with day, so we have those issues here, not there!

So close!
Love you all!
Taryn

 

[mikamah]

Have to get to bed, just wanted to share a thought I had earlier today -- some day our boys are going to be on a message board, all discussing why they can't find wives who are as wonderful as their mothers...I guess we'd better keep Taryn on speed dial!

You are so funny.
Maria, you are such a strong and beautiful woman and I know you are going to succeed at this. It is so hard to look within, and try to figure out all the emotions that go into our eating and weight, but you are doing it, and you are going to reach your goals. It's not a sprint, it's a marathon, and each day you're still plugging away is a success. Thank you for sharing your feelings with us. I was raised in the manner that if you don't talk about the bad things, then you can pretend that they didn't happen, and know there's lots of things buried deep within me that I've stuffed down with food, and the courage that you and Rose have shown here by sharing so much with us, is such an inspiration to me. Love you guys.

Rose- You are one amazing woman, and I am so inspired by each post of yours I read how you have dealt with so much in the short time I've known you, with such grace and strength.

Lindsay -Hugs to you on your husbands stupidity the other night. I wrote stupid husband first, but I know he's not always stupid, but just does stupid things sometimes. It's not easy, is it. Hang in there, glad the boys were ok, and hope dh makes up for it this weekend, and treats you like the princess you are.

Nancy- Hugs to you on your mom too. I was lucky to have a mom who may not have told me how she felt about me, but I know she loved me, and loved being a grandma too, so it makes me so sad for your parents not to be a big part of your boy's lives. But a big, fat, phooey on them, and you are an amazing mom, and your aunt and uncle will be like the grandparents to your kids, and they are going to grow up knowing how much you love them.
Thanks for the DC info. I had heard if you call the state rep, they can get you into a white house tour sometimes, so I was going to try and do that too. I'll let you know when we make our plans. I'd rather have you planning my disney trip in dec though.

Lisa-That Iron man sounds amazing. I'd be dead. Drowned during the swimming part, once the water went over my head. How was your monday run? So proud of you for getting out there on your non exercise day. It's hard to be a people pleaser, isn't it. I don't want people not to like me either, and do have a hard time with that, but am trying to raise michael not to care so much what people think, but it's hard. I'm sure in your profession you can't please everyone all the time. Hope you're having a good week.

Taryn- You'll never be disowned. So excited for your disney trip coming up. I love vacations!! And if you're arranging marriages, I think michael will make a good catch.

Today's michael's last day of school. yay for him!!! I wish I was working a short day, because he'll be one of the few kids in after school care, but we talked about it and it's better for me to get a day off when he's not in school, so he's fine with it.
He asked to go to chili's for dinner, and then remembered we have leftovers from the grill, so tomorrow we might go out to supper instead.

Off to do a few quick errands before work.

Have a wonderful day, girlfriends.

 

[mommyof2Pirates]

ugh lindsay! that would have made me SO mad. i think you handled yourself so beautifully. i would have flipped out and probably made him sleep outside! lol! grrr!

yesterday at the pool a couple ladies and i were having a similar conversation. men just don't seem to understand that kids need to be watched. like, all the time. my friend and her hubby took their daughter to the pool. my friend was down with the daugter and the hubby was up at the bar drinking. on a monday. at 2pm. really? and this other lady's kid was there. the lady works and she asked my same friend if she could take her daughter to the pool. told her that her husband would be there in an hour. well don't you know that the husband showed up, saw joanne with his daughter and walked right up to the bar, never to be seen again.

men!!!

Yes I know men just dont think. This is actually a rare occurence for my husband. He usually is more responsible. He would not be the one hanging at the bar while we are at the pool unless it was a planned thing and I gave him the ok. Yes I am the example of "the man is the head of the family but the women is the neck that tells the head which way to turn" in a non-controlling way of course. He said he really doesnt think he was like that for long before I got there because he remembers playing football with the boys and then shortly after he got my message that I should be back in an hour he was "coaxed" into doing a shot of some crazy kind of liquor and he said after that is when he doesnt remember much. He truly felt really bad the next day and was embarressed and very sorry for what he did. So I cut him slack. He really is a great guy and husband and thankfully I dont deal with this kind of stuff often.

Don't disown me! I have been reading, and have lots to say. However, I don't have time. Turned in final paper a few minutes ago. Packing and flurry to get ready time! to everyone. I'll get on, at the very least, Thursday afternoon for a nice long post. Girls will be with mom, and Brad will be sleeping in prep for the drive throught the night. I hope I'll have everything done by then! Leaving Thursday night!

First time packing with AK trying to figure out which bras she can wear with what, and her worried about clothes, accessories, etc. So glad we sit down and plan outfits for each day, and bag them labeled with day, so we have those issues here, not there!

So close!
Love you all!
Taryn

Yay. your almost there. Cant wait for that long post..... Have fun packing

Today's michael's last day of school. yay for him!!! I wish I was working a short day, because he'll be one of the few kids in after school care, but we talked about it and it's better for me to get a day off when he's not in school, so he's fine with it.
He asked to go to chili's for dinner, and then remembered we have leftovers from the grill, so tomorrow we might go out to supper instead.

Off to do a few quick errands before work.

Have a wonderful day, girlfriends.

Its a horrible feeling when you know all the kiddos are out early and that yours has to stay. But he will be so much happier on the day you are actually off to spend with him. I love chili's and have not had any NSV there yet. I always end up getting the chicken crispers. I hope you find something yummy and healthy.

Maria- If we had the money I would of gotten a trip to disney out of him Instead I was having trouble falling to sleep and I asked him to rub my back. He did it without any hesitation. Usually I would have gotten denied unless I rubbed his back too. So I guess that was his peace offering.

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Feeling much better today. Slept well last night. Lost the weight I had gained over the weekend. So all is good in my universe for the moment.
Thanks for all your comments about my drama. It feels so great to have friends to talk to and I dont have to be afraid of being judged.

Have a great day!