2011, 2012 and now 2013 have all just been the worse years in my life. Nov. 9th 2011, my birthday, i find out im pregnant! im crying and have the biggest smile ever! then 4 days later i start bleeding. i go to the ER and find out im loosing the baby. im crushed. March 2012 i find out im pregnant again! we pray that this baby stays! im so nervous the first trimester. then i go in for my ultrasound and see my beautiful little baby, moving and giving the tech a hard time.
i cried when she said it was a girl! but the happiness wouldnt last. 8 days later i go into premature labor. she isnt liking it. her heart rate drops into the 50s. even with oxygen. so off i go into an emergency c section. my daughter was born at 24 weeks 5 days. she weighed 1lb 11 oz. so tiny. she was breathing on her own the first 2 days! we had hope!! then everything turned upside down and inside out. 4 days after i gave birth, she had passed away. now, 7 months later i get what i thought was a + pregnancy test. im thrilled! i went to my dr. today. im not pregnant. i have a cyst. and now they are testing to make sure its not cancer. im scared to death! i have 4 children here at home. im asking for prayers that is comes back to not be cancer. i cant handle anymore.
