Thank you all for your kind messages. It has been a very busy 4 days since I got home - mom is at rest and our lives move forward.
With the encouragement of family and friends, I am going down to Orlando with Lisa (CT) and Diana on Friday, meeting the ship as it docks on Sat morning and relax at Disney for a few days. Will serve as a closure for me. I am sure another retirement cruise will be in my future, but my mom always came first.