Summer2018
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Have so much fun!!! Excited to hear about your trip!!!We’re here! Just finished dinner since there were some serious hu-motional things occurring but it’s all good now. Flight was great until like half an hour prior to landing when we hit some nasty turbulence but the kids were rock stars and then the guy from quick transportation texted me he was pulling into the airport just as we were coming up the little airplane tunnel thingy. Very clean car and friendly (although not chatty) driver.
Let the walking to burn off junk food commence!
Yesterday was my friend’s funeral. My DD and her BF came in from two states away to be there with DH and I. I was so glad because I was a wreck. The entire drive there I thought I was going to throw up. When I saw DD, I calmed down. When I shared my condolences with her family and told them how much she made me laugh and that she would always be with us, I could see that it comforted them. She was a dynamo…physically fit…hilariously entertaining…generous…and much too young to die. I will never make sense of this.
I’m ready to start taking care of myself again. I immediately lost 3 pounds of the 27 pounds I gained mourning the death of my brother. The last time I gained so much weight in such a short time was when my mother died. Meanwhile when my BFF’s father died, she lost 54 pounds! I wish that’s how I dealt with grief.
Anyway, I have lost the first three pounds. Putting my friend’s funeral behind me, I feel better. The headache is still lingering but it’s not as intense as it was the day she died. I’m getting more acupuncture this morning which should help.
It feels good to be back.
The weekend went great. I went to the county fair on Friday with DH. I always go to a different county fair going back to when I was a kid in 4-H and that one is superior to this one. I just wasn't able to make it to that one so I went to the one in my county. DH and I walked around and got food. For the last 30-40 years I have gotten a sausage sandwich and fries from the same places. I was so excited when I found the exact 2 at the one that I went to on Friday. I was a very happy camper that night.
Saturday I went to the high school alumni soccer game. DS didn't play because they really didn't advertise it and by the time we knew (Thursday) he was already working. But it was fun to see some of the kids play that I have watched through the years. I am kind of missing the fall schedule I used to have. It was always busy but watching the kids play and hanging out with my friends (had kids on the teams too) is what I miss the most.
Sunday DD had a horse show. She was better then any of the others this year. She switched to doing ranching this year so it was something new and she has been working hard at learning it. There are always 2 people in her class that do really well and always gets first and second. DD beat one of them this time and got a 2nd in both of her classes.
I did the quiz and got boating. Unless it is a cruise I am not a boat person plus I get seasick. We are going on a cruise for our anniversary to see ow I do. I am going to take Bonin before getting on the boat (last cruise I didn't since I was never seasick before) and I also got the patch. If I do good we will go on more. I am not a beach person either. I do not like wet sand on my feet.
My motivation for the week is to continue with walking and doing stairs to be prepared for the cruise. We don't want to take the elevator.
For Saturday I got "beach", which is fitting considering we have beaches on three sides. That quiz did really get me in an autumnal mood tho.
Part of my dysregulation has been for my day-dreaming thoughts to be totally disconnected from my real life, and it kind of disconnects me from my real life on a physical level as well. That is starting to fade away and I'm starting to wake up. This should help me do the things I need to do, so possibly this will finally be the week where I get myself together. That and the Olympics being over so I'm not sitting in front of the tv every evening... altho I did get sucked in to binge watching 'One Day' yesterday, so maybe not so much change on the tv thing.
Just saw this on my IG feed and thought I'd share:
Things I can control:
I'm going to carry this thru the week.
- how I speak to myself
- how I move my body
- how I nourish my body
- how I treat others
- my response to situations
- setting healthy boundaries
- what I see on my phone and TV