Asking for love, prayers, PD and anything else you have to spare

[minkydog]

It's okay, Chell, vent away. What you'er going through is completely normal. Try not to be so hard on yourself. You didn't cause the accident and I doubt you could have prevented it. It's one of those terrible things that happen in life, but usually to people we don't know. I'm sorry for you're pain. Take all the time you need.

 

[Cyndirella]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

 

[RUDisney]

I am so sorry that this happened. I agree with the others, try to stop the what ifs. Everyone has a predestined time that is beyond our knowledge and control. You will not only grieve for him, but for what could have been between both of you. You said in the OP that you wanted to fix him. You had a plan for what could have been for him, no matter if it included you by his side or not.

I truly hope that his family understands that although it would probably not be appropriate for you to plan his funeral, you should be a part of it. Hopefully, you have a good relationship with them.

My DH felt so badly when his dad died last year even though they had been estranged for 20 years. It affected him, too, for what could have been.

I hope you find peace soon and can find yourself remembering the good memories that you have of him.

 

[florida-again]

I'm so sorry this has happened

 

[tiggersmom2]

You are in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[Tiggeroo]

i am so sorry and have said a prayer for you and your loved ones.

 

[chell]

Thank you all so very much! Your words mean the world to me.

Today I met with his brothers at the funeral home and they are letting me be completely involved. They said all he did when he was around them was talk about me and how much he loved me. They also told me that they know I still love him and they said they still love me.

Today they are doing the autopsy in CA and should be flying him home tonight or early tomorrow. It looks as if the funeral will be on Saturday.

When I went shopping today for an outfit I totally lost it in the dressing room after I had my outfit on. I looked at myself in the mirror and couldn't believe I was getting clothes for his funeral. I didn't feel right wearing something old that I already have. I feel like I needed something just for him.

Thanks again everyone. I appreciate you all letting me vent and all here.

 

[ellyn2000]

I, too, am so sorry for your loss. I'll be praying for you and his family. Take good care of yourself.

 

[ntburns22]

 

[minniecarousel]

Hang in there Michelle. I'll keep you in my prayers.

 

[dis4me]

 

[doxdogy]

 

[mrsheppo]

So very sorry for your loss.

 

[Freyja]

I am so sorry. This must be so difficult to deal with. I hope you have a loving family and supporting friends to help you get through this. You can always turn to your friends on the Dis.

 

[Blueeyes101817]

so sorry to hear this

 

[simba928]

I am so sorry. Please stop being so hard on yourself. Remember that we (everyone here on the DIS) are here for you.

 

[Mishetta]

Oh my gosh.....I can hear & feel your pain through your post. I'm so very sorry for your loss. So very sorry.....

You will find the inner strength to get through this but you'll have to pray for it too.

 

[Kitty 34]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

 

[Disney Doll]

I am sorry for your loss.

He is at peace.

I believe that God is good, and knows what is in people's hearts.

 

[chell]

Again, thanks so much. I am so very greatful for my wonderful family - especially my sisters and my father, my friends and all my DIS friends.

I'm doing better at not beating myself up so much right now. It still doesn't seem real. I don't want it to be real. Every time my phone rings my heart stops because I just know it is going to be him and he is going to tell me he is fine.

Thank you all so very much, especially for letting me have such a great place to come where I can say the things I need to say and for giving me so much love and support.